Is it just me,
or has this life labeled me,
as this happy shiny person,
glimmering and shimmering in the sun.
Yet how could this be,
when no matter how shiny I could seem,
nothing can glimmer in the darkness.
Just because I may be,
the only one who can see
the gloom and blackness pressing in,
doesn't mean it not present.
Don't get me wrong, I know
That all of this is just in my head,
I know I make up all these metaphors and similes
to better understand
what going on in my own mind,
whats trapped inside my brain.
I hope I'm not being overdramatic,
I have my good days too,
when the light and warmth
of my family and friends
gets me through the day,
shines light upon the mind.
Yet when I'm alone,
pondering all my faults and fear,
I can feel this darkness pushing on
I can feel the blackness enveloping my head,
wrapping around my chest,
ceasing my breathing
corrupting my thoughts.
I just have to remember the darkness will pass,
to take a second,
and be thankful for all of the things I have.
I just have to step back,
look at my life as a whole,
instead of focusing on the past.
I like this metaphor a lot. I've always been described as a happy and shiny person, and I might appear that way to people around me, but when I can feel this invisible, yet present, darkness around me, it can be hard to see this happiness and glimmer that people always describe me as having.