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  Sep 2020 aubrey
karly codr
i'm trying to be better
i'm trying to feel loved
but the days fly by
and i don't know how
to love myself
aubrey Sep 2020
none of my jeans fit
i used to wish for this

but now its a reality

i thought once i lost the weight
i'd be happy

but now i'm worse than ever
how do i get better. im trying my best.
  Sep 2020 aubrey
I‘m only a minor character
Of my own story
Just another stranger
To myself
aubrey Sep 2020
i thought i was getting better

a better sister
a better friend
a better human
a better weight
a better student
a better daughter
a better mental health
but it was just a lie

wasnt it?
  Sep 2020 aubrey
i am tired.
not for a lack of rest --
no, i slept quite well last night
and I've had my coffee.

its something deeper, something
inherently present, in the
fibers of my skin,
in my tendons, in my eyes.

i am exhausted,
fatigued by life
by the noise and the silence,
the people, and
the empty rooms,
the light and the dark;
by hope and

so worn down by the world
that nothing in it can
refresh my mind from the
constant buzzing.

i am tired, and there are not
enough hours in the night
for the type of rest i need.

-U.K. & m.g.
aubrey Sep 2020
why can't I get my mind off of you
never skinny enough
never happy enough

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