heartbeats like footsteps pounding up the stairwell
desperate, as though frantically and passionately running towards a lover, this body
wound so tightly, heart on the edge of a cliff ready to jump
the only thing reminding me I am alive as it pumps blood through this body
snaps, reacts like a whip cracking through the crisp air intending to enslave us: mind, soul and this body
wired, as though plugged directly into an unstable outlet charging electricity throughout this body
curves, no, mountains, creating a flesh terrain cultivating life carefully crafted by some heavenly being, this body
miracle of childbirth, life emerged from love and two bonded souls leaving valleys and canyons of stretch marks on this body
a temple to be cherished, yet it is degraded every day as pain is numbed and the soul is muffled inside this body
picked over by perverted people, imprisoned; locked in an all out civil war against itself just to survive
strength and resilience as the brain mends itself, it has never been weak; only made to believe that it is nothing more than this body
but they werent ever right; bodies are just the vehicles in which our souls are transported to the purpose life so please dont worry about this body
Eye look around me and all (eye) see is a brainwashed humanity...
when did we become these creatures
forgotten all of what the universe teaches?
behave little sheep lest you fall out of line
imprisoned enslaved these are the times
to rise up
to rise up to the wakeup call
that sleeps within us all
feel the burning in your chest and enjoy it
the pain, the tightness, the lack of air
you deserve to choke on it
now, dont pretend like you care
sinful silly girl when will you learn
you create chaos wherever you go
you can never escape these burns
so dig in deeper, nice and slow
is self harm still self harm if its emotional?
and do you even know why you trigger yourself?
what a dumb baby *****
stop ******* asking for their help
**** in the horrors of your mind
that's it, breathe the hatred into your veins
inject yourself with your own lies
like an ****** addict just numb the pain
broken heartstrings and swallowed silences make for bitter hearts and numbing hands
Were too loud
And when she was told to be quiet,
Now she just sits in silence.
"At what point did you realize you were no longer living, but rather, just existing?"
Entire life filled with traumas, scorched by everyone, my father and my mama
Sin soaked cheeks and violet lies I was living just to get by
Trapped in survival mode going where no man or woman, let alone child should go
Numbed to the fact that this wasnt normal, or maybe the universe just has funny morals
But I pulled myself out of that life, desired more for my daughter, to see her thrive
Comfortability set in and everything crashed, and before my eyes my life flashed
Drowning in chaotic thoughts catatonic, two years it's cost
A shell of a human beginning to pick up my pieces, there's lots of faces to my demons
Have I ever lived before? Or have I always just existed?
you love me because you want to save me
but im not salvagable...
sometimes garbage is just garbage
and you should let it rot