this is what i've become sleepless time has no meaning for me anymore not enough hours in the day and it's all your fault you started the chain reaction i am lucky to have a night without dreams i blame you for my scarred soul that would flicker like a candle in a breeze in the wake of another bad dream
nightmares stemming from my broken heart i am terrified to sleep i want you to wake up crying like me just to understand what you did to me i'd like to see you do it get your heart obliterated eviscerated but you've spread so many false feelings i doubt that you have a heart to obliterate
that's all changing now one single message that's all it takes for me to smile for the particles of my heart to solidify and beat faster once more that one single message full of care, and true worry for my sanity for the darkening circles under my eyes for me i'm not so scared to sleep anymore
he rubs my knee while I snore wakes me when i whimper or cry his fingers drawing circles on my palm make goosebumps explode over my skin for once, i have pleasant dreams hardly appropriate considering how his kisses take me to another plane those brown eyes make me weak he's more than you could ever be a gentleman someone i can trust with my heart and with my dreams
he's willing to wait for me keep me safe make me smile i can't remember the last time I felt anything let alone comfort from a boy's hug i could sleep right there on his shoulder without a single care
the odd night comes around i finally get to sleep at a time that's considered reasonable you creep back into my dreams to rip my heart out all over again except this time, i imagine him there warm arms circle my waist cold hands hold mine my dreams melt away as my eyes focus the dark makes it hard but white eyelashes flutter on his face as he tugs me closer and smiles to himself when i curl into him and close my eyes.