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Lilly F Sep 2019
the isolation wasn't poison, but a drug
one that I tried to drown myself into
until my brain would save myself, breathing in more air
panting rapidly,
loving how it felt to be on the edge of letting go
for just a second, to be with the nothingness surrounding me
until the world resumed
my heartbeat became evident
and the unsatisfaction of reality reappeared

©L.F.
Lilly F Aug 2019
I had to cut you off
not from my life
but from the way you use me,
as your drug
your medication
your therapist
your twelve-step program
because your process of healing,
has become your addiction


©L.F.
ClawedBeauty101 Aug 2019
Dont get too high
Cause then in the end, you end up falling, and then die

It feels good for a small moment to be up in the sky
But then you feel guilty... and wish to make it right
It hurts to fall from such a high place
Quincey Dec 2018
New disciples
You’re always welcome
Erase emotion
Like you never felt them

All religions and creeds
Any shade of skin
Wether you’re six hundred pounds
Or tiny, frail and thin

Everyone’s friend
The equal opportunity affliction
Accepting all candidates
Misdemeanor or felony conviction

Open arms to the loser
Open arms to joe cool
Elite intelligence
Gets played as the fool

Will never care
In what city you were born
It kills your friend
Then helps you mourn

A rapid false end
To your problems and pain
You’ll succumb to the heat
Of its eternal flame

Urban or rural
You cannot hide
Farmer, lawyer, cop
Stripped of your pride

Heartily feeding on the lonely
And misdirected
Sullenly sneaking up
When you least expect it

On call 24 hours
Covering every time zone
Intact families beware
It’s breaking homes

Turning peaceful families
To civil war
Even the ****
Will become the *****

Writing checks
Your dignity can’t cash
Incoherent kids
Selling their ***

A facade of fake friends
It becomes sublime
Your family, your kids
Fade to second line

Lifelong companions
Become total strangers
The loss of perception
Enhances life’s dangers

A devil perched
On either shoulder
Your angels crushed
By his fiery boulder

A baffling, cunning
Insidious disease
I battled the beast
From my begging knees

Yes, I too suffer
So help me please
Someone, something
Help keep me strong
Jack Torrance Aug 2019
You’ve seen her every day,
and she’s quick with a smile.
Always laughing and happy,
and joyful all the while.

She fell in love young,
and married the perfect man.
She has two beautiful children,
and helps others when she can.

You’re envious and jealous,
of the perfect life she leads.
So beautiful and perfect,
and she always succeeds.

I bet you can’t imagine,
that she cries herself to sleep.
That sometimes she’s so unhappy,
that all she can do is weep.

I bet you wouldn’t guess,
that Mr. perfect likes to drink.
Or that he shoots up ******,
over the bathroom sink.

Would you be surprised,
if she lifted up her shirt,
and you could see the bruises,
and scars where he likes to hurt?

Would you be shocked,
if you knew those kids had seen,
the night he broke her nose,
and put a hole in the tv screen?

Would you be understanding,
if she came to you for help?
If she told you everything,
and you could see the welts.

Mr. and Mrs. perfect,
always happy as can be.
Next time take a closer look,
and I wonder what you’ll see.
CryBaby Di Aug 2019
Side by side we'd lie there every night as two broken individuals.
Two shattered lovers as equally broke as the broken bed on the floor.
Always you'd hold onto me while we sleep,
but we never sleep anymore.
Feeling up but not awake.
Existing but not alive.
Not sure how much more of this my heart can take.
I wanted a rehab,
not a funeral.
Seemingly somehow thats what I got,
as it turned out our love was now fatal without a single chance of survival or any hope for a revival.
Coming down feels like falling into an empty black abyss,
tell me how the hell am I supposed to live like this.
Like a fiend except craving not a substance but a feeling,
on another sleepless night as I'm lying here beside you starving.
Sabila Siddiqui Jul 2019
It’s hurting
I can’t make it stop
You can’t take away the pain
I want it to stop
But it keeps clawing at my heart
It keeps raging in my mind
It keeps rotting in my veins
So,
I let the drugs take away the pain
Nicotine flows through my veins
And I escape.
Senna-Mia Rahner Jul 2019
The pills remind her of him
His tongue leaves hers with and after taste
She smokes anything that’s laced
Because he can’t be erased
Imprinted on her brain
And all she’s left with is a wine stain on her sheets
And she breaths deep
She loves the way her heart beats
It races fast, and flys
From the poison and lies running through her veins
Because she’s lost without him
She loves to stay high
Because for a bit she forgets why she’s crying
And how it feels to be dying
She forgets about his touch
Because she drinks too much
She craves the taste
And she could so easily overdose on his pretty face

Love is a drug
And she can’t stop
A Simillacrum Jul 2019
i know well the fear as it manifests
in the dampness come night
dollar bills burn hot in pocket
the reddened skin of my inner thighs
fights to fray the cloth, but i
i'm better off sleeping in my pants
and my shoes, as to evade
then this thing clicks and the misfit
cuts come to fall into plan
by design, without fail, buy and sell
then there's me, this thing replete
with confidence in its destruction
by its hand, or on demand, its a
matter of course                  lightbulb!
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