Sometimes I feel like my mind is spinning so much I can’t figure out what to say and when I finally do the words I spit out are rotting on a once-pure page

Infectious and greedy as that ugliness spreads like weeds
marking the damages it dissipates into the darkness my soul feeds
sonnets filled with sins
***** poetry I spin
like a dream but all I see is darkness
as it fills my mind heart and soul to the brim
seeping onto my skin
light shining through a cloud
my scars a clear reminder
of the pain I refuse to allow
never say out loud
I know I promised
I know I vowed
but the silver is already in my hand
and there is already blood now
-S.L.K

I find it disturbing
How clever and careful
The past can be.

Like some scheme
It has laid a plan,
Raising invisible barriers
That push you to me.

It is oddly entertaining.
I like to see you hurt.
But who can I plead with
For this to stop?

Let me help you
tie your shoes
Let me help you untie your noose  
Each fabric feels tragic
Let me help you
tie your shoes  
Can I show you
How not to drown
How not to rott in the ground

At His mercy
Reanimated to climb again
Pushing out your hip, languid reaches or your arms, curving your spine to exude grace you expect to accompany knowing repetition.
Art maker you have no art
Your pile of creations reach deeply for the core of this world.
You destroy yourself for the motions
The feeling of barely surviving
Brings you warmth
But why must the flame come from burning you?
...
Why are you timber for your own blaze?

Hope, the word of relief, freedom, innocence
Helps overcome all challenges and darkness
A beacon in the night, a guiding light
That leads us through life's plodding flight

With every breath, it whispers low
"Cope with life, and let your spirit glow"
Hope is the anchor that holds us fast
A symbol of resilience that forever lasts

I've killed that old flame
felt so ashame, I'm to blame
i left to pursue nothing
it kept me running
please, lend me something
a little bit of hope
for me live on and to cope

i wish i never killed you
left you there
    in the darkness's hue