I fell in love
With the feeling
Of sadness
Of pain

I knew all its words were lies
But they sounded so true
But they felt so honest
I listened

Knowing full well
That this love was poison
I drank myself drunk
Into a dumb stupor

Because what is
Intoxication
But the act of filling oneself
Full of poison?

But I liked its flavor
I liked its rush
Again I filled a cup with sadness
And I drank deep

Do you know
What makes you feel
That beautiful, lovely sensation
Something dripping
With sadness and bliss
And you know it just
Hurts so kindly
So strongly
That at least you know
You're still alive?

save me bubble baths,
pink bubbles in my chest.

steps soon may cross our paths,
paper guns and inquest.

pools of honey in your eyes,
my sweet, unheard of cries.

slightly broken ribs and pains,
back butterflies ******* in chains.

please, love my echoed kiss,
kiss my nearly drowned reflection.

wrap me in an endless bliss,
then let me out of your ‘protection’.

amount of happiness i’ve stolen,
your words i’ve twisted in my likes.

my soul completely swollen,
lost track of myself, moueix.

might know soon, soon, myself i’ll find
in someone new’s affection,

but that another, never will be more,
than a reminder of your deflection.

moueix, a word i used just to describe, me,
my love for you/him/he.

For the first time
I wanted to live
not for me but for her
Oh Dear, may I?
I promise to hold you,
when you cry

Dear, you are mine
and I am yours
even if you do not
see it now, but
I will be there
when you need me
The Most