my first kiss
my first love
want to remember
the heartbreak
the abandonment
want to forget

sometimes
love is a one way street
and i always go the wrong way
and love the ones i shouldnt

last night i stayed up
until the stars lost their wamth
until the constellations rearanged
until the moon departed back into the galaxy
just thinking about you

now, your face is the one i dread the most
because it is the face ive always wanted the most
but can never have

i cannot take in the unimaginable beauty of the world around me anymore
because you blinded me with love
and never unmasked me

when you are kissing her
i want you to remember that you kissed me first
when you are touching her
i want you to remember that you touched me first
when you are loving her
i want you to remember that you loved me first

if i wrote you a poem
for every time ive thought about you
i would be writing for an eternity
never lifting my pen