Im hurting her,
by being with you,
and the more I like you,
the more I lose her,

I cant carry you both in limbo,
and I cant pick or chose one of you,
him or her,
or none for me,

my friends,
you can not leave me,
for i need you to help me stand tall,
so i cannot chose,

and know i will weep,
when one decides to cut ties,
and i hope you remember the good times,
before my heart ruined everything we had.

Remember I told you I was an angel
On a mission and I hope it hasn't failed
Don't put me down, Don't make me them
Remember I told you don't be like everybody else

I will vanish soon enough
In ways you never dream
in this life I've had enough
Thank you for everything

Thank you for everything
you've been a bright light in my darkest night
Thank you for everything
You've been my best friend with all your might

Everyday That I talked to you
Everyday it was brand new
Loved to hear from you and how you were
I was sincere in listening to every word

And God bless you and God bless your daughter
She's sweet as you, take good care of her
As I know you will as you're a good mother
As i know you will find someone other

when someone knows how bad you can become;
How much of a mess you can be,
or are;
How much trouble you can cause;
And what words you've been keeping.

..But still -
they want your presence in their days.

They appreciate you,
along with what you can
or cannot give them.

And they make you laugh,
when you don't
even dare to smile.

For The Late Night Chats
For HKS*
I Didn't Believe In Angels Until I Met Her
She Cleared The Blur
Baby I Promise You Us Forever
We Met & My Pain Was Understood
You Are Pretty Good
For You Cared
When I Feared
Your Warm Embracing Hugs Made Me Feel Home
You Be The Reason I Don't Feel Alone
For You Were There
When I Could Hardly Bear
Baby I Want You To Know
Each Passing Day My Love For You Shall Grow
People May Come & Go
But To You Sweetheart My Heart I Owe
Your Smile So Beautiful, True & Bright
My Life Has True Meaning When You Are At Sight
I'll Stay
Never Ever Leave You Away
Baby I'll Be You Happy Everyday
Your Words So Pure
I Love You More
Your Eyes So Kind
That I'll Never Leave You Behind
Strongest Bond We Do Share
Always Know I Do Care
You have Embraced Me, & Your Friendship Is True
I Know I'll Withstand Everything, Now That I Have You

How I miss that spontaneous smile, and
The giggle that echoed off the walls
Of the universe, permeating every hopeless
Crevice and spawning endless joy.

How I long for the endless conversations
About boys, movies, and ukulele chords.
Your shoulder to cry oceans on, while your
Baby smooth fingers run through my messy hair.

How I wish his potent spell hadn’t
Sunk into your heart, meticulously *******
The bliss from life, and leaving you
Shriveled and somber.

How I cry when I see those speckled eyes
Flicker with tears, while you gulp down
All the pain, all the grief, all the anger
That festers inside your entire being.

How I love this gem, this rarity in humanity
That engulfs the world like a supernova of
Wonder and zest; and while the clouds of perdition
Loom overhead, your light will never snuffed.

If you're staring at a screen right now;
If this moment's brought you here
There's at least a 1 in 7 billion chance,
That I hold you highest, dear.

I haven't put you on a pedestal;
Nor found a friend more true.
Not a soul could take your place-
You are the one and only you.

I'll never be able to repay the comfort,
Or the joy you've given me.
My only hope in sweet return
Is reminding you of beautiful simplicity.

Back to the days we laughed til we cried;
When we had no heartaches or cares.
Nothing that bothered us any more
Than what we decided on to wear.

I miss the times we felt so free;
I took for granted those nights.
Take now for granted, I will no longer
I swear to keep the present in sight.

Life has enough to complicate
Without needing help from us two...
So I'll do what I may to make nostalgia stay,

To be your best friend, Kaitlyn Lou.