I treasured you in my heart,
I wished we'd never be apart,
Cause you're the best thing I've ever had,
I never thought I could be this sad.

You told me you're better off alone,
Somehow I believed you and I tried to be strong.
Deep inside me I know something is wrong,
But because I loved you I continued to hold on.

And then one day I woke up with tears in my eyes,
I told myself "that's enough" and so I realized,
That I've given everything I've ever had,
But despite all of these, you chose to break my heart.

It's true I've never been perfect,
But I thought you told me that every one has it's own defects,
I know I hurt you, I know I made you cry,
But I've always been true to you, my love was never a lie.

So go on, live your life the way it should be,
I'm finally letting go, so now you're free,
I'm moving on, but I will always remember,
The friend I had in you that I hope I'll have forever.

In Your smile is born my very breath
I give you all i have to give
Your lies have brought about my death
For trust has no place left to live

After years of living...
                                 of loving...

The truth
              
                                      becomes  *lies

Last night I committed Armed robbery
Which isn't unusual, really
It's how I get by
But it's horrible when you sacrifice yourself for your friends
And they leave you out to dry

Shows you who your real friends are, right?
They'd rather take your cut and get high
Calling a thousand times to no reply,
******* guys,
See if you look the same now in my eyes
You ******* cowards
You left me to die
And I'll remember that when you call and cry
"Oh, Ronnie, loan me some money, I really need it"
And I'll say
"Remember when you left me to get shot?
******* punk, beat it!"

You're all lucky I don't come back with my gun
And blast you ******* away
There will be nowhere left to run,
And this dog will have his day
I won't sleep with the sun
Till I get my ******* pay

"I will never break your heart" you said,
Speaking of the ***** that my very existence relies upon,
that pumps every inch of my blood-
                                                 every trace--

"I will never break your heart" you said.
How vain!
It was never yours to break in the first place!

Break-
Break free--
I am pulling at these chains, though in return they're pulling me.

I am stuck-
Suffocating-
I am choking-
        I'm stuck!
How could this be?

Young children running down a green pasture-
Dreams so large, so real, so fierce-
I was there-
       That was me!

Look now-
Look at me now--
Can you see?
An adult lost at sea.

Stuck, Lost, Confused-
In a kingdom so large.
So many others-
       yet still feel alone

Searching for the 'free' in freedom,
Though cornered into fear,
All the rules choking me in,
The 'free' will never be near.

Each flower
I picked for you
I wished and wished
For your words to be true

But even the stems
Knew you told lies
Slowly, they shrunk
Without saying their goodbyes

Each flower i picked
Reminded me of your eyes
And the stems were are strong
As your permanent lies

You lay there on my white cotton sheets,
your hair catching the evening glow.
Awake or asleep,
I guess I will never know.

I grabbed your hand,
brought it closer to my eyes,
and tried to understand
your soul's clever disguise.

I examined the lines on your palm,
traced your veins with my fingertips,
and felt your heart beating;
steady and calm.

I could feel each blood cell,
pounding in the tiny vessels under your skin.
I would spend forever here with you,
if you would only let me in.

If only I could be your blood,
be your life-source,
and feel what it's like to truly run through your heart,
even she wouldn't come between us,
and we wouldn't be torn apart.

I'll kiss you one last time on your wrist,
turn the light off,
and pretend I never had this thought.
I'll wait for the day when you run through my heart,
and this is what will shoot through my mind,
until the
very
last
shot.

Constantly here
but never at my current location
galaxies away in my mind's endless space
lost
with no intent to be found
acknowledging your absence
but refusing to excuse it
physically,
everything's fine
inside, rage the emotional bruises