there's a few things I'd like to say,
you know in the honesty of full disclosure
given my moral stance is kind of made that way,
and so you can't say later that I glossed things over.
It'll only take a minute...
just to set the record straight
so we both can agree I behaved abominably
that is if it's not already too late
and I've ruined our relationship utterly .
Okay, so it's already more than a minute...
but I'll get to the point I promise
I want to get things right if this is my final chance
There'll be no more excuses, honest,
It can all be explained as a circumstance.
One minute? Please, just a minute...
Or some cooling-off time perhaps
I can ring you... yes, maybe that would be best
I can text you with some of the facts
And then call you to fill in the rest.
Half a minute then, let's say a half...
We can't just leave it like this
This is Us ! We've got to be in it to win it !
We could write it all down and make lists
Let's just think things through for a minute...
I really, really... I didn't mean it...
there he goes again
why does his ego have
to be so **** fragile
he takes my one little comment
and has to launch an atomic bomb back
the question is should i take the bait
or let him have it
it's just not worth it
but it really ****** me off
and why do i have to hang on
to that anger when i can fight back
but to what end
he'll just get more vengeful
and i'll get more angry
and this will go on for days
and then for weeks
until we both can't take it anymore
so **** it
i'll let him have this one
I fetch a card from my deck of a love tarot
that showed me the lovers and I was reckoned
Like a crumpled paper my heart was shrunk
I restored my senses and stimulate my mind
How this has happened in this miserable life?
He is no more with me and there is no love inside
It is the irony of daily reading with the cards
It makes my wish truthful and covers my scars
Narrow egoistic minds always take your justification as an argument.
So better not to challenge their small minds, they will never understand. Let them feed their egos with pride of victory.
the distance between us
larger than oceans of time
yet she peacefully slept
There's something in life I can't debate
It's an ugly argument no one can win
I know that love won't fit in my life
When the world we must revive
is just nothing but an utter sin
August 26th, 2019
It's argument time...woohoo! Not...
Here goes. I will personally start by letting you know
that we have more time on our hands to dispute
everything from waste of space to using up brain cells.
There's no use trying to pretend!
You and I will go on about this,
I will be "the problem." I will have "no alibi"
and may go on to lose my argument (as always) in the end.
I know, bad poem! BUT SO TRUE!
I was born
And I was flattened
It's my culture I think
Girls should be quiet and pretty
God forbid they should think
I should be lady-like
And despite all this
I should take all the abuse
Of these men who just drink
So I'm a doormat
I grow up
People walking all over me
I keep my mouth sealed shut
And don't tell them what you see
But I will scream today
I will stop them now
I've been punished enough
You're being mean right now
And I am learning to unlearn
Everything that I've seen
But your white skin means
That you don't understand me
You weren't born fighting things
that can't be unseen
You are workplace
Im not discounting your struggles
I'm sure your life has been hard
I'm just saying
that certain phrases
Hit me hard
Like a slap across the face
You discount my existence
You think your opinion is the only thing
That should be considered
Well EXCUSE ME.
I won't apologise
Because I EXIST.
I'm not a doormat today
But I can learn to forgive
If you apologise
And stop making me feel like this
There's no victims
In this victimless
There is no poorer or worse off
Don't even think
I can't compare myself to you
at the kitchen sink
It's not quantifiable
I don't want to hear about your life
Because we will never have seen life
Through the same eyes
In life there's suffering
Otherwise what's the point
Just get over yourself
Let's both apologise.