I would've given anything to watch every sunset with you
and I don't know why two people in love can't do anything but destroy each other
I don't know why every time you're around poison seeps into my bloodstream
just know that in another universe, I am laying next to you
I know what it's like to adore what breaks you
I've always confused my destruction with divine intervention

Behind those times,
My mind travels in thousand miles.
Behind those pretty eyes,
Are my tears that came from all those cries.
Behind those bluish skies,
Are symbol of loneliness which I try to hide.
Behind those rides,
I don't even know what my life defines.
Behind those advice,
Is myself that can't still make it apply.
Behind those white lies,
Is me that is still waiting for your reply.
Behind those fake smiles,
I'm still trying to look for the positive side.
Behind those sighs I make,
Are sleepless nights that keeps me awake.
Behind those closed doors,
Is me that no one will ever adore.

Yes, I'm hurting.

Yes, It hurts.

You took my sadness and carved a knife.
You took my sorrow and made a blade.
Pushing it into my chest,
I watched you as you plunged it in.
Breaking bones along the way.

As you twisted it deeper;
You smiled.
That beautiful smile,
How could I hate you?
You're everything.

You took my happiness and created life.
You took my laughter and designed a future.
All while the knife was still there,
And you looked at me.
With those beautiful eyes.
How could I hate you?
You're everything.

I bled red love for you,
Yet, this wound still stings.
I bled purple jealousy too.
Yet, you do these things.
I bled yellow hope for you.
Yet, the pain grows.
I bled pink passion too.
Yet, my feelings you dispose.

As you pull the knife out,
Satisfied with your workmanship,
The blade is covered in blood.

You laugh, amused even,
It's your favorite color.

I bleed orange for you.
Just to please you one last time.

My husband is a good man,
he does the best that he can;
I feel safe within his arms,
with him there is no harm.
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He does all of the chores,
with my disabilities,
I can't any more;
He's faithful, caring and kind,
without him I'd lose my mind.
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He's such a blessing to me,
fulfilling all of my needs;
He holds me, oh so tight,
no matter the darkness outside.
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He is the man of my dreams,
he is my everything;
I couldn't ask God for more,
then the husband whom I adore!

Stare the stare and the glaze is near, move the root and the weight is there - Kiss, don’t tell and it’s all going swell - You’re flaming heart is always a dare, I punish you by giving the stare.

I move into you with full brutal force, I close up when you say it’s been hours of talk. I need to feel satisfied before I think, you don’t even mean what you just did.

By giving me all the attention I seek, you always know how to speak. You learn and you go, and you travel to learn again - But this time I mean it - It was just not mentioned then.

I see you when I speak, I tolerate your thoughts. I adore the humbug you make out of nothing. Thank you for knowing me better than yourself, this is the real stare I meant to fit with that glaze.

I forgive you, you weren’t there.
I adore you, in my head.
I’m hiding the truth,
You won’t ever see;
I cared, now I know