I have this unusual admiration for things, let me tell you some of it.

There's something beautiful when I look at the dark clouds even though I know that it signals a heavy fall or rain, I don't care.

I know most of you love the sunset,  and I do too,  but have you ever realized that what it means is that we've survived another day but there's the uncertainty if tomorrow we'll still do? You see, everytime I look at the sky, how it perfectly paints all these combination of colors at twilight, "tomorrow,  will i still be able to see it? " is the question on my mind.  But still, I love every single moment it.  

I lowkey like how the trees looked if there's only branches on it, lowkey because im a Landscape Architecture student and unless that tree is deciduous it's obviously dying. We don't want that. But with the way their branches stood up at the sky, without its leaves but still trying to survive, somehow, something about it is beautiful.  

I've never seen a tsunami,  but I've always imagine,  it's a nice scenery when before it hits,  the wave rushes opposite the coast, uncovering parts of the underwater , revealing its hidden beauty, even though I know that only minutes, or maybe even just seconds away, the destruction it'll bring awaits.

All my life, the stars at night never failed to amuse me, but they don't guarantee you that they'll be shining up there all the time,  I always feel disappointed when I look up and found nothing but vast darkness.  

You see, I have this unusual admiration for things,  and there's still so many which i find beautiful yet whose beauty only brings unwanted outcomes,  

And now I am afraid,


I found something beautiful in you and it scares me.

her tongue danced like the swaying maple,
ideas transforming to light,
a monarch pushing its iridescent chest into
tomorrow.

it is enough to soften a man's heart.

the song,
unheard from time to time
(the dark clouds plugging my ears
as crows huddle on fraying, telephone wire),
echoed as the stone at the base of the waterfall does-

(she is untouched by water
or human intervention)
.

it is the warm recipe known by heart,
the compress for a broken foot,
the wind chime surrendering pre-determined agendas
to Spring's affirmative intuition.

I want you.

Let me make you the girl I write about,
Let me make you the one they envy -
Give it a chance and take me.
And I’ll be honest,
I’m really not that handsome,
but my loving heart’s a mansion.
Let us be together,
and I promise I’ll love you forever.
I’m really not rich nor do I drive a supercar,
but I know you’re worth more than the stars.
I would take a rocket and fly a million miles,
if it meant I got to be up close for your precious smile!
Life’s tough, but for you I’ll be tougher,
I’ll never break your heart, I’ll end the suffer.
You’ve gotten it all from me,
possession, confessions, temptation -
Let me heal you of your deprivation.
I’ll make it up to you in time,
but first let me call you mine.

Winds whisper through shaking leaves
As dandelions dance around you and me
In the autumn breeze
My hearts an open ocean
Yeah, you’ll see,
like waves caress the sand
We’re connected hand in hand
With you, that is where I stand
I’m proud to be called your man
Sunset skies reflected in your eyes
I’ve been falling for you
Baby, I’ve fallen for you
Her soul is beaming through
I feel the chemistry build up inside

Sensations tingle from deep within
Just like air need to breathe you in
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Fill me with hope, fill me with strength
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Just like air need to breathe you in
Fill me with passion, fill me with love
I’ve got you girl, and that is enough
Fill me with light, fill me with joy
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Just like air need to breathe you in

Gotta song coming on,
Music in my bones
hearts synchronised
to a beat all their own
Just like stars, the nights are ours
Just like rain, you give life to me
You help me grow
You’re the knowledge
I need to know
The power you’re sending
From your magnetic connection
Electrified, re-energised,
vital signs come alive

Sensations tingle from deep within
Just like air need to breathe you in
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Fill me with hope, fill me with strength
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Just like air need to breathe you in
Fill me with passion, fill me with love
I’ve got you girl, and that is enough
Fill me with light, fill me with joy
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Just like air need to breathe you in

Beauty is found
Wherever you’re around
With style through grace
Your sweet cherry lips taste
The more I get of you
The more I get of us
Gets me hooked like a drug
You’re the bandage on my scars
I admire all that you are
Need you at my side
For the rest of time
I see us forever intertwined
Forever I want you to be mine
I see it in you, I feel it in me
I tell you all the things you need
Together we’re better
This is my never-ending love letter
For you

Sensations tingle from deep within
Just like air need to breathe you in
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Fill me with hope, fill me with strength
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Just like air need to breathe you in
Fill me with passion, fill me with love
I’ve got you girl, and that is enough
Fill me with light, fill me with joy
Yeah, girl, you’re my everything
Just like air need to breathe you in

©2018 Written By Benji James

"You have such a beautiful way
with your words;
It's almost as if they are laced
with melancholy."

You see, the word beautiful
has been told to me by a lot of people.

Appearance-wise,
how I speak,
how I form my intricate thoughts;
the list goes on.

Their words would elevate me,
and then pull me down like a sinking weight.

It grows like cancer.

Am I enough today?
Must I go on with 'this'?
Why was it given to me when I hadn't asked for it?

And this burden attacks me so viciously
it rips me of my courage,
my interest,
myself,
and who I am.

I feel like an empty shell.

Is this what it means to be beautiful?

If so,
don't let me be.

— Y.H.

beauty,
gentle fervor.

Last month, i dreamt of you.
You painted me into a bright yellow when i was completely colored in blue.

Last week, i dreamt of you.
You made me smile and suddenly it was you who i always wanted to talk to.

Last night, i dreamt of you.
We walked hand in hand under the pink skies of a nearby avenue.

Tonight, I might dream of you.
Will you dream of me too?

I better stop these feelings,
Before I stay up all night thinking about you.

I better stop these feelings,
Before my eyes become fixed on you.

I better stop these feelings,
Before I start dreaming about you and I.

I better stop these feelings,
Before our small talks keep on repeating inside my head.

I better stop these feelings,
Before your small gestures  jumble my emotions.

I better stop these feelings,
Before your presence becomes my only happy pill.

I better stop these feelings,
Before you completely occupy both my mind and my heart.

I better stop these feelings,
Before I fall, without you to catch me.

loveliness in all you do
rhyme and rhythm in every move
a heart of gold, a heart so true
the universe lives in you

i love you more, each day goes by
and there are countless reasons why
i'll never let them pin your wings
so i can watch you fly