Why does everything make me sad...
Good things make me sad...
Seeing people happy makes me ache
Everywhere I’m in pain
Because I really don’t feel okay
And I know people are figuring things out
They’re finding reasons to be alive
And every time I see them
Enjoying being alive
I am reminded
That I don't want to be

My heart is itching

Itching

        Itching

                 Itching

For you you you you you

But no

No

No

I can't

Won't

Shouldn't

Love you

Hate you

We're just friends

Oh but how my heart itches

When a man crys for her it is no ruse

It means his heart is broken not bruised

He may struggle silently in plain sight

He may withdrawal from all light

At any time it is for sure, she has has damaged him for ever more

will the ache in my bones ever end ?

Anger pivots
Coming by surprise
Slowly reaching
Hits you when your down

Nowhere to turn
Whole world against you
How can I learn
Please sooth my aching

Somebody there
Calling my name
Come, please return
Do hear my prayer

Feels like I’m falling
Inside is breaking
Oh what it’s aching
Can’t see I’m shaking?

Then as from nowhere
A light starts shining
Someone who loves me
Won’t let me forget

How can I thank you?
Hero of the day
Words can’t pronounce
The love I feel for you

That’s the thing

I can’t love anymore

Because I was led to believe that I was loved

Only to discover that it was all an act

He was only lonely

And I was led to believe that I had found someone who would treat me better than my parents treated each other

I can’t have you

Because I’ll go in the relationship

Just waiting for the inevitable to happen

The moment you look me in the eye and say you never loved me