Wednesday, 9:12 p.m.

I hope
that I'm pretty
I really
feel ******
and I wish
that you were here
with me.

My fragile bones
feel likes stones
aching
and bending
and crying beneath my skin.

I'm lonely
and cold
and I just think
I could make you
so
happy.

Glass and soot rattle my lungs
in each quivering breath,
Bitter stone and thorns claw
at my shaking hands

As I drag my dying body
through hellfire

trying to save you
again

So, you’re gonna leave, he said
Yes, she said, when the time comes, you’ll understand.
Today, he understood, he now knows.
Pain, it cracked through his skull
Everything hurt, but mostly, his heart ached
He remembered her, suffering
He remembered himself, watching
He never understood before
But now, now he does.
Dying, on the ground, he remembered her
Dying, on the ground, he cried.

"i just thought the sky looked better behind you."

It's all numb out here love 
Numb body's laying around blood smudged 
Calling it a feast for the wolves who lost their way. 
They lied you they aren't lost, they ran away from the pack of powerful ones, scaredy-cats. 

If you are done here, 
let me move I had this ache for a love pill, 
don't judge things weren't easy you left I didn't 

They gave me more depression, confusion, paranoia, anxiety so I can never really remember you see they loved me. 

Yes, I'm so addicted to this toxic love that have intertwined with my mind and soul, 

don't do that 

don't watch me like you know how it feels. 

Wait,
I can feel my tears raising up through my heart to eyes,

but how I can't cry 

I forgot how to

can you teach me again just like the old times. 
Breaking me a million times 
and don't worry I'm weak now 
my addiction won't make you my priority.

Why do you want me to want you when you dont want me too?
Why do you need me when you dont want me to need you too?
Why do you make me love you when you know you'll never love me too?

You're going to hate me maybe
Or you'll try to ignore what you see:
Us being atracted and talking free.

Are you scared of what might happen?
Rather than that you should suffer
Every moment that you haven't done.

Speak your mind '*** you know me.
Please, don't fear my words and be
Everything that i need in this life to see.

Certain it is that I might be addicted
It's your choice what you're believing
And your soul is yours to bring
Leaving it in my hands to stop aching.

Reading the first letter of each is a key
To know what you really are for me.