Music
Makes my mind clear
Music
Is all i want to hear
It takes away my pain
Makes grey skies as clear as day
but you know what they say
good things can never last
its not as fun as it was in the past
they're moving on as i get passed
by the world
leaving me no plan to unfurl
this is something i alone cannot fix
lets face it once again I'm caught in the mix

I am lossed

Tossed

Locked

And stuck

Im in a fog

A mist

A haze of bad luck

Im confused

And used

And unsure of my mind

Im stupid

Intelligent

Dumb

And smart

But mostly blind

These answers i cannot find

Caught in hypothetical execution

Im trapped in my own confusion

Sensation
Devastation
My body burns
Like radiation
Inflation
Damnation
My soul is lost
In this conflagration
No patience
In my station
And what did you do
You roped me
And broke me
Smoked me
And rolled me
There's no sense
In my defense
What's new is more
But what's more is less
There's no innocence
Any more
It's stranger than fiction
In a dark encryption

Inside a feeling of darkness diminishes

Before my goal finishes

I think i'm losing control

I think i'm losing my hold

Enter a muse to my rescue

As my darkness goes askew

A head which color's changes

As i stare in blank faces

Is this love in my heart

Which strikes me like a dart

Or as an arrow from cupids bow

My darkness is at an all time low

Happiness rises inside

During a long time to bide

If u fall in love follow this fact

If u fall, the darkness takes a disappearing act

Dearest darkness
Can you hear me
The world is in disarray
Can you help me
Repair it anyway?
The world is living
But only slightly
Can you speak to me
On what must happen
Can we stop it?
Can we help ourselves
The world is dead
And no one cares
I will fight
The nearest and farthest
Can you hear me?
Dearest darkness

Destroy
Your deception
Employ
A new direction
Avoid
Insurrection
Life
Is the lifeless love of laughter
Looming in lethargy
And lethality
Rises
Despises
My emptiness
Is no more
As I soar
through the open sky
I roar
with a question of why
Why did my despair
debilitate me so long
I'm now considered strong
Caught in this throng
Of life
Avoid
Insurrection
Employ
This new direction
And destroy
Your deception

Have you ever been broken
Have you ever been beaten
Have you ever sat smoking
Looking for a reason
Why am I always on the other side
Looking in I see true happiness
And this glass
Attached
In between myself and my dream
I see it
I hear it
I feel it slipping through my fingers
Is there someone
Is there anyone
Who can pull me to the surface
My pain will always linger
Is there anyone
Is there someone
Who will caress my face
I've completely lost the thing
That brings
That drive to write a sing
Still I try
Wishing I could just die
But I just hide
Who I am inside
With a guard built up outside
My life just a lie
I'm completely broken
And why!
I've never hurt anyone on purpose
I do my best to see the good in others
Even without a purpose
I'm feeling as if I'm smothered
What I write here is all truth
Its what is me
Out there in the air
To the people reading this
Do any of you even care?

I feel that metal flowing
Now don't let it stop
The volume keeps on growing
To bring you all sweet, sweet rock!
The masses join the crowd
Now it's getting loud
As if lost in a heavy dream
I want to hear you scream
The music starts thumping
As my veins start pumping
Heated blood
Look what it does
I mosh and I thrash
I throw out the emo trash
Because I wont settle
For less than metal
That beat shows no signs of slowing
As we all begin to rock
Come on, feel that music flowing
And don't let it stop

Can a dream come alive
Jump straight out of your mind
Be real, in present time
A thin veil separates my dream
From reality
But I can see
Her hand upon the veil
Listen to another tale
Look again and there she is
Standing there in front of me
Waiting
Hoping
I reach for her
Pull her close
Move in to kiss her
And she's gone
Dreams are fleeting
And teasing
But she is real
And soon will not disappear

I hear it

Beneath the surface

Fighting for freedom

From its subconscious post

Inside its kingdom

Inside it's host

I knows its there

And i fear it

It knows i'm here

And i hear it

Her thoughts speak clearly

Of trechory

Of indignanty

Of infidelity

Of pain

And of suffering

Should I let go

Or should I ignore the echo

Dot dot dot
Three periods
Ellipses
It means I don't know what to say
I've left a lot of conversations
In just this way
I read people
Sometimes a little too well
And this pause
It fails to quell
This storming tide
Tempestuous in its turmoil
Tilting and tottering
As my heart is tossed around
Tiny tears trickling toward a sound
Slowly smoldering
Shouldering a stupendous
Shockwave
Electricity
Looking for the ground
For days I've tried to be there
For days I'm met with silence
For days I've been scared
Because it seems
Like no one cares
I'm languishing
I'm low
Lost in a listless lilting
Heart is wilting
And it feels like I'm growing cold
I hope I'm wrong
I hope I'm just crazy
But in my experience...
...
...

In areas of unknown desire
In my heart there is a fire
Tremendous is the power of the tide
I feel so empty inside
Death will come to those who wait
My heart is so filled with hate
Hate for all who offend
Hate for those who do not defend
The ones who need defense
Will fall thus hence
We are overcome by the tide
We feel so empty inside
Mark this day
So you will remember all that I say
I have no quarrel with those who save
Those who are to afraid to be brave
Then you shall have no quarrel with me then
Although people call me heathen
As we give our lives to the tide
You are the one who's empty inside

In a world overturned
the empty tide returns
this tide binds me to my mission
this tide inside my vision
shadows shroud my soul
emptiness once again takes hold
as my soul dies, my body lives
as my body dies, my power gives
and i still manifest this tide
but you, you are still empty inside

They can be blue
Or they can be green
They can be nice
Or they can be mean
They can see you
Or they can see me
They can fly high
Or swim below the sea
The bluish and greenish haze
Whirls me around setting on this daze
That makes days
Go by in a wave
In the constant motion
In deep blue ocean
I see them inside
and I wonder why
I cannot hide
I think I'm losing my mind
I'm in a bind
Is I look behind
I must be blind
If I cant find
Something to make me feel
A little better
A little happier
A little smarter
Its just a precursor
Of the world around
A sound
A resonance
A being
Of arrogance
Humbled
I wish I could feel the same
The way I felt when I was insane
The voices are gone
So no in mind therapy
When I think that I'm done
I'm immersed in entropy
My world has been rearranged
By bluish green eyes that change

I'm caught in a daze
Stuck in a maze
Of my own confusion
Of a desperate delusion
Its all an illusion
Of better days and better nights
I keep on finding myself in fights
About nothing
About no one
Still there's something
Still there's someone
That holds still my beating heart
Keeps me from falling apart
It's a firefly haze
That lights my way
Until i find you
And i shine through
What has held me back
Given me a heart attack
As i ascend to glory
I'll tell you a story
Of a never ending maze
Where i live out my days
Guided by a firefly haze

I once was a man
Born into profit
I was given everything
But I've lost it
I ran away
I've gone astray
In utter disarray
In total dismay
And there i stood
Trapped in a maze
An unknown neighborhood
But suddenly there was light like day
It was a firefly haze
come to guide my way
And I understood
I am the keeper
My life to walk deeper
I must live out my days
In this never ending maze
guided by this firefly haze

Sebastian
Sweet Sebastian
Your all alone now
You're wondering how
It could end up like this
As you stumble through mist
Thinking of better nights
Thinking of more than one light
You walk down the halls
Feeling the walls
Nothing can help your plight
You'll lose even if you fight
So walk deeper my boy
Walk deeper sweet boy
Follow the fairy
But always be wary
Of your cold dark void
The one in your heart
Yes that one in your heart
That never will start
Again
My friend
You must live out your days
Exploring my maze
Guided by this firefly haze

In the dark corridor
They cannot hear you scream anymore
Armies have fallen to the maze's mysteries
all who meet him will decease
The man, the bull, with inhuman speed
Will grasp your throat until you bleed
Inside the monster, deep and hidden
He wants to be forgiven
He is trapped inside of this beast
An excruciating disease
if you would please
listen to me
Then you shall see
An empty room
Where he lives out his days
Accompanied by a firefly haze
Do not dwindle or take a breath
For if Sebastian hears us
It will be our death

Hello Sebastian
My young guardian
'Tis me the maze
Starting your heart again
The maze be my mind
And you are the conscience
Helping me through the indifference
Hearing the sound of resonance
Echoes upon the wall
Have made you fall
Into a slumber which has crippled me so
Sebastian don't go
Your gone now aren't you
Oh my
And oh dear
I have stumbled upon my worst fear
The maze has no keeper
The firefly has no haze
My hellish rule is over
I have no more days
I will make my sounds of pain so subtle
When the stone of my walls begin to crumble
Into the underworld's clammy grasp
Sebastian sweet boy
Your soul is free at last

**** honor
**** chivalry
**** that one *****
And **** her "bestie"
**** everyone
**** everything
**** The world
**** some girl
**** my life
**** the strife
Take this knife
And ******* cut the pain away
**** my eyes
and **** my face
**** these times
and **** this place
****!

I'm disappointed
And taken aback
I'm almost furious
As our second right
Falls under attack
This amendment
Is the foundation
In which our nation
Was created
I've tasted the bittersweet sorrow
Of this situation
A vulnerable position
Falls upon us now
I'll tell you how
To make the violence bow
Arm the public
This is crystal clear
Intended fear
Believe it or not
A mass shooting can't happen
If the shooter fears getting shot

Basking in strawberry moonlight
I look upon selene
And see your face
The air catches in my throat
I'm captivated by your grace
The thought of you
Infectious
It lingers in my mouth
Your taste
Terrifying and terrific
Terribly tantric
Tumultuous an tempting
This tempest
A torrent tearing down my walls
A Tsunami
Leaving bare
my soul
Is this true
Is it you
My goal...

Silently I stand
Surrounded in stoicism
Submerged in saddening sorrow
Saddled by stacking sour and soulful screams
This pressure building heavier
Yet I endeavor
I carry this weight
Always knowing
The load I bear
Will at some point
Give way
Releasing a cavalcade
Of despair
My life has not been easy
Albeit easier than others
This pressure grows on you
Sometimes so much it smothers
And covers
The screams
That replace my dreams
That shine
In my eyes
Over time
It has died
All that's left is grime
My eyes
An everlasting echo
Etched into everything
I've ever erased from memory
A cliche I'll enter
I hurt myself
To make sure I can still feel
I meet love head on
Full of zeal
Incessantly inquiring for that iconic
And inspirational ideal
But to no avail
My heart seems
At least to me
A fun thing
For people to step on
I rush to aid the ones
Who remind me of myself
Because for me
No one cared
No one dared
So maybe I should
Maybe I could
Offer my opinion
Grant a little guidance
My lack of direction
Makes me a foul figure
To follow
So my advice is unheard...
I apologize for this dump
Recently I've been in a slump
Just wanted to say this stuff
And also ask the world
****,
When have I given enough?

Feel it pumping
Feel it flow
My pulse is jumping
It's time to throw
You ****** me off
For the last ******* time
Blood you shall cough
As your lungs die
Your breath leaves your chest
You ****** with the best
Now die like the rest
My boot crushes your throat
I'll get the last vote
As I leave you to float
In a stagnant mote
Of sewage and ****
And I'll go and get lit
And watch you burn
Because *******
It's my turn

Outside the heat rises
So much it hypnotizes
People into unwanted slumber
They fall over like fresh cut lumber
Their heart rate slows
Their temperature grows
Their minds implode
In this episode
Of unbearable conditions
In this rendition
I try to be brave
I try to save
A humble knave
In this heat wave
I fail as I try
And I too, die

Is it meaningless
If i hold your hand
Is it meaningless
If i touch your face
Is it meaningless
Or is it grand
Is everything meaningless
In this rat race
Every grain of sand
Every rock 'n' roll band
Every lady and every man
Yet i still stand
I stand and write
I write only what is true
Whats true is not always right
Whats right is not always you
And again I stand
I stand for those with no home
I stand for those who are all alone
I stand for those who need defense
I stand for those trapped behind the fence
Of total control
I know I've lost my hold
And now I've turned cold
I stand for those who are helpless
Even if you think its meaningless

Hey buddy!
I noticed you're a little nuts
But
You gotta understand
For you life isn't gonna be so grand
Anymore
Because
Don't you see
You're fooling yourself
Because
She doesn't want you
But she does want me

Anger rises
A soft heart dies
Hardened in crisis
My mind just flies
I can write again
For the first time
In so long
My mind has long since been gone
Can you hear me crying
Can you watch me dying
I feel like flying
Heat rises
In blood so cold
A cut entices
Anger so bold
I can remember
A hot temper
Drowning me
How I wish I could see
I am not bad
Merely just mad
And yes i do remember
My woefully hot temper

I'm sick
I'm sick of the world
I'm sick of my curls
I'm sick of small toys
I'm sick of a voice
I'm so sick
And I know not what to do
I'm so sick
Of the hell I've been through
But most of all
I'll say it proud and stand tall
Because my words are true
I'm so sick of not being with you
I'm sick of not hearing you talk
I'm sick of not holding you as I walk
I'm sick of not smelling your hair
Because mon etoile
I love you more than air

A feeling of loneliness
A showing of heartlessness
Soaring and flying
Living and dying
Inside this force, it grows
A felling we all know
Inside a darkness grows
From my head to my toes
Inside it rises up
And yes it pulls me down
I see an empty cup
Insignificance is my crown
For this I shed one tear
For there is few I fear
You persecute outside your preference
Merely proving your own insignificance

I'm tired
But wired
On fire
With desire
I admire
The life of a liar
Steeped in dire...
...Need
This seed
Brings me
To the start of this deed
Released
And deceased
I'm diseased
And sick
This wick
From my candle
Grows dim
Do you know this?
This bliss
Exists
With insomnia's sweet kiss

In the sky
I see red eyes
Staring down upon me
Seeing everything I see
I feel I cannot escape
I fear no one can relate
I know I must not hesitate
If I do I seal my fate
Staring down is the eye
So high up in the sky
I take my last breath
And I stumble upon blissful death

Fire lights the sky
Explosions up so high
How I love the fourth of July
But then I think
Why
Why do we celebrate
When our brothers and friends are dying
When innocent youths duck down crying
While on our own streets women are *****
In the loud crack of the fireworks
A man is shot dead
By a silent thief who quietly lurks
In the shadows where a man now lies in a pool of red
Police abuse their powers
While mere children are trapped in bullet showers
As a shopkeeper is killed as he cowers
All i see is impending doom
I do not know to what or to whom
As you sit reading in your room
Do you also think we've built our own tomb
Will we all be without homes
Will our country fall like Rome
Will this become an ancient tome
A mere relic of our great land
With its beautiful beaches covered in sand
Purple mountains standing graceful and grand
And I realize
I should dry my eyes
Because no matter what
Nothing can take what we have built
Never will our flower wilt
An I will say forever, and ever
Remember, remember
Change will come in November
Or maybe not
I know not what lies ahead
And i don't care, I just hope i wont be dead
And then I avert my eyes
Oh how i love the fourth of July
Because then i can think
And watch the beautiful iridescent skies

Careless an callous
Between a rock and a hard place
I see a face
An angelic face
That keeps me wanting more
I long for her
And wonder
Why?
What makes you think
You can walk all over me
What makes you think
I'm strong enough
To be your friend
Things barely began
When you chose to end
I fear I may be damaged
Beyond all repair
Now tell me
How the ****!
Is that fair?