This numbness and this pain
It eats me away
She said it was just a platonic game
My heart aches and bleeds
Just like my whole world
Can’t you see that I’m freaking hurt
No matter what I say or do
You won’t love me like I love you

When people call me babe, darling or love
Without meaning
Without feeling
I feel like screaming
My heart feels like it’s bleeding
Don’t you know the meaning

My desire, my want
My only passion is to hear
Those words with love
**babe

I ache for my first kiss
Just a taste from her lips
An embrace from her warmth
Like the light in her heart
Kiss me in the light
Where the sun shines
To where we first met
In the middle of Tibet
So listen to what I say
I love you and I would stay
No matter where we at
I love you till my death
Beyond the stars and back

I can still feel you on my lips
The taste of your tongue
Which made my head swum
I gave you all my heart
My first ever love

But someone so cute as you
Brought me so much misery and doom
You destroyed both me and you
With all your cheating, lies
Now you are being despised

See what you have done
So much suffering
That I can’t go on
Leave me alone
Enjoy your parties
And so long

dark age clashing iron
winged fire demons dying
skeletons scattered

You’re waiting for a train
A train that takes you far away
But then you remember
You already played  this game

Inception is what they mean
For they who can’t dream
Forever is what you get
As long as you have left

Buildings fall ocean rising
Forever might seem surprising
Untouchable it seems
But promises are to keep

You think you are awake
While you are actually asleep
Wanting to wake up
You have to die

Totems are the key
To see what is reality
Gravity rules
For they who are awake
And alive

all I ever wanted to be
was to be yours
so you tell me
since you have rejected me

now I'm lost
living without a cause
except for one
trying to keep living on

with a broken soul
may I add
a wrapped bandaged chest
and a shield up ahead

I now want to be
a person who sees
right from wrong
and is strong

A lone wolf howling at the moon
you feel a darkness creeping up on you
the fog that follows you step by step
footsteps crack, crack, crack
headlights ahead
thank God

I’m safe again

Words silly things
Letters with meaning
Still meaningless

You have been only once on my bed
Now I can’t get that image out of my head
I can’t find sleep nor desire to eat
I feel like a freak

I’m writing all these poems
Just to forget
The feelings that I have
For you just being an amazing friend

I couldn’t stop staring
At your lushes pierced lips
Your gorgeous blue eyes
That was a winners price

The noises you made
Girl, they made me suffocate
My heart thumped, vision blurred
I never wanted to kiss you so bad

The hug at the end
Where you wickedly smiled
Knowing I adored you
I knew I was being a hopeless child

why do people always change
for others or themselves
why can't people let people be
comfortable in their own reality

stay true to yourself
don't let them get to you or else...
the only real thing that matters
is living with your own self

My love life is cursed
I have done it again
Trusting the wrong woman
with my heart
You’re so intoxicating
It’s a heart breaking swim
Swimming in an ocean of tears
Tears I’ve cried for you
Because I couldn’t see the truth
Truth that I have fallen
Fallen for the wrong one
Time after time
*again

screaming inside my head
I LOVE YOU
whereas you never seem to listen

I have this obsession
       called you
I have these butterfly feelings
       for you
I have this painful ache
       because of you
I don’t want to stop this
       but I have to
because I'm broken
       and I love you

I am today as I ever was
And never to be
How foolish I was
To let you in
Like oxygen in the air
It fades away like everything has

But just breath they said
Like nothing ever happened
How could they
After everything they did
Like nothing ever happened
I breath
But with pain
And decided I should stay

But still pain haunts me
Just like you
Why can’t you let me breath
As I was to never be

Goodbye past
I said to them
To be able to breath
Without pain