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Jan 2018 · 204
Found
Rylie Lucas Jan 2018
One day you'll find
That life isn't some rhyme
You'll find when you down
You'll fall to the ground

Life will throw you
Around and Around
Against all the doors
That have ever been found

Know that one day
Someone will kick you when you're down
Abuse in the worse ways
That have ever been found

Soon you will see
The lies that you have been told
And the ways you'll find out
Will knock you out cold

Think about you
And no one else
Take a moment to realize
You need to be found
Find yourself, Love yourself, and Care about you more than anyone else
Jan 2018 · 312
My First List Poem
Rylie Lucas Jan 2018
This is the Teenager Test, To Test if You Are a Teenager. Please Comment Which Numbers Apply To You

1. Have you ever stayed up all night working on a project last minute that you forgot about?

2. Have you ever looked at your computer screen for hours, trying to come up with an idea for a paper?

3. Have you ever stressed about a test so much that you didn't sleep?

4. Have you ever had a crush on someone, but know that they don't know you exist or think that you're weird, stupid, etc..

5. Have you ever had the same crush as your best friend?

6. Have you ever had a best friend that has dated your crush, and you have to magically hold your friendship together?

7. Have you ever gotten grounded because you were trying to help your friend through a tough time but were up way too late?

8. Have you ever waited 3 minutes for a text back, but it felt like 3 hours?

9. Have you ever lost your best friend over a pointless argument?

10. Have you ever been surrounded by friends, but felt alone?

11. Have you ever realized you no longer love your s/o and have to find out how to break-up with them without hurting them

12. Have you ever lost almost all of your friends due to a break-up? Have you ever found out that your so-called "friends" only like you for your s/o?

13. Have you ever pretended that you have a s/o because no one deserves your attention?

14. Have you ever realized that life will go on no matter how much stuff life throws at your face?
Wrote this for Language Arts! What do you think? Also, comment what you think the story is!
Jan 2018 · 162
Hey Y'all!!!
Rylie Lucas Jan 2018
How's everyone's 2017 been? 2018 is right around the corner, and I can't wait! Was you guy's 2017's good or bad? Leave me stories to read in the comments and I'll get back to you! Also, don't be afraid to message me @ralucasusa2003@gmail.com and on here as well!

Peace out!
That gay *****
Dec 2017 · 2.0k
Best Friends
Rylie Lucas Dec 2017
Before I met you
Everyone hated me
Suicidal thoughts
Taken over me

Forever alone
Reminded all day
In the worst ways
Everyone would call me
No one would care
Decide I don't matter
So then I met my BEST FRIENDS
Inspired by my bestie Elle!

For anyone who is just now reading this, she was a false hope. ~Future Ash, from June 2019
Dec 2017 · 190
Thinking vs Hearing
Rylie Lucas Dec 2017
When you think something, you can unthink it
When you hear something, you cannot unhear it

When you think something, it isn't true
When you hear something, it's easier to believe

When you think something, only you know
When you hear something, the whole world can judge you

because once you say something
it's in the world for forever

so just because you say "jk"
doesn't make it right

Because you never want to be
in a bullies sights
Dec 2017 · 326
A Sad Truth
Rylie Lucas Dec 2017
Once a day
7 days a week
365 days a year
Something goes wrong
In your life

It doesn't matter how small
Or how big it may seem
But at least 1 thing goes wrong
Nothing can redeem

You try and try
But never come up right

No matter how hard you try
One thing always goes wrong in your life

Whether you get into a fight with a friend
Or fail a test
Or get fired from your job
These things scale from 1 to 10

So don't give up hope
Bad things happen to us all
Remember this always
For the years to come
Don't dwell on the past; live in the present and remember that we've all had bad days and good ones to.
Dec 2017 · 169
No One Knows
Rylie Lucas Dec 2017
No one knows
The thoughts that run through my head
The urges I feel
To slit my skin

No one knows
The darkness I feel
It hangs over me
Just out of reach

No one knows
That I'm never "okay"
That the things I say
Are never what the seem

No one knows
The things I see
How amazing life isn't
What we see

nothing is like
How we perceive
We wish things to be different
But they never will be
nothing will change unless we change them ourselves
Dec 2017 · 299
Someone I used to know
Rylie Lucas Dec 2017
I knew someone one day
and the next they were gone
no one knew where they went
they vanished like snow

snow melts on a warm day
and melts into the earth
my someone's personality
did just so

so now I sit here
wondering where you went
knowing that one day
it'll snow again

hopefully, you'll come back
when the snow falls again
because if snows around
then you're around
and there are no more fears

you make my day much better
distract me from my life
but just now I realized
that my someone is me
that someone is my happy side

so now that I know
that I can be alive
no more depression for me
my suicide will subside

I'll be happy once more
able to see with new eyes
the world in which I live in
will finally come alive.
Stop being depressed and suicidal, wake up, and open your eyes. Because one day you'll see that seeing the world in color is amazing
Dec 2017 · 115
Life Half Lived
Rylie Lucas Dec 2017
Days turn into nights
Nights back to days
But sometimes you'll see
You didn't do anything

You notice how little
You do every day
And you start to wonder
To your dismay

Why haven't I done
What I'd dream I'd do
When I was younger
My thoughts went astray

But now they are back
And I want to explore
See the world again
See it once more

So live your life fully
Don't forget your childish dreams
Because one day you'll find
They're all you'll need

Hold on to those thoughts
Of your dreams as a child
Don't live half a life
Live one fully wild

Wild and free
As long as you know
Life half liven
You'll never know
"I learned to live, half alive" Christina Perri, Jar of Hearts

You should never have to live half alive, live happily and fully
Dec 2017 · 160
Update!
Rylie Lucas Dec 2017
Hey Y'all, this ***** is here!

Sorry about the random updates, they(hopefully)will become more regular soon. I've had a lot on my hands, so please don't hate me!!

<3 Y'all!

Ashtyn
Dec 2017 · 357
Demons vs Angels
Rylie Lucas Dec 2017
A demon is mean
An Angel is nice

A demon accepts all
An Angel only accepts its own

A demon sees past the rules
An Angel only sees before them

A demon cannot be understood
An Angel has no secrets

A demon can be trusted
An Angel cannot

Why can Angels be trusted?
Because no one is perfect
No one can be fully understood
No one that is "normal" exists

Demons are the human race
The ones that are all around us

Angels don't exist, sorry
Nothing so perfect has ever walked on this earth.
In my opinion(I'm atheist, haters gonna hate), Angels cannot exist for 1 reason: Nothing is perfect, especially religion. So if someone wants to say that something perfect is real, they can have their opinion.
Dec 2017 · 25.3k
Middle School
Rylie Lucas Dec 2017
Middle School
Full of friends and love
Hate and lust
Being thrown under the bus

Doing the right thing
Is harder than it sounds
Harder than it looks, too
Always wanting to be found

Rescued from the abyss
That feeds off of your sadness
That doesn’t know when to stop
That will make you collapse

Needing support
Wherever you can find it
Taking it from others
If it means peace

Life upside-down
Never know how
To turn your life over
That frown upside-down

So when you find peace
Wherever you find it
You never want to leave it
But sometimes you must

Coming back to resurface
After all the sadness
You see the world differently
Then you saw it before.

People can help
But sometimes they don’t
Sometimes they think their helping
But really they’re not

Don’t fall for the lies
The deceptions they place
To try and make you come with them
And do the wrong things

Because in the end, you’ll find
You never wanted to be with them
You just want to be you
And not just some hologram

Embrace who you are
And what you’ve gone through
No matter what it is
Walk up with open arms

Take what you have
And don’t worry about what you don’t
Because in the end, you’ll find
There’s nothing wrong with you

You’ve been through high times
And low ones, too
But no matter what had happened
You found your way through

Through the darkness, you emerged
Opening your eyes
To a new world of color
Without wearing a disguise

Learning who you are
Can change how you act
Change how you feel
Even change how you react

Because now you know
How to see in color
No longer in the darkness
World seeming brighter

Every day can be a good one
If you know how to live it
All you have to do
Is change how you see it
Writing a poem for my Passage Personal Statement. What do y'all think?
Nov 2017 · 238
Think
Rylie Lucas Nov 2017
Thinking can
Harm you
In ways
No one
Kind could ever understand

Am I crazy
Butterflies in and
Out of my stomach, everything in
Utter shock,
Time no longer existing

Youth can be decieving
Outward apperance can
Utterly destroy our
Respect for ourselves and
Speaking of self respect,
Everyone has some
Life in them, it's
Finding it that can sometimes be hard

A little fun can never hurt

Life is a mysetery
In a nutshell
Titles as our names
Too much about us leaking through
Little to nothing at times we need feeling
Eventually no longer feeling anything at all

Most people
Overexaggerate little things
Respond inpolitely and
Eventually, never get what they really wanted
Think about yourself a little more
We look down upon ourselves because we're demons, but we should look up to ourselves because we're also angels.
Nov 2017 · 583
Ashtyn
Rylie Lucas Nov 2017
Alive, but not living
Safe, but not really
Happy, but dying
Truthful, but not to myself
Young, but seen too much
Nothing, and no more to be said
It's Meeeeeeeee
Nov 2017 · 174
Life almost gone
Rylie Lucas Nov 2017
Waking up
With your head roaring
Don't know what to think
Don't know what's happening

Life almost gone
Almost taken away
Gone with the wind
So to say

Don't waste what you have
Because one day you'll think
That you wasted too much time
And you shouldn't of let yourself sink

Neverending darkness
Isn't something you want
Always not knowing
Whether you're alive.

Don't let this be you
Don't waste all your time
Because life is really short
And you want to live right
Sorry I haven't updated in so long! It feels like it's been forever, and I really do apologize. Just slammed at school, and being grounded hasn't helped. Hope y'all like this poem though.
Oct 2017 · 152
Friends
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
A good friend should be honest and kind

But they shouldn't be afraid

They shouldn't hide



They should always be there for you

Even in your worst moments

Because the best will come eventually

You'll just have to wait for it



A good friend shouldn't be mean to you

Or to anyone you know

They should act like they'd want to be treated

Everywhere they go
Write this for health class LOL
Oct 2017 · 182
I'm Dead Inside
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
Emotionally- I'm done

Mentally- I'm drained

Spiritually- I'm dead

Physically- I smile
Oct 2017 · 231
Dear World
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
when a girl is quiet
you already know that's dangerous
the things that constantly torture this girl
keep repeating
and she has tried to please the people surrounding her
but now she's tired
give her a break
the ones around her make her feel ugly
like an idiot
or never good enough
the people around her never appreciate
the things she does for them
this girl is dying inside
shes tired physically, emotionally, and mentally
shes only surviving
but sadly
shes not living
help her out
please
just once make her truly smile
and even just once call her beautiful
Oct 2017 · 168
I dont know
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
its gotten to the point to where
i dont know who i am anymore
i constantly fell like im on the verge
of breaking down
i feel like im going crazy
and my mind is an ocean
and my thoughts are a tsunami
i cant sleep
i cant concentrate
i cant even think straight

i
am
     a
       mess

im coming apart at the seams
and its scaring me
Oct 2017 · 192
Are you okay?
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
Are you okay?

That's all it takes
For me to break down
For the knots in my stomach to tighten
For me to cry..

I'm fine
Meanwhile, I'm fighting back the tears
And trying to control my thoughts
As I turn and walk away
I can't hold it back
For much longer
I walk faster

The tears roll down my cheeks
And my thoughts run wild
And my legs pick up the pace
Trying to run out of the
Gut-wrenching life
We call reality
The reality that
I live in
By M.R.
Oct 2017 · 485
She said
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
Explicit

She said she was okay
And you believed her?
Let me tell you what's wrong with her
She's tired
That's exactly what she is
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She's tired of the
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She's tired of caring too L I T T L E, and not caring at A L L
She's tired of H O L D I N G it
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She's tired of being J U D G E D for EVERYTHING she D  O  E  S
She's tired of all her F L A W S and I
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She's tired of T R Y I N G           P
She's tired of getting her hopes U
She's tired of being treated like *******br>She's tired of trying to be H E R S E L F
She's tired, and you want to know how I know all this?

                       E            D
Because S    is M            E
             H                   R
               E                 I
And I'm R  E  A  L  L  Y T
I'm really tired..
Oct 2017 · 232
She/He
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
She's
      Broken
               Because
                          She
                               Believed

He's
     OK
         Because
                    He
                       Lied
Oct 2017 · 180
Even though
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
Even though you broke my heart
I know you still think about me all the time
When you're all alone
I know I'm still in your thoughts
I know a part of you wishes you'd never broken my heart and thrown me away
I know when someone says my name
                                  I come to your mind
But for me
Even though you broke my heart
I still love you
When I'm all alone
You're the only thing I think about
And I still sit there wishing
Why
      Can't
             I
              Be
                  Enough
                            For
                                You?
Oct 2017 · 166
10 things I hate about you
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
You are so stupid when I'm around
2. You say things that don't make sense

3. Your laugh is weird
4. The way you walk is so funny

5. You talk so loud
6. Sometimes, don't act normal

7. Your scream scares me
8. Your smile is crooked

9. Your dance moves are so awkward
10. You like to annoy me and call me an idiot


*All things I love 1,000 times more than I hate
Never hate, only love. Unless hate is necessary
Oct 2017 · 1.1k
My Heart
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
This is my broken heart
To love and not be loved in return
To have doubts
To not know where I am headed
To be untrusting
To be lied to
To be led on
To be breathlessly in love
To have jealousy
To have no clear answer
To be broken
To be unheard
To be unsure about love at all
To be unsure of life itself
To be hurt
To cry alone
To always be the strongest
Even when I'm weak

This is my broken heart
A beautiful mess
My perfect, broken heart
Oct 2017 · 167
Sometimes
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
Sometimes, no one cares when you’re sad
When you’re broken
When you’re mad

Sometimes, when you gotta learn
How to love yourself
But you don’t have the courage

Sometimes, you don’t have someone
To stand by your side
And make you feel alright

Sometimes, you just have to stay there
Fight off your regrets
Fight off your depression

Sometimes, you gotta learn that
No one will ever be there for
Except for yourself

So now’s your chance
To pick up your feet
And to make things right
Sometimes, all you can do is sit in your room and cry yourself to sleep
Oct 2017 · 218
My own best friend
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
I've been stabbed in the back
By those I've needed the most

I've been lied to
By those I love

I've felt alone
When I couldn't afford to be

But at the end of the day
I had to learn to be my own best friend

Because there are going to be days
Where no one has my back
Or is going to be there for me

But myself
Oct 2017 · 231
I'm Fine
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
When I say "I'm Fine,"
I'm crying

When I say "I'm okay,"
I can't sleep

When I say "I can take care of it,"
I run around freaking out

When I say "You don't have to come,"
I want to see you as soon as possible

Then you say "I'm glad you're fine,"
And hang up

I really hope you know that I lied..
Yep...I'm fine..
Oct 2017 · 526
I'm Sorry
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
Explicit

I'm sorry I'm not the daughter you wanted
I'm sorry I'm a ****** sister
I'm sorry that I'm depressed
And cry a lot

I'm so sorry I don't do everything you ask
I'm so sorry I'm not perfect and pretty
I'm so sorry that I put such a damper on your lives
And that I'm tired

And antisocial

Please forgive me for being a human being

I'm really sorry I even exist

I wish I could just disappear
To make it easier for everyone
Seen as I'm such a horrible person
Seen as it's impossible to be nice to me

Impossible to deal with me
Impossible to love me

I'm so ******* sorry
I'm so ******* sorry
Oct 2017 · 121
Music
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
You know that one song
That’s always playing
Never stops on the radio
And freaking drives you crazy?
I know how you feel
If you’re answering yes
But what I want to tell you
Is not to second guess
The people running the radio
Are just in it for the money
They know that different people are listening
Every part of the day
So if you think
Their just trying to drive you mad
Don’t forget to think about
What they could be doing instead
I’m sure they’d rather be doing
Something other than playing
Music for some unhappy people
On any given day
So don’t get mad at them
For playing the same song
Over and over again
All day long
I know I do this, and I really don't know why I chose this as my topic, but I did, so there.
Oct 2017 · 349
Talking
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
You don’t know I exist
So I talk to you
And the next thing I know
You’re stuck to me like glue
Wouldn’t stop texting me
Not able to leave me alone
And the crazy thing about it is
I don’t mind it at all
Having you by my side
Makes me feel so amazing
Like I could conquer the world
Like I could do anything
Unable to imagine
What life was like before
I’d walk over to you
And you’d be wide open, like a door
Loving you everyday
And knowing you love me too
Gives me so much confidence
And lets me see my life through
I actually talked to my crush! The butterflies won't leave me alone now!
Oct 2017 · 146
Emotions
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
Feelings and emotions
Emotions and feelings
The hardest things to control in life
Something never ending
Especially when you’re a teenager
You don’t know how
You just sit there in silence
And wonder, “how?...
How did this happen?
And why can’t I control
The thoughts that come into my head
And none of my emotions at all?”
And it’s a question we all ponder
And never know
What the answer is
It’s like learning how to sew
In the beginning, you don’t know how
But in the end
You can sew with purpose now
And this is like emotions
Because at first, we can’t control ‘em
But after a while
We learn how to hold them in
And only let them out when needed
Oct 2017 · 120
Love
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
I’ve written about love
And I've experienced it, too
But nothing like
How I feel about you
Too shy to speak up
Too confident to not talk
Do you’re constantly at war
And never going to talk
Unless it’s in your group
You’ll stay silent
Too afraid of embarrassing yourself
But not wanting to be quiet
I love people who aren’t
Afraid to use their voice
And you aren’t
To a degree
In class, you’re someone different
That who you are with your friends
I know this because
My love for you has no end
When you think that I don’t like you
It makes my heart cry
Because you should never doubt what I tell you
Especially if it’s my feelings inside
So just know this, my love
I’ll be there for you always
Never forget that fact
And we’ll be together for forever and a day
I...am...so...bored
Oct 2017 · 107
Long-Distance Friendships
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
Explicit


Seeing you on
Is like flipping a switch
You make me light up
When my days been a *****
Seeing you smile
Makes me smile
And then I think
And I think for a while
And I think of the times
We had together
And what we had
Pieced together
Lives planned
Promises promised
But then you moved
And I don’t know what happened
You saw other girls
You weren’t you
And I am still confused
About what happened to you
You were such a good person
Always kind, and thoughtful
But moving away from me
Turned you awful
You’d bully
You’d be mean
You’d even ignore me
And you still do not know
How much, to this day
Your words sit in my heart
And my soul withers away
You were my night and day
My story on a page
But now, you’re gone
And I don’t know what to do
Whats ******* wrong with me
What happened to my soul
I let you know things
No one else knows
And you don’t even care
That I cry myself to sleep
Thinking about the past
And what used to be you and me
So whatever you do
If you ever move away
Don't do this to your friends
And never, ever change
Oct 2017 · 115
Moving
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
Staying somewhere
Is a luxury
Most people don’t understand
That their so lucky
Moving schools
Is like moving lives
Especially when you don’t stay somewhere
For more than a night
Never knowing
Where you’ll wake up tomorrow
Always drowning
In your sorrows
To stay somewhere
To not switch schools
Would be like asking for
10,000 jewels
It’s almost impossible
For you to think
Of a life
Where you don’t wonder
Each night
If you’ll be here tomorrow
Or be somewhere new
Trying to fit in
But always “the new girl”
For my step-brother, who's, for the first time ever, staying in the same school for 2 years in a row
Oct 2017 · 116
Butterflies
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
This, is not about butterflies
It’s the feeling you get
That feels like butterflies
But is actually just
Yourself fading
Yourself wishing
Yourself dreaming
Wanting, but not having
Having, but not wanting
Imagining yourself
With someone new
Wanting something
That you cannot explain
Needing something
That shouldn’t be needed
But is
For some reason
That rush of adrenaline
That happens when you’re near
The one that you love
The one you hold dear
But not someone you treat like family
Someone, instead
You’d like to start a family with
Gut taking over
The butterflies still there
Wanting to go near
But wouldn’t ever dare
Don’t wanna sever that line
Between real and fantasy
But needing that feeling
Of happiness and life
That is what they do to you
Take you
And revive you
They let you feel emotion
And let you live like normal
Instead of being a shell
And having no thoughts at all
You’re left wondering
If you should say hi
Or if your butterflies
Would ever let you slip by
Because no matter what happens
You’ll always protect them
You’ll always want them
You’ll always need them
Comment if you've ever felt this way
Oct 2017 · 419
Balance
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
Trying to balance
Home and School
Is like trying
To write on a wall
You’ll get holes in your paper
And the writing will be jagged
The paper’s your soul
And the writing’s how you handle it
No matter how hard you try
Your two lives will combine
School life will include
You from home
And you’ll have outbursts at home
That comes from school
‘Cause everyone’s different
At different times
And you cannot say
There’s only one you
Because you’ve got
Many different sides
And you try to balance them
But you can’t find the divide
So one life
Turns into another
And you're left wondrin’
What happened to balance?
What happened to a life
That was all planned out
That you had created
And was never in doubt
“This life will happen”
You’d thought to yourself
But now your left
Throwing that life on a shelf
Or better yet, in the garbage
Because the life you planned
You’ll never get back
So just stop tryin’ to balance
Because it’ll never happen
I struggle with this every day. Comment if you do too!
Oct 2017 · 223
Outrunning Karma
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
Done something terrible
And don’t know how to fix it
So now I’ve started running
And don’t know where to hide
My life’s topsy-turvy
Full of wonder and madness
And that’s why somethin’ terrible happened
It’s not my fault, not exactly
Hit ‘em with my bullet
Shining silver in the night
And now karma’s out to get me
Take my soul and make things right
So since then I’ve been running
And I don’t know where to
But karma’s gonna catch me
And leave me black and blue
Show me what I’ve done
‘Cause I deserve no peace
Replay what happened to them
Again and again in my head
So I’ll run until I can’t
Avoiding what I know’s comin’
So I can try to make amends
With who made me shoot the bullet
Oct 2017 · 166
Betrayal
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
When a friend moves away
And you don’t know why
You start to question yourself
And maybe even cry
Was it because of you
Or was it someone else
Maybe even none of those
And he wanted to find himself
One day you check your Instagram
And find he’s active
So you text him and say hi
And hope he says hi back
But when he responds
It isn’t hi
It’s not what you wanted
What he said is bye
And you don’t understand
What he means
So you ask him why
And then he leaves
You don’t know why
Why would he leave
When you had started a conversation
But then you realized
That he has no expectation
Nothing that can keep him
From doing right or wrong
He has no limitations
And nothing to tell him not
Not to do what he's doing
Which is betraying you
It's what he wants to
But that doesn't mean it's supposed to do
He doesn't think of others
Only of himself
And that's what makes him hateable
Its that all in itself
So why don't you forget him
Let him live his life
Because one day he'll regret
Losing you to a knife
Sorry I haven't updated! I'll try to more often I promise. This poem is inspired by my ex. He can go and die in a hole for all I care though!
Sep 2017 · 315
Suicide
Rylie Lucas Sep 2017
Somethings off,
But you won’t tell me
So I think
And think of 3
3 possible reasons
Why you’re all alone
Separating yourself
And facing the unknown
All by yourself
You’re just sitting there
And I do not know why
But I pull up a chair
I ask you what’s wrong
And you don’t respond
So I sit there and yawn
It feels like an eternity
Has gone by before you respond
And all you do is sit there
And give me a shrug
You mumble something short
That I wasn’t able to catch
But what I thought I heard
Is “I’m gonna **** myself”
I immediately said “No!
You’re way too good for that”
I ponder for a moment
What would drive her to this
And then I see her face
And I know she’s been harmed
By whom I cannot say
But what I know is true
She’s been harmed by someone close to her
And someone that I knew
He had forced her to do things
That I cannot even say
The thought of it so treacherous
It’s hard for me to say
Even the smallest details
From this account
Can drive me very crazy
And lose myself
So that day
I had to say goodbye
To someone I loved dearly
And I watched her lie
She was such a good person
And didn’t deserve to die
But this man drove her crazy
With just the blink of an eye
So now I mourn her
Every single day
Because I miss her so dearly
With every passing day
For the friend I lost. She was a **** victim and sucessfully killed herself.
Sep 2017 · 130
Trust
Rylie Lucas Sep 2017
Texting you one day
I noticed something was different
That you weren’t acting normal
And you wouldn't even listen
I tried and tried to get you
To open up and say
What was going on with you
On that very day
But you said you couldn’t tell me
And right then I was heartbroken
It was better that you didn’t tell me though
Because it would’ve left me hurtin’
Hurting more than not telling me
Is something really hard to do
But then again,
Telling hurts me too
Its one of those moments
You really have to think
And try to find the answer
Before your mind goes blank
Because I’m one of those people
That’s always gotta know
If you’re feeling okay
And if not then what is wrong
So don’t be afraid to open up to me
Even if you think it’s wrong
Because you’ll find it’s the right choice
And that doubting me was wrong
You can always trust me
As you should know
So tell me what’s bothering you
And I will help you though
Sep 2017 · 118
Realised
Rylie Lucas Sep 2017
Walking down the halls
I realised one day
That I haven't even noticed
That you have been going this way
You’ve been behind me
And I haven’t even cared
But I also didn’t know
That you’d been there
Now I keep walking
And with more knowledge
Blushing uncontrollably
And now on edge
Afraid you might talk to me
I start to walk faster
But wanting to talk to you
I walk slower
So I stay the same pace
And you don’t even notice
How I’ve started to worry
And that my face has gone crimson
Finally reaching my destination
I walk in and feel relieved
But also sad
Knowing that you just walked past
This emotion I feel
Is hard to explain
So I just sit down
And look plain
“Maybe next time”
I think to myself
“I’ll have enough courage
To walk up to him myself”
And with just those few words
My confidence goes wild
And for a few moments
I actually think I could do it
So when I see you again
I go up and say “hi”
And you don’t respond
I suddenly feel shattered
And fall endless
In that fall I realise
That my goals are to high
And I change them
To make them mine
You disappear from my thoughts
And I start to focus
But I see you again
And it all comes back again
All the emotion
And all the realisations
The emotions and lives
I had planned out
Just pop into my head
And don’t pop out
So you’ll always be there
In a special place in my heart
Tucked away forever
Where I can restart
Sep 2017 · 112
Thoughts
Rylie Lucas Sep 2017
Have you ever wondered
What life would be like
If you had never thought
Of what you’ve left behind
Our world is
Made up of thoughts
Of the past and the future
The present we don't think of
Because we think it'll make us distraught
But the present will do us good
We should focus on it more
Because without it
Life would be a bore
Well, really, without it
Life wouldn’t even exist
We wouldn't be alive
We wouldn’t exist
Your thoughts make you
So don’t just shove them away
Because without them
There wouldn’t even be a day
There wouldn’t be time for you
To even try
To think about life
And the things we’ve left behind
Your thoughts are yours
You don't have to share them
Just know that you always
Have to think about them
Sep 2017 · 494
Life will go on
Rylie Lucas Sep 2017
No matter the situation you’re in,
No matter how tough,
You can get through it,
And life will go on.
You could be stressed for a test
Or thinking of the past
But no matter what it is
You can make your life last
People come and go
There is no reason to fret
Over the ones that cause trouble
Their so easy to forget
Think of the present
Not the past
Not even the future
Can get passed
The only thing
That makes you you
Is how you handle now
And if you see your life through
So don’t give up now
Cause there is so much to see
So much to do
And so much life to live
Because no matter how hard
Life might seem right now
You can get through it
And life will go on
Sep 2017 · 314
Falling
Rylie Lucas Sep 2017
Starting anew,
It’s hard everytime.
When you are alone in the halls,
And have to say goodbye.
To all your friends,
That have been there for you,
And have to make new ones,
To put your trust into.
And then you’ll see them,
That gorgeous girl or guy,
And you’ll stop dead in your tracks,
And feel like you’re about to die.
But then you realise,
That they don’t know you exist,
And you start to fall,
Into an endless pit.
You can only resurface,
With the help of your peers,
And through a lot of ice cream,
And a lot of tears.
Everyday you see them,
And they might see you,
And you’ll always be waiting,
For them to say I love you.
School has finally started up, so i'm back and get ready for uploads (hopefully daily)
Jun 2017 · 173
Tears
Rylie Lucas Jun 2017
You’d be surprised
How often you’d find
Amazing moments spoiled
By some random guy
Or by your teacher
Calling you out
For texting your mom
And trying to figure this stuff out
Why would she call you
In the middle of class
While you're trying to focus
Trying to pass
So that one time
He catches you
Is also the time
People are starting to like you
Having your poem
Trend online
Is a goal for everyone
Even mine
So, when i got that email
Saying it was trending
I went into a fandom
That was never ending
And then it was crushed
By that teacher
So now i'm here
Writing on paper
Trying to make sure
I don't fall
Into a void
Where i won't get out
A void of sadness
Depression
A common problem
For a common life, i'm guessin'
So i'm sitting here now
Putting words on a page
And hoping that
I only die on a stage
Jun 2017 · 176
Everythings OK Now
Rylie Lucas Jun 2017
Wake up in the morning
Hoping to see you next to me
But you’re not
And it was only a dream
But i know you are out there somewhere
Just waiting to see me
And i'm just laying here
Just arriving from a dream
And as my brain unfogs
I remember my computer
Pulling it out
Thinking sooner is better than later
And as i'm logging in
A realization comes
What if you’re not on
And won't be til the setting sun?
As i think this
I remember
You’ll always be there
Always there forever
So, i close my computer
And shut it down
And think to myself
Everything is ok now
Jun 2017 · 152
As I Sit And Wait For You
Rylie Lucas Jun 2017
Seeing you today,
Yesterday,
And the day before,
Makes me love you so much more
Than you could have ever imagined
And to think that i never took action
For loving you with so much passion
Made the world fade into blackness
I saw nothing but you in front of me
And only sadness was behind
And yet our times are so spread out
I guess we will have to figure it out
To find out what works for us both
Will only make my heart grow
Because all you do is give me love
And i am always hoping it is enough
But i have learned not to doubt
Unless i have a valid pout
And that is impossible to do with you
So i’ll just sit and wait for it to pass through
As i sit
And wait for you
Jun 2017 · 137
Love Is A Game
Rylie Lucas Jun 2017
If you think about it
Love is like a game
You move around your pieces
To create a perfect strategy
In chess, you take away pieces
But in real life
Each piece is a
Potential wife
But everyone is choosy
wanting to take the queen
So that whoever you decide to take
Is the one you choose as king
You will rule beside them
For the rest of your days
Or until you are done with them
Then, your days with them are done
Jun 2017 · 102
Stay
Rylie Lucas Jun 2017
What i feel when i'm near you
Is something unexplainable
When i see you coming  
My heart becomes unstable
You sit next to me
And my face goes crimson
But the funny thing is,
I never know the reason
My life revolves around
Me seeing you
And without that stability
The world in my head goes to
Another place entirely
Something about that place is
It always is you on a stage
You’re my night and day
And my story on a page
And without you
My life would have no meaning
My mind would go blank
And my heart would stop beating
So please,
My companion,
Friend,
Brother,
Stay.
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