Please stop crying, takes your hands off your ears
I want to help you.
Your moans of anguish and pain hurt my soul,
I wish to help you.

I will.
I will.

I have to stay calm, motivate myself.
He is just ill,
And illnesses can be cured
And I can do this.

I can.
I can.

He's only been here for a short while
Yet he screams as if he were possessed
I offered my help, I did all I could
But found him dead in his room.

I didn't help him.
I couldn't help him.
I wish I did.

i fear for you shant understand

exactly what i mean to say

i do not want to die my love



i just want to go away

They say repetition makes you remember things easier.
I forget what his face looks like every now and again I forget what his face looks like every now and again I forget what his face looks like every now and again I forget--

They say if you say a word too many times,
it loses it's meaning.
I'msorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry
sorrysorrysorryso­rrysorrysorrysorry.
Please staystaystaystaystaystaystaystay.

They say if you say something enough times...want it bad enough, it'll come true.
He'll come back to me, he'll come back to me, he'll come back to me.

They say that sometimes, if you love someone, it means you have to let them go.

But if I don't remember,

who will?

you are what i long for

and fear the same amount

the hidden unknown

of the outcome causes stuttered mouth

and while i seem so desperate to meet you

every day ill wait

until its not a choice

for you to carry me




away

She sits at your side-
hands laced into one.
unknown if we will lose 0 or 2,

the night is unwelcome,
    a beast that never sleeps.
       Slowly it may grasp you,
       fading opposite the rising sun
           -i hope.

you said you feel warm.
you said you like the big blanket
    maybe these will be the last of your words,
        no I loves you,
        no goodbyes,
            that's not you're style,
            that is not you.


I hope his grip is strong.
It may be the final one you hold.
I hope the last kiss-
    frail.
    passionate.
    a goodbye.
is nothing like the first-
    strong.
    loving.
    a hello.

of course I am no teller of fates,
but-
tonight I feel was a goodbye,
    a goodbye truly you
        simple.
            I will never get over how simple-
        curt.
            fewer words have hardly been spoken-
        last.

You said you feel warm.
You said you like the big blanket.
You said the facilities were nice.
     All I heard was,
It would be okay to die here.
It would be okay to say goodbye here.
     All I heard was goodbye.

That shouldn't have to happen

I don't know why it did

I try to understand it

And picture it in mind

But memories are painful

They linger long and dreadful...

I start to cry.

Tears are falling down

In the mourning sun

Tears that can't bring you back

Or ever change the past

Tears for all the sorrow

And all the love you offered

These tears become my pain

The pain I have to suffer,

I still love you today

Much more than then

And miss you everyday

More than words can say.

Years have come and gone

Life is moving on

But in my heart

You're still my number one.

Guns are expensive.
Pills take too long.
I can't tie a noose.
So what's the use?
I'll light up a smoke
and smile as I die.

"But mum, he did it first so i did"

if he jumped off a bridge, would you follow?

"...no..."

~~

But you see
For you
I would happily

Love is living inside your heart
Forever by your side
Love is dying beside you
Forever by your side

I would follow you anywhere
You never have to be alone
Id no sooner follow you through the door
Into the grocery store
Than I would
six feet underground

I felt your envious eyes,
whisper tales of my true rank in life.
Untouchable, the dirt you wouldn't
grace your spit with.

A well fabricated quilt of lies.
To smother my heart and hold it
captive in the fires.
Of pure narcissism and self hatred.
Long after you left me here.

May our souls both find their peace.
Respectfully and may our hearts as dark and broken as they may be.
Mend themselves in the warmth, love and truth of the Sun once more.