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843 · Jan 2014
Fuck You
LS Jan 2014
**** every no
Ever said to me
**** every glare I get in the hallway
**** her
And her fat body
I hate all of them
Every single one of them
Who proudly wear their
"im fake!" sticker
Like its a blue ribbon
I don't give a ****
So *******
**** all of you
I don't care
I got my friends
I got my girl
That's all I need
So all that judgement
Can go straight up your fat ***
And all that priss and ***** and moan
Can go up there too
I hate you
*******
816 · Apr 2015
When They See Her
LS Apr 2015
When they see her they see straight perfect teeth, round full lips.
Dark hair and tan skin,
A shy smile
With big sweet eyes.
Small, petite, but with ***** up to her chin in all their perky triple d glory.
No stretch marks.
They all fall in love with her
Smiling at the ground when she asks why.
Then they all look up at her
Slow
And say
theres just something about you..

I sit down, giving up immediately.
813 · Aug 2014
Moulin Rouge
LS Aug 2014
"Love? Most of all I believe in love. Love is like oxygen, it lifts you up where you belong! All you need is love."

"A life without love? Why, that's horrible! A life without love is no life at all!"

"Freedom, beauty, trust, and love."

"Come what may, I will love you till the end of time."

"I hope you don't mind that I put down in words, how wonderful life is now you're in the world."

"I was made for loving you baby you were made for loving me."
767 · Jul 2015
No No NO
LS Jul 2015
Jealousy is the most
Insidious emotion
It eats you away like nothing else
Ever could
765 · Jan 2014
Vengeful God
LS Jan 2014
By the sweat of your brow
Will you have food to eat,
Until you return to the ground
From which you were taken.
For you were made from dust,
And to dust you will return.

This is the god I love
Who is vengeful
And is writhing in wrath
I love my angry god
I want to see him
**** all tendrils of evil
Swirling in people's hearts
And embrace them
In awe
As their hearts fill
With pure ecstasy
And realize how empty they have been
All along.
752 · Jan 2014
Christbitcha, jealous?
LS Jan 2014
Dear Christina,

I love it. I love the fact I have her, and you do not. It must **** you, seeing me with her. That you cannot kiss her or touch her the way I do. And you don't know all her secrets like I do. You don't know her at all. It must be eating away at you. I love it, because I hate you. *******. I am the one she wants and I am the one she loves. You'll never now half as much as I know. You'll never see her face after a long kiss, or feel her body curve into yours. You'll never see her naked and vulnerable, with big blue eyes looking up and long dark hair spilling over her shoulders. You'll never, ever know. And I smile richly at that. I despise you. Go to ******* hell. Leave her be, and leave us alone. ******* skitch.
745 · Sep 2015
Earth and Neptune
LS Sep 2015
Her eyes
Are a mixture
Of gray and blue
And her fingers
Whisper the way
Leaves on trees do
741 · Oct 2015
I'm Not Fine
LS Oct 2015
She was like a fine wine*

Too bad it spilled down the
Kitchen sink,
along with
A handful of pills from her
Mothers medicine cabinet


If she was a fine wine,
Why did they drink her like
Cheap *****?

*And smashed the bottle
Against their exes windshield
708 · Dec 2014
Crazy Reflection
LS Dec 2014
What if?
What if I cut my long blond hair off
And died the rest of it black?
What if I pulled my eyeliner
Around my eyes and etched it into
My eyelids?
What if I wore all black?
With bright, blood red lipstick.
And drew big red angry lines
That looked like cracks
Across my skin with a razor blade?
Then, maybe then,
The crazy on my outside
Would reflect the crazy
In my head
708 · Aug 2014
Un-Special
LS Aug 2014
Not too fat
But not that ****
A normal sized ***
And normal sized *****
Regular bottle blonde
And normal feet.
Kind of large thighs
And my arms are larger
Than I want them to be.

Everything about me
Is
Forgettable.
694 · Feb 2016
My Body Is An Embarrassment
LS Feb 2016
I hate the way I write.
The way I smile and laugh.
I hate my arms.
I hate my legs.

I think about tracing
My stretch marks with a razor
Because I'd rather have scars
Than stretch marks.

I think about scrubbing my back
Until it bleeds and my skin
Is down to its last layer.

I think about not eating
Until my stomach is
So empty all the air in it
Is what keeps me standing.

I think about the new me I could
Invent
With a more alluring look
And sure walk.

When I look in the mirror
All I see is fatfatfatfatfat.
Spilling over my jeans.
Resting on my thighs
When I sit.
Sitting underneath my chin
When I smile.

My upper arms are full of fat.
My shoulders as well.
I'm hunched over.

Crouching.

Embarrassed.
691 · Jul 2014
Addicted to Sweet
LS Jul 2014
He slaps down
A ten dollar bill
Mutters "Marlboro 100s."
I set down
A chocolate bar
And give the cashier two dollars.
He looks so unhappy
So I ask why.
"addiction,
Little girl.
I've tried pulling myself away
From her-"
And he takes a deep breath
"cigarettes.
But they pull me back in.
A word from the wise..
Never do something too much,
Even if it's just for the
'fun' of it.
That's how addiction drags you in."
He lights up in the store
And gets kicked out,
I look at my candy bar.
691 · Feb 2014
Rant. Best friend probs.
LS Feb 2014
I control who even steps into that car.
Where she goes. What she does.
I control that.
Well,
I could.
I have that power.
So just be ******* thankful I'm letting her
Give you a ride home.
Don't ******* whine about having to go
My locker first,
Or her wanting to walk me out to my bus.
That's her job.
She is my GIRLFRIEND.
And you're supposed to be my best friend.
All you ever want to do is drink
Or smoke
Or sneak out
Or have *** (with a guy)
Spending the night at my house
Doing nothing but watching tv
Eating our faces out
And talking till 3am
Doesn't suffice anymore.
And I can't figure out why.
I've been there, I've done the whole party scene.
I've gone out,
Got drunk as ****,
Faded as hell,
Had *** for three hours.
Done every bad thing without it being too bad.
It's fun, for awhile.
I just don't see the pull anymore.
And all you see now,
IS that pull.
That's all ÿöü want to do.
You even drink alone.
You're only 16
For chrissakes,
Slow down.
See your youth.
See your potential.
Little miss
"I might have chlamydia/be preg"
Get your head on right.
686 · Dec 2013
Smile
LS Dec 2013
I smile through the blood
And laugh with every hit
Smell the ***** on his breath
Won't be the last time yet 
Got scabs on his forearms 
And anger in his eyes 
Throws me around and 
My cracked lips smeared
With his hate coming down in 
Ruby red droplets
He grabs me and hates me 
But I already forgave him
For tomorrows bruises
Long as I don't lose him 
Big as a rock 
Only thing that anchors me
But he is lost in his own sea
I see him drowning in his eyes 
Confusion sweeping over him 
Lays himself down on the couch 
And I flee to our room 
And land on the bed
Feeling skin puff up
Here and and there
Feelings forgotten with each
Band aid,
Will I ever be loved? 
I wipe the blood from my mouth an spit it out, grinning
Big and laughing,
No, no one could ever love
A ****** skinny fool
Like me.
676 · Feb 2014
Bitching about this.
LS Feb 2014
I really hate all of you on here.
Your poems ****.
"poor me and my sadness"
"I cut myself"
This place is all about desperate love
And cigarettes and scars
And him or her
Well good for you
But I don't see any happiness
Just the same thing over and over
" I smoke"
"lines across my arm"
"him. You thought of somebody."
Soo original.
670 · May 2015
Untitled
LS May 2015
And if I turn sideways
In the mirror
I look almost skinny enough
To be lovable
663 · Dec 2014
Untitled
LS Dec 2014
It's a scary thing to know
That you're goin nowhere in life
And you will end up
As a burnout
A fat piggy *****
Laying on the side of the street
Because you were too in love
To notice happiness.
660 · Jul 2014
Wrinkle
LS Jul 2014
You made me wrinkle
My nose
And made me blush.
You're hundreds of miles away,
But...
Nobody has ever said
My smile was adorable.
Thank you.
659 · Dec 2013
Love is Blind
LS Dec 2013
When I was with him
He was bad
And beautiful
And dangerous
And my secret.
I saw through eyes that
Were hopelessly in love
With him.
I saw his bad qualitys
And quickly forgave them
When I heard his voice.

Now, I love him,
But not for who he truly is.
I love him for what I thought he was.
He didn't change.
But my eyes did.
My perception of him did.

And I see now who he is.
He is a skinny
Acne faced
Dug addict
Who takes the love of
****** closeness
And spends it time after time
With girls he doesn't know.

He is no bad boy.
He is a lost boy.
An I have grown too tired
Of his disappointments
To try to save him.
651 · Dec 2013
Evil
LS Dec 2013
And he is the
Monster under your bed
But when you turn the lights on
He isn't afraid
He mocks you and your fear
With his bitter smile
And sour breath
He wears a silky garment
And his blak hair is slicked back
He is conniving and he is silent
But his presence
Is what scares the children at night
He is the one who plants fear
Inside their minds
And he is the one
Who plants fear into your mind
He is slithery and watery
With no form
And no way to catch him
He is Evil itself.
651 · Feb 2014
Distant
LS Feb 2014
And I just can't feel it
The feeling of life
There's a Glass window
Between me and reality
I can't feel my own fingertips
Running through my hair
Or get that feeling
I used to get listening to my music
I don't like drinking
I don't like smoking
I don't feel amazement
Or happiness
Just a grey
With no emotion
No blue or red or green
Just grey
It's like my heart and head
Are muted
And I look at my life
Like its a ******* joke
I don't know if I feel
Or if it's just my imagination
I say I care
When I should care
But I really don't
I just don't want you
To hate me
For being an unattached little *****
But that's what I am
So I wake up every day
With a grim smile on my face
Im nt growing distant to you,
I'm growing distant to everything.
630 · Aug 2016
Worth My Life
LS Aug 2016
You are worth it to me.
I'd trade all the stars
And the sun for you,
I'll walk in the moons
Pale light to see your pale face.

I'd trade every cigarette
I've ever smoked or I'll ever smoke,
I'll breathe in your
Intoxicating scent instead.

I'd trade all my first kisses,
All my hugs and first loves.
I'll pour my young love
And my old love into your pores.

I'd trade every laugh I've ever heard,
Every delighted giggle
Just to hear you laugh
Every time I'm nearby.

I'd die for you, yes and,
I'd live for you and die with you.
625 · Dec 2014
Taken Away
LS Dec 2014
I'm the most ****** up person I know.
I'm worse than the rapists
And the murderers
I'm worse than the paedophiles
And the terrorists.
I make people fall in love with me.
And just when they're snuggled
Into me and my love
I take it away.
And leave them for dead.
622 · Jul 2016
Dark Paradise
LS Jul 2016
I dream of you every day.
I wish I was with you all the time.
I sleep, hoping you'll come to wake me.
So that I'll never wake up.

I want to hold your hands
And kiss your cold, numb lips.
I want to fall with you
Into the nothingness.

Oh, Death.
I wish you would come
Take me away from this place.

I have a baggie of sleeping pills.
I slept for 12 hours straight on them.
But when I wake,
I awaken to my life.
And sigh because I don't
Want to live it.
614 · Dec 2014
I'm fine.
LS Dec 2014
Im fine*
Falls out of my mouth
So easily
The words no longer
Hold meaning
613 · Mar 2016
All The Pieces I've Lost
LS Mar 2016
12-14: Jacob Harris.
14-16: Mykayla Bradshaw.
16: Raymond Crawford.
16: Gin Berry.
16: Mickaela Maxwell.
17-present: Khayllia Harrell.

I gave Jacob my Innocence.
I gave Mykayla my Trust.
I gave Ray my Self-esteem.
I gave Gin my Confidence.
I gave **** my Hope.
I am giving Khayllia my Brokenness.
610 · Nov 2013
Restless
LS Nov 2013
My heart grows restless for him
missing his caress
and false saccharine words
singing his song was a melancholy old tune
I had known oh so well
Kisses I had felt
still pressed to my lips
Hands had held me
still comfort me in their ghosts
Nothing left to deny
Warm brown eyes
never to look at me again
Blond hair
never for my touch again
restless I feel,
missing him and his old hurt
stuck in my dreams of him
and his smile
I'm restless,
Addiction doesn't go away somehow
605 · Dec 2015
Take The Truth And Swallow
LS Dec 2015
The truth is
Always hard to swallow
Like a chip scraping
Down your throat
As your choking

Like inhaling water into
Your lungs

Like taking your fifth
Shot of whiskey

The truth is always
A little hard to swallow

Like swallowing your spit
With that lump in your throat

And once you swallow the truth
It sits in your stomach

Like swallowed cigarette
Smoke

Like swallowed throw up
From the back of your throat

It sits in your stomach
So unpleasantly

You grimace as long as it's there.
603 · Jun 2014
10w apology.
LS Jun 2014
I'm sorry.
There, it is said.
I'm wrong.
You're right.
596 · Jan 2014
Twitter flitter
LS Jan 2014
Anybody want to follow me on twitter?
You can if you like
I can't get a **** picture on
Cause it's stupid.
@hunnybooboo_98
Cause In real life
I'm a big *****
I'm a real faker
Surprise surprise
594 · Dec 2015
Existential Crises
LS Dec 2015
But I guess that's it
In the end
None of it ******* matters

Humans are rocks
And time are the oceans
All our experiences
Will be whittled down to sand;
Pliable minuscule pebbles
To be stepped upon
By greater things.
LS Aug 2022
What do you want to do to me?
Grab my arm
Watch the skin turn red under your white fingertips
Kiss me, mark me, hate me, love me.
Every word you won’t say is written on my face.
I am your mirror.
Don’t look away.
576 · Jan 2014
Almost Outbreak
LS Jan 2014
Hands scratching on wooden tables
Feet tapping on floors
Hearts going a million miles an hour
But feels too constrained

Tossing and turning at night
Tiredness at the back of the brain
Can't freak out
Or scream out again

Curling into a ball
Slow breathing slow down
In and out
Hate that sound

Open eyes to dull sky
Cold toes under blankets
Restless head on pillow
Refuse to get up.
576 · Apr 2016
The Happiest Have Scars
LS Apr 2016
He looked at the cuts on my leg and
Quit talking.
I could feel him staring.

Are those because of...her?

I nodded. And felt shame.

Stupid. I know.  I shouldn't have done it. I muttered.

He shook his head, told me
It wasn't stupid.
He smiled.

I've got some pretty gnarly ones too.

He lifted up his shirt and across his left pectoral were three or four deep white scars.

If people ask I just say a dog attacked me or something. Nobody really knows...

I nodded. Understanding.

Later on that night I
Kissed his scars above his heart.
I heard him sigh
And I fell asleep
Wrapped in his arms.
573 · Nov 2013
Pucker
LS Nov 2013
I am trapped In a three wall
         Cage
I can taste all that stupid
         Self hate
It's a bitter taste makes me
Pucker my lips
And all the people kiss them
As they pucker and smack
And there is no turning back
My family is a hollowed shell
Nobody to save me
I'm stuck in my hell
He satisfies my nights
But doesn't even
Kiss me as he says goodbye.
LS Jan 2014
I hate all of you.
All but two of you.
I know my poems ****
But yours **** even worse.
All I see
Is pity me
And like my depression Poetry
No love
On here but desperate love
And I hate it.
It's one thing to write
About it once or twice
But after the tenth time
You forget how to rhyme
Maybe it's slime
Hoping you'll shine
And just those four lines
Sum up your artistic ability.
Sorry.
571 · Sep 2014
The truth of ugliness
LS Sep 2014
We all say the
Internal pain
Of loss, love, and jealousy
Are unbearable--
Yet we keep them
On our backs every day.
We let them whisper
Things in our ears
And hold our hearts.
We fall asleep thinking of them
Of the loss
Or
Love
Or jealousy.
They are bearable.
Only because they are a part of us,
A part of us that we like to
Say doesn't exist.
567 · Apr 2016
I Can See It Coming
LS Apr 2016
I knew it was too good
To be true.
How could somebody like me
Deserve someone like you?
I now see I have worn
You to the bone,
Your eyes dim where
They once shone.
I'm to selfish and
I'm too greedy
To let you go because
I'm just that needy.
I'll hold onto you
Until you push me away
And even then I'll
Unevenly whisper "stay".

Your beautiful blue eyes
Once holding fathomless love
Now show I'm not at all
What you dreamed of.

How could I be as good
As you thought?
Now you can see all I have
Inside me is rot.

Kissing me leaves your
Tongue bitter,
And all you can think of is
"I've got to quit her."

Its okay,
I understand.
I'll always fall asleep
Holding my own hand.
I apologize for the terrible rhyming.
563 · Nov 2013
Friday Nights
LS Nov 2013
I see their hands
Grabbing at the stage
And at my ankles
Their needy and beady eyes
Following my skimpy silhouette
As I twirl around the pole.
I cry at night
When they come in
For $100 worth of fun.
Rent isn't paid
And my boyfriend finally left me
For a richer class.
I wear my mask of makeup
And put on my smile,
Wipe my nose clear of dust
And head back onto the stage
With my ******* heels on.
559 · Jan 2014
Beauty
LS Jan 2014
There's beauty in
Every last kiss,
And in every fight,
A certain beauty
In every new love
And breakup,
Beauty in
Red wine
And smoking
The last cigarette from your pack...
There's beauty
In the morning sky
And in your lovers eyes,
It's in
Tanning out in the sun
And hot chocolate.
The beauty of life
Is in each smile
And it's in
Being naked and close
With someone you love.
It's waking up next to them
And being so happy
They didn't leave.
555 · May 2023
Make Me Drink
LS May 2023
I took his hand
He led me into the water
Wrapped his fingers around my throat
“I love it when you choke”
553 · Jul 2014
To be Honest
LS Jul 2014
To be honest
I find him
Captivating.
I find his smile beautiful.
His shaved hair wonderful.
To be honest
I always feel like losing it
Around him
And my desperacy lashes out
And strikes him on his face.
God, I like him still.
The only cure for him is distance.
552 · Aug 2014
Never Let Me Go
LS Aug 2014
AM I SUPPOSED TO JUST FORGET EVERYTHING?
Your lips are burned into every inch
Of my body
Every single place you kissed
I feel like retching
Cause we are ended
And we ended like this
So hopeless
And numb
God I miss you so much
So ******* much
I love you
I love you
I love you
Your walk
And your laugh
How your eyes get squinty
When you get confused
I love your face when you sleep
And innocence is put in place
I love your bare shoulders
Your hands caressing
My face
How can I forget it
My own body betrays me
Longs for your touch
Slow dances
You swayed me
552 · Jun 2014
Left Imprint
LS Jun 2014
I leave an imprint
On the world.
Small, I know.
But those who do know
Of what imprint I leave...
Well, they
Wish they didn't.
544 · Feb 2015
Sublime
LS Feb 2015
She's so
Perfect
Sublime
I want to eat her up
Make her mine
Let her love me
And love her well
Take her to a fancy restaurant
And give her the world
540 · May 2015
This Isn't Beautiful
LS May 2015
I don't know what's so **** poetic
About drinking black coffee
And being depressed
What's so 'sad yet beautiful'
About crying in the rain
Because nothing about the hurt
Is beautiful
It's ******* pain
In your chest.
It's a sick stomach
And it's not eating at all
Or eating too much.

Nothing, nothing
Is poetic about it.
It's not beautiful.

It's ugly.
And it's there.
And it won't ******* leave,
No matter what you
Write about it.
539 · Jul 2014
Sleep is Truth
LS Jul 2014
I hold in all my emotions during the day. When I sleep... I grind my teeth. I wake myself up by scratching long lines across my arms till it hurts.
*God, I'm ****** up.
539 · Jan 2014
Snip Snip Snip
LS Jan 2014
I sit in front of my mirror
And grab at my legs
And at my fat.
I make scissors with my fingers.
"snip snip snip"
I murmur
Then giggle
If only I could
Snip away my thighs
And my stomach,
But that'll never be.
539 · Jun 2014
Happy 16th
LS Jun 2014
I have a right to be unhappy.
I'm not complaining
Or being rude.
I'm just upset.
Maybe I shouldn't even be upset.
Maybe I'm being too ungrateful
Because my sixteenth birthday
Is a ******* joke.
Happy sweet sixteen, Lindsey.
Oh, by the way,
All that stuff I promised?
Yeah, it's not happening.
Hope you don't mind I told you
Two days in advance.

Whatever.
My mom is making me mad
536 · Dec 2022
Ripe
LS Dec 2022
How do I protect you from all the men?
The men that will stare at you until your skin itches,
The ones I will unknowingly introduce you to,
The ones that take advantage of your innocence
Until you are stripped of it.
My beautiful baby daughter,
I want you to stay this small
Where you don’t know you are a woman at all.
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