Tell me you’re fine,
Say it like you mean it this time.
I promise I won’t run away,
Turn off my phone and get in my car.
Make me feel how I felt before—
Before reality came crashing down
It broke all of our dishes and your cars e-brake
And now I forget to turn off the stove
My hair straightener
Candles I’ve lit and never blown out
Maybe a small part of me does want to burn this whole ******* thing down.
All the ******* work
I’ve put in all these stupid ******* years
The tears I’ve cried
The breaths I’ve heaved
Cigarettes I’ve smoked
Alcohol bottles I’ve consumed
The hours of working on myself and you
And it doesn’t feel rewarding, not one bit.
I want to be in love so badly
And I’m mad you can’t do that for me
Why can’t you make be in love with you?
I’m a ******* phony, a fake.
I’m not in love with you but I need you!
******, I need you.
Come on,
Can’t that be enough for me?
It’s not enough
I’m not in love