It's. So. Loud.
Voices reverberate in my head
The echo is deafening
I'm not crazy.
A siren is blaring in the distance
But the outside noises don't resonate
And it's so loud inside of me
Peace of mind is just an imaginary state
That I don't have the capacity for
And I'm not crazy.
But the road won't stop spinning before me
And my thoughts still lack shape
Yet here I am
And they won't leave
I am not crazy.

They won't always like you
They won't always be there for you
Hell, they might even hate you
But if they don't care enough to stick around,
Why waste your time caring what they think?

they burned my mouth
shattered my teeth
with the everlasting taste
of dreadful stillness

*I'm longing for it.

For my sixteenth birthday she gave me a locket
Which I keep inside a bag, inside a box, inside of my drawer
All shiny and silver, with initials engraved
Carved on its back the date forever saved
It is resting undisturbed, never worn out
Though I try it out from time to time
Put it on by the mirror and wonder to myself
This is who I would be had things stayed the same
I shake my heavy head, unclasp it from my neck
The last piece of you at last is removed
And yes, I do try to forgive
But to this day that locket stays
Inside of a bag, in a box, at the bottom of my drawer

I don't put it on anymore

I've read about blue eyes
Compared to:
Light,
Gemstones,
Water,
But dear lord I did not know
That he inspired them all

I took a knife and cut out
Every part I didn't like
But
What I had left
Was no longer me

He asked her why she liked swing sets
A dreamy look clouded her eyes
And her answer was simple
"It's the closest I can get to flying"
He pushed her for more answers
What about planes? Jet packs? skydiving?
There are plenty of other ways
She knew this of course, but corrected her answer
"It's the closest I can get to flying...
Without leaving the ground"
The boy thought about this, wondering:
What held her back?
He didn't know she was afraid of falling
So he continued yet again
The girl knew he wasn't going to stop asking
"I like knowing that when I jump,
I won't break
Or crash
Or collapse"
By now words were pouring like rain from her mouth
"I just like freedom surrounded in security"

Bare wrists
Dressed in red
Bands wrap
Around uncovered skin

Choking on pain
Scarlet pools
Baby blues
Purple bruise

Canvas arms
Circling colors
Bubbles gurgling
Clean cut

He said he needed space so I gave him stars

love starts out as snow flurries then turns into blizzards

Would you believe me if I said I was okay?

Loser,
Gosh I miss you
...lame

with great writing anything is possible
and sometimes we have to write that disorganized poem
to get our thoughts out
we write not to please you
to be judged by your biased eyes
but to cure us of our troubles
in the best way we know how
and to me every line is perfect
every syllable, word, and sound
I write not for your benefit
but entirely for mine

Look at me
See how I smile right at you!
A grin stretched across my face
Reflecting your happiness right on back
I am what you expect to see,
A reflection, no surprises
But don't you dare peek through the other side!
Stare right through me, discover the trick
And really I'm not so joyful at all

I loved you more each day so I stopped counting

He took hold of my hand and we flew
Away from the city lights surrounding our troubles
Leaving our lives up to chance to seek out adventure
And filled our lungs with the freedom in night air

Hearts beating in code to thrill and excitement
I dared not let go, trusting I won't start to fall
But dread wins out when the clock reaches midnight
We will have to go back, a bliss like this never to last

And lay in our beds with stars over head
Magic and spells, with dreams they were real
Waiting and wishing with hearts of pure gold
Aching for belonging, longing for control

You are a puzzle with pieces that don't fit right

I think that you're oblivious
clueless to life and reality
It's not really a bad thing
but I think that I am jealous

You stride through doors--
Confident, a simile high in place
but I can't seem to feel that way
and believe me I have tried

We are part of different lifestyles
born of different worlds
and I think yours is better
than this place I call my own

writing is "sub-par"
our words are "mediocre"
so just shut up please

I don't need you to tell me I have value

I act like you care to hide that you're lying

You make me want to pull out my hair
in agitation
Or jump off a cilff from
frustration
But the worst thing is
...I kinda like it

Call me turbulent
Exploding with emotions
I'm honestly disturbed

I tried to find the words to say
Without letting secrets slip away
But what I forgot was simply that
Its hard not to confess my soul
To someone who knows every inch

I am sorry for the words that I clipped short

One minute I was fine
Then I just stopped breathing

You
are a song
that grabs my attention
in seconds

I am a kaleidoscope of color
Refracting spectrums of images

I don't care what you have to say
as long as you say it to the right person this time

You know, if you replete a word over and over, it won't sound the same
And this holds true with everything
Except for your name

I feel connected to you
Just by listening to the words
Of your favorite songs
Captivated by lyrics
Lost in the notes
Filled with meaning
Of everything you love
Those voices singing
I have a part of you
Kept with me always
In the beats and rhythms
Of your little treasures

You made me float through days
lost in a haze
I almost let it all go
and nobody knows
I think its kind of sad
that we turned out to be
noting more than stories
that won't be passed on
from me or you
to anyone

i wish
i wish i was
i wish i was a priority
i wish i was your priority

You taste like burned chocolate because sweet things fade first

He was the kind of boy
Who liked thunder clouds
And rainstorms

But I was just a girl
Who loved clear skies
And sunshine

Soft, blushing pink petals
Falling like rain around me
Covered in blossoms, in pure enticement
Beautiful in an enchanting way
Filling my heart with surprises
A sudden burst inside me
Can you help me hide my smile?
But I don't know if I want to
Our sky is filled with stars bright
Like gems of joy and happiness
Each one new, filled with amazement
Can you believe it?
A galaxy just for us
With night alive and day to rest
Can we savor hours of infinite heaven
Together beside the endless sea
Of bodies, wandering aimlessly walking
I'm glad that's not us
I've found my place
It's next to you
Where ever you go
Whatever I do
It's spectacular the way
Fate has unraveled
Revealing our destinies
The best way possible
Can you imagine?
It's all ours
Let's just take our moment
Meet me there okay?

I woke up energized in the middle of the night
Maybe it was the coffee or maybe it was our fight
I couldn't fall back asleep with my thoughts of you so vivid

Our every last connection has finally now been severed
I replay the way you yelled at me and spat into my face
But every way you hurt me leaves no visible mark or trace
I try to stay strong, play my little game of pretend

And I know I need to stop this, we need to reach an end
I think of this as I lay there, my heart not meant for you to keep
I think I'll say goodbye forever, but it can wait until tomorrow
I close my heavy eyelids, knowing that I can finally sleep

Your lips, they taste so incredibly sweet on mine
Like rays of sunshine or of purest wine
I want to bask in your wonder, savor your smile
I long for your arms to surround me in thunderous showers
I don't need romantic gifts or silly little flowers
I want to soak up all your beauty, listen to you dreams
Take on half your problems, as you have done for me
Meet the my final hour with you at my side
You're with me in my fury, in my devilish delight
I ache for you to be near me, for your whispers in my ears
Hold me close to you, save me from the tears
I want to truely see you, be around you all the time
Fore when I'm left alone, I lose the best part of me
That you helped me to become

(I don't need you to complete me,
But without you I'm not full,
And with you hand in mine,
I love you that much more)