sometimes i get these attacks,
where i feel like i just
want to scream,
at the top of my lungs
because you aren't here
anymore,
and i miss you,
so much.

and sometimes i get these attacks,
where i feel like i can't breathe,
because you aren't next to
me, and you never were,
and you never will be.


and sometimes i get these attacks,
where i just want to kiss you,
when i see you,
i want to kiss that beautiful
face of yours,
and those lips that
are always full, wet
and pink.

and sometimes i get these attacks,
where i just want to hide
in a corner and cry,
because i know
you'll never be mine.

If we know we can not survive,
we can at least try.
because, if we don't try,
we will never know how it
feels to be **alive.