I dream of freedom but it cannot find me even though I shout
that I am here and though I fear the feelings and my doubt
sometimes it's pure agony

I care for you now as I cared for you then
even when I said I just wanted to be friends,
it seemed like you understood but now it's
not that way, whenever we talk you don't
have much to say,
I didn't want to lose what we shared,
I didn't want us to grow apart,
but you didn't take a chance with me
you just left me in the dark.
Today I tried to talk to you and you just passed me by
didn't say Hi didn't say anything just left without a thought or a goodbye.

My little darling I hear your song,
your Mommy hears it too,
I place you in the loving arms
of the one I'm loving too.
Your song quiets down, almost to a whisper
Now I see whats wrong, it's only cause you missed her.

I need a moment if you don't mind, you've pushed me far and past the line leave me alone , just go away there is nothing left for us to say
I don't want you back I'll still be here, doing as I was but with hidden tears there was something that you missed my one regret
the hurt from every time that I'll soon forget.

This little nightmare comes and goes
Its dark and tainted when it comes it grows
it taints all my dreams it crucifies my night
its hauntingly fast, I'm losing this fight

this creature of dark this son of night
fleeing again at the first sight of dawns light
It holds my terrors and haunts my dreams
But the demons it carries are demons from me

Cross my heart hope to die,
why stick a needle in my eye?  
If I'm wrong I'll have shame,
but only I am yours to blame.

I ache so I sigh,
I want to cry
not to die,
what you see is different
what you see is not real,
You will never know
how I really feel.

My dear rose as red as blood
in the night you crave my love.