Don't they understand?
We crave the very thing our loved ones are scared of.
"It isn't healthy! It isn't normal!
I'm concerned for you.
I'm worried about you.
Think about
what you're doing to yourself.
Do you think this is beautiful? Do you think you are beautiful? What are you going to do about this? You need help. I want to help you, let me help you. Look at what you're doing to yourself..."
Who the hell do they think they are to tell us how we should act or feel?
How would they know what we're going through?
People like us are strong. We have our goals
and intend to fight for them.
**** what they say.
I crave the unknown. I crave what others fear.
Sever my pain away and open up new
beginnings with your tool of mass destruction.

© 2018 Omni Winters

Who is this being inside of me?
Why is she trying to break my true self?
Why is this unwelcome being trying to pull me from reality?
My perception hasn't been very clear these days.
The dark forces that live in my head have taken over my heart and thoughts... for now.

Seeing you is painful. This dark force wants me to forget all the good in you. I love you, but I cannot stand to love a person if my thoughts aren't clear. I cannot stand the feeling of loving someone who's over one million miles away.

The girl was in love with the moon. She would do anything to be with it. But every time she tries to catch it, it moves away.
The moon is close yet so far away. She chases the moon every night in hopes that she will one day have it, hold it, and protect it. No matter how hard she tried to reach it, the moon would get farther and farther away. With you, I don't see a difference.

I thought I had been so obvious from the start. Maybe you're just too blind to see that something good is right in front of you.
This is a waste of time. You are soon going to become
my waste of time. Why chase after something/someone if they don't make the same effort that you do? With or without glasses, you have a hard time seeing the big picture. You're blind to seeing good when it's staring you right in the face.

Seeing your face makes the knife in my heart moving ever so swiftly, making it hard to breathe. Your being is the very definition of betrayal... at least, that's what she wants me to believe.
The way you walk past me, through me like a ghost as if nothing were wrong. You're not innocent, you should be punnished for all the lies. Why should I ever believe you?
I know you're the right one. But does she know that?

Actions speak louder than words. I am a girl with the gift of writing. I am good with it all on my own. I don't need you to write me short answer responses, when I give you books. I give you books and plays. You give me short answer responses as if I'm a useless quiz you'll never see or need to know after it is done.
Is that truly the case? Or is there more? If so, why hide it?
Why hide all these 'secrets' away from someone who would keep them safe and secure?

© 2018 Omni Winters

Thousands of emotions can come from one person.
That person may be thinking of a certain situation or other person that first triggered all of these random emotions.
For me, it's another person I care about so much.
I'm the type to hold in emotions and look forward into my life.
These emotions are often negative.
No worries, right?
Takes a lot for me to show my true emotions, but when I do, it comes out rapidly.
Showers running down my face that can't be clearly explained.
Emotions vs. Negative Thoughts; Heart vs. Brain.
My heart feels like it's being crushed, squeezed, stabbed with swords at my darkest moments.
Love is a curious thing.
It is filled with both positive and negative outcomes.

© 2017 Omni Winters

How do I reach out to someone whose personality is trapped behind closed doors?

How do I ask questions that will give me all the right answers?

[He's] a wolf behind the sheep.

A slightly sensitive being behind the introverted, intelligent twins, and the independent, strong archer.

© 2017 Omni Winters

The storms of negativity in my mind would pierce
through my brain every day.
I thought to myself,
“What if the negativity could be erased?”  
  I was a bird in a bird’s cage.

Depression was the worst.
The days brought darkness to my once happy days, and welcomed me with a demon.
Depression once brought down the joy I had.
I could feel the shadows as they swallowed my fragile heart,  tearing away at all the positive thoughts and joy I had left.
“Congratulations, you’ve won."
Little did I know, I would see life’s light and love again.

This demon dragged me away from all the good I had.  
Thump, thump, thump..
  I heard it get louder every passing second.
Thump, thump, thump.  
My heart was a ticking time bomb, hoping for some mercy from the dastardly demon.
I thought it was only a matter of time for life’s consequences to play its role in my play’s tragedy.

The days as a demon’s prisoner are gone.
I thought of all the new, positive blessings life gave me
months after the demon was defeated.

It was then, in between the dancing trees and through the
wind’s  touch that  I’d finally come to truth with what was
  past and present.

© 2018 Omni Winters

Many thoughts that were once in your mind come back in
    a second when looking at the right person.

She's my trigger.

I was happy with myself:

Body type, ****** features, hair, and weight didn't matter to me.

The moment my eyes lock onto hers, everything I thought was okay disappears.

I am alone with the monster once again.

"I wish I was... I should be/have... Why am I [not]...

Why can't I be... I'll never be... I am not..."

© 2017 Omni Winters

You were my inspiration.
God is great and all, but you're so much better.
Lay down your thoughts and ideas.
I want a part of your wonderland.

© 2018 Omni Winters

You're a stranger behind the person I thought I knew.

We all know that I never knew you to begin with.

I claimed to love you in one way. That is true.

And at this very second, I hold some of that love in my heart for you.

However, it isn't as as obvious as it used to be.

You were a very special lesson and part of my life and that I will not forget.

It's okay.. I know you don't listen or care as much as I want.

Do you enjoy this attention?

Truth is, others can feel similarly about you as I did.

Life is too short to stay stuck in the past.
It is too short to stay stuck on old habits.
It's time to create a fresh start.. a better start.

You and me, as normal people would.

Start a conversation and talk.
Get comfortable enough to avoid any embarrassment.
Get rid of any discomfort and confusion.

Let's get used to life and the bright, happy beginnings it brings for us all.

© 2018 Omni Winters

How must one feel about love?
Content, thrilled, worried, terrified, confused, or unsure?
Love is a simple smile or a hug goodbye.
Love is risking everything you have and what you are for someone who has nothing.
Love is sharing half of your heart with the person you care so deeply about.
It can teach us the many things we should love about one another.
It is taking the blame for something we didn't do.
It is complicated, but wonderful.

      © 2017 Omni Winters

He opens up the door and finds her staring at him, furious.
"You're looking at me funny. Did I do something wrong?"
She doesn't answer him.
She continues to feel jealous and ticked off as he goes to sit next to her on the bed.

Although she had this urge to yell at him for something that wasn't his fault, she quickly moved over to his side for an aggressive hug.
She held him for 2 minutes and neither of them said a word.
All that she could say at this point was "Sorry."

The aggravation and consistency of jumping to conclusions eats away at all she ever thinks about.

'This needs to STOP. I shouldn't think so negatively and assume the worst of every situation.  I shouldn't make myself
believe all the lies I tell. I do not want to be that person
who judges everyone based on their actions.
If I don't know all the details of a situation, I should not make all of these conclusions.

What is a hypothesis without it's evidence?
Where is the logic in all of this? I have wronged someone I care about. This way of thinking is not acceptable.
Why must my brain work the way it does?
Where is the knowledge needed from those situations
you always think about so negatively?

We all have to believe something harmless will come out of
a situation we overanalyze. We must do less thinking on the ones that aren't as Idiotic as the Orange Orangutan we call a President. Let's focus on the real issues of the world, instead of just
harmless, meaningless actions from our friends,
family, and acquaintances.'

© 2018 Omni Winters

You make me feel like I'm finally home, like I belong.
You make me feel appreciated, needed, happy and loved
Like I'm not just a nuisance.
You make me feel excited about life and what it offers.
Viewing my life with clarity, and absolute positivity.
You make life so much more vibrant.
You're the colors of the rainbow.
Your creativity and passion for the arts is something I only see in dreams.
Kind, friendly, charismatic, a gentlemen.
A part of me:
When you're away, I lose a part of who I am inside.
I act like my true self again when you're around.
I remember what it's like to be authentic, playful, and full of life.
My one and only,
My number one supporter..

© 2020 Omni Winters