Step 1: Get out of bed
Step 2: Look in the mirror
Step 3: Practice your smile
Step 4: Eyedrops to hide the red eyes
Step 5: Conceal the dark circles
Step 6: Breathe
The curtains are almost up
Step 7: Lock down the pain
Step 8: Ignore the weight on your chest
Step 9: Silence the screams inside of your mind
Step 10: Choke down the sobs
Step 11: Ignore the stinging in your eyes
Step 12: Swallow past the tightness in your throat
You’ve put on this show a million times
Step 13: Don’t let them see
Times up. Curtains up. Camera rolling

One of these days , you will see my worth and know my loyalty, you will understand  what  I gave and realize I gave it all. You will look back on the dreams we had and the memories we made, when we could have made so many more. You will realize and acknowledge all of the things taken for granted , you will then understand all of the insults and harsh words weren't necessary. Although you may have hurt my heart and scarred my soul, you have only discouraged me for the moment, and I may never forget the things you said but I always forgave you. I never claimed perfection and stand in my own wrongs. The only difference is, I can own my faults and admit them to you , will it all be worth it in the end, when your faults can only touch one soul, and that one soul will be only you.?

And if you are to love,
Love as the moon loves.
It doesn't steal the night,
It only unveils the beauty of the dark.

And if you are to love,
Love as the rain loves.
It doesn't wet the bodies,
It only washes the sad dirt of the souls.

And if you are to love,
Love as the wind loves.
It doesn't drift away,
It only cleanse you to the core by invading through each pore.

And if you are to love,
Love as the sun loves.
It doesn't radiates heat,
It only pours its warmth on you to enlighten your way.

And if you are to love,
Love as the star loves.
It doesn't delightfully twinkles,
It only reminds you that not even death can separate two hearts.

And so forth,
if you are to love
Love as the whole universe
& not just a part of it.

A technological evolution
iPhone stapled to ear
The fear
Of missing out
On our social revolution.

A constant silent disco in our heads
Makes us buzz from work to bed.
Notified about everything
In control of none
An illusion that has replaced our tongue.

The new-age religion;
A martyr to the pixelated face
Of Illustrated connections.

Calling your name so softly, camly
Sleeping on a hospital bed
Barely able to breath.
Wonder how I ended up here?
All I know is that you’re gone.

All around me are faces full of pity.
I got tired of not understanding why.
Why do they all look like they want to cry?
Tears stains on my face with no cause.

Darling, I don’t know why you’re not here but I’ll find you.
Walk into the cold breeze looking for your warmth.
Dancing on top of ledges hoping that you’ll catch me
But I don’t feel your arms wrap around me tightly.

Please don’t shed any tears I’ll be alright
So just smile and pretend we are dancing like when we were young.

You don’t have to wait for me anymore because I am not here
But that’s alright cause I live in your memories.

All right so just, smile please
Smile and hide your tears behind a facade.

And I’ll wait for you
My Forever True Love.



© Sofia Villagrana 2018

This thunder
reminds me of the old times
when I would climb into your bed in fear.

I sleep alone now,
for the same thunder  
is now the lullaby
you sing for me
from heaven.

Your name repeated as if I were young
Forever remains on the tip of my tongue
Enthralled by Raven hair and lace
Your crimson lips make my heart race
Your eyes consume
As a great and crashing typhoon
A glance and I'm gone
Drug underneath the waves,
And lost forever in the tide.
I embrace the pull
I am home
And I am free

Do not wait
for someone
to offer you
their world.
Remember,
you have your own.