It's hard not to
fall in love
with someone

when
they see the
mixed up parts of your
soul.

When
they understand
the darkest and
dustiest
corners of your mind.

When
it's four a.m.
and they call
because
they know you're
not
asleep

It's hurt so many times.
Is it still suppose to hurt?
Well not anymore, I am numb to the pain.

Is this what it feels like?

How it feels to move on?

I feel like I'm flying,

like this cannot be wrong.


If I fall in love,

Will it feel like betrayal?

My heart sings its song,

And it no longer feels frail.


And I've learned to give up,

On hating the world,

But I still hesitate,

To give it a whirl.


Instead I sit here,

Blushing bright red,

Letting sweet words,

Rush to my head.

I plead to you
Let me rest in peace
For my lifeless husk
Is now deceased
The weight of pain
Was killing me
It won the war
It waged on me
So let me down
into the ground
And I promise not
To make a sound
For my withered heart
Beats no more
And my soul has left
The rivers shore
I'll float off now
Into the great beyond
Moving forward and
Moving on

They are not your past.

Stop treating them like
everyone else who took
your heart and broke it.

Let them handle it with
careful hands so that you
may one day know love.

Under the pressure I'm broken,
my failures are all self spoken.
In case you don't notice, I am waiting to die.
So just let me wave to you, let me say goodbye.
I've taken the pain and I've take the hurt.
All of my share and more, more than I thought to deserve.
I'll hand it right to you, you only made this harder.
You made my problems and burdens and hurting just that much larger.
If it's life I refuse, than death's what I've chosen.
So please respect my wishes as one of the broken.
Or stop me right now, make this moment worth living.
Somehow make this mountain worth the walking, this ocean worth swimming.

And then you changed
With each passing day I saw you in
A different light.
But I didn't mind
Because I knew I was just starting
To see you clearly.

I was strong, I was brave,
I did not took myself to the grave.
I gave all I had to make it work,
Turned out only to be clockwork.

I loved and admired, yet
I died again after sunset.
Poison was killing me slowly,
The poison that was you.