It's unexplainable
The hurt I feel
The hole that formed
Or the pain that rose
Can someone save me
From me
My thoughts
My fears
My miseries
I need to need
I want to sleep
Or just to forget
Forget I am me
And you are you
Forget the world turns
That the pain envelops
Wraps me up
Nice and cozy
Pain is addicting
Sadness is numbing
Day not in sight
It can't be too late
Seek me
Love me
Save me
God please send me
Help

I was nothing but dwindling fragile strands
Hopelessly intertwining every bit of me
Around your heart
To pull you out of the vast darkness
That you were planning to drown in

Maybe they'll excavate underneath my temple
To find the beauty lying beneath the destruction that life has left
Let my worshippers know that I forgive them
For when they pillaged my temple they set me free

I am a forest fire waiting for your love
You are the bridge collapsing under my touch
We burn and destroy for our own pleasure

You covered your lies
I covered my scars
We washed​ up on the shore
Of the land where fools
And cowards go
I know it's not home
But we're royalty here
I dig my feet in the sand
Everything hurts less now

I walked away from the coldest part of the world
To have the chance to live under the sun
And feel happiness for once
But when I saw you I knew
I buried a thousand suns in my chest
Held your hand in mine
Because I never thought
I’d get to hold the moon
And get to be her warmth
All I want is for you to feel this too
To have you never be alone again

Sometimes I stand in the exact same places
Where my heart was broken
And I relive those moments as I stand there
Feeling every bit of pain again
I just breathe and stop and smile
Because those exact places
And those exact heartbreaks
Led me to find myself
Sometimes I stand in the exact same places
Where my heart was broken
And I smile

Imagine terrestrial worlds never formed
Raw material never collided and bound
Silicate refusing to help form Earth's crust
If climate never favored life on this planet
My heart would never have surrendered
Imagine a world where I didn't miss you
If we never would have existed here
The vacancy of your side of the bed
Wouldn't weigh me down as much

To Love,
You've made me humble
With every ounce you fill me with
Because of you I stumble
While I incessantly search for more of you
I'm left here to tremble
Without your presence it's so cold
Sincerely,
Your biggest admirer

I can't stop it
I can't bear it
The monster comes to knock
I can't feel it
I can't shake it
The monster leaves me in shell shock
I want to think it
I want to write it
The moster watches me like a hawk
**** you writers block

She will cry often and alone
Failure is inevitable
Pretending her heart is of stone
She will cry often and alone
To feeling loved she is not prone
Beauty so impeccable
She will cry often and alone
Failure is inevitable

There's a method to this game I've developed in my head
In how I glance over to you
The sly smile that possesses my lips
There's a method that I've developed to get you in my bed
Our lips meet in intervals short and few
Close proximity allows for the grind of my hips
There's a method to the way I've protected myself from the feelings I dread
In the way that I fake the "i love you"
Your body heat numbs me as my heart rips
There's a method I've developed for this soul that's dead

Seeing your face is a constant reminder of my greatest fear:
To love endlessly without expectation
And receiving it fruitfully without apprehension

If your love was never meant to reside in the depths of my soul
Then what has all of this been for?

I keep chasing ghosts with you
I don’t know if they are yours
Or if they are my own
Contorted into something unknown
I am haunted by my love for you
Or by the way you look so blue
But I shall chase these ghosts for two