Broken glass of a french scotch
stamped to the mysteries of a sand
loosed tie and and unanswered calls
The fears of tomorrow
He chose the doorway to death.

In the most heroic way
In the most romantic  way
To become a coward
To become a  maniac
As the daily's said.

The silent myth
The sacred nuptials
the bind mackerel
a broken furred leg of spider
a feast for ants
fused medallions
Evoke the night!

Time is stuffed up like a teddy bear.
At times it's so adorable..
And you just feel you are inseparable
As you hug to it.
It becomes your most secure friend .

But then you grow up
realizing than its a non living
would never talk back
would never listen
and you tear it apart

Only after which you realize
that its existence was in being non-living,
that it was a silent spectator.

Tomorrows Exam is Mathematics
loaded my head with unknown tricks
Doodling with numbers
Yes, teacher calls us dumbers
Too much problems, yet very lil, solutions
The long mountains of  graphs
The Greek symbols alpha, beta omega
equations and formulas
Find height, depth use trigonometry
My answer a picture of a tree
infinite zeros in red
Sets, Relations,  Geometry,
variables and algebra and Lines,
Its like stepping into a field of mines
All time me wondering why
reciprocal of zero undefined?
much of the time
In exam, I stay
undefined!

Turned 17*
in yet another ordinary day..
blind
black
boring..*
Yes there were kind of joy
in my dreams
But the cake was bitter, balloons deflated, grey jacket
withered flowers, self written cards, melted candles
And infinite wait for your call..

17 years of humanly life... earthly
that faint odor of emptiness
Every time you turn back and realize how beautiful it was
It will make you only wilt
That how dull it is
That how beauti-dull its going to be..

And after all
Its me wishing myself
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

I'm crazy afraid of this valentines day
I try to improve
I try to modulate
I try to flirt
I try to cross the friend zone
I try to romance
but yet
your single gaze makes me blank.

because I cant lose you forever ..

Waiting for a phone call from you
is like jumping off from a spaceship
It just goes on gliding away
If only you would pick up
Then your voice becomes the gravity..
that would keep me still...

She hides her pupil
under the long lashes
'A silent sweet girl"
I thought

Then I knew she was
a shooting expert
'A serious one"

Her photos of hiking
had crossed 100 likes
"an adventurous one"

She sang a melody
struck the strings of guitar
" A real Virtuoso! "

She won A in next exam
"A prodigy"

Did she miss the fun?
Funny because she is
holding my hands
and what more fun!

You might have left me
but you also left me
with mixed emotions.
You taught me even my notions
could be false.
They were mere thoughts alas!
I learnt to hold my cries
to hold my sighs.
I controlled my rage
tied my dreams in a cage.
But when you walk past me
with same joy
I'm still left unanswered!

I crossed my heart
That I would never talk to you.
I cleared all doubts
That I would never see you.
I suppressed my love,
For all the options read
None of the above.
But when you make your steps
To me,
My hands tremble,
My heart beats,
My head spins,
All my rage, all my depression
They vanish,
Only to feel you..
Because even my crossed heart
Sustains on you.

luster of life is pale.
there are just demonic  fables.
faint songs
humming with deep notes
The cry of a phoenix
mountains tremble
with fear of men

This birthday
Is game of coin-toss day.
I don't know whats head whats tail
Wanting my heart not to fail.

It all depends
Whether
You wish me or not!

Being worthy for you
makes me only more worthless.

All my life
I wanted you
All the day
thought about you
expecting you would love back..

Now I know
Say
I cant expect you to love back