People cry and yell
About how their lives are hell
We watch and listen
Silent and still

People scream in my ear
Telling me what to do
I'm not stupid
But I choose to know you

People ramble about my differences
Voiced nonstop about yours
We are foolish, they said
They don't understand

People tell tales
Of our lives in different ways
But they don't know you

*Only you know me
And I know you

I stir
And I roll
In strange disturbance
And aggravation
The dullness numbing
And frightening
I fear
Silence deafening
I hear
Inner soul dispersing
I tear

Unexpected warmth
So lost yet so found
Will you join me in my cloudy paradise?
Just for a while...
It won't take long.

Subtle
Yet absolutely obvious

Tiny
Yet so magnanimous

Teasing
Yet extremely passionate

*I watched them by the shore
And I was in awe
For that love in their eyes
That's what I'm looking for

Their laughters drowned their thoughts
As their minds played images of awful pain
They lived in that moment though
For that allowed them to survive each day

suddenly the room went silent
pitch black darkness
but his heartbeat echoed
her eyes started to sparkle
that was when...
...they found each other

comfort and solace
in the seemingly endless night
I stay wide awake
reluctantly awaiting daylight

harmony of silence
my home of wonders
I stay wide awake
to live in the life I wanted

we often take for granted
of many things we have at present
it won't be until we actually lose it all
do we appreciate all that had happened

She scoffed at the words
That appeared on the screen
How it was ridiculous
That people were not allowed to love another being

"It's about two people who weren't meant to fall in love, but did."
He whispered

She froze
And turned
To see him staring right at her
The look in his eyes
Soft and sweet
Like he was tearing
Yet did not want her to see

"So... who is your equal?"
He asked
Before giving her a little kiss

And she smiled, gladly receiving it
With a mutual understanding

Fingers fiddling
Nerve-wrecking
Heart racing
Risking all that I've got
In that very moment

That's what it is

swinging in silence
consolidated within
that maximised impulsiveness
keeps on growing

Unlock that door
Bring your heavy feet in
Call out my name
"Baby, I'm home."

You will find me in our bedroom
Geeky glasses, fingers busy with a game
I will look up at you, softly
As you let out a yawn
"Long day?"

Shutting off my device
Arms open wide
You fall into my arms
With clothes crinkled from your day's work
But your scent still so attractive
"Yeah... It was bad and I'm exhausted..."

Cuddle you close
Kisses on your forehead
You pull me in closer, gripping tighter
*"Goodnight, my love."

we** are everything but broken
and
we are nothing but beautiful

Broiling a stew
Full of poison
Toxic mix of emotions
Unsatisfied desires

Brutal intentions and fiery chaos
Your mind, dark and bitter
Making mistakes one after another
"Apologies not accepted."

Intensified ambitions to destroy
Kindled flames of lies
Manipulative thoughts
Unintentional evil plots

Mentally tortured
By your own anger
Till you are deep in unneeded trouble
Soaked in unnecessary guilt
Consumed by your biggest demon
Drenched in *hatred

The droplet that drenches the metal tip
A fine point that holds many stories
The grip that sends it dancing
Across white paper and lines so neat

That droplet that gathers on the metal tip
Blots of tales tailored for you and me
Bringing to life a world so different
Presenting you a universe
That you would fall in love with

That droplet, black and sleek*
The beginning of many beauties
Like those words written
That had formed my most beloved fantasy

Looking in the mirror...
Her long eyelashes flutter
As she made up
And tinted her lips, magenta

She slipped her feet into stilettos
And showed up amidst loud lights and heavy beats
In a skin tight maroon dress
Turning heads with her little catwalk

She danced with poison
And kissed strangers
Twirled around in intoxication
Laid down with danger

Looking in the mirror...*
Her long eyelashes flutter
As tears rolled down her freckled cheeks
Her face an utter mess
Body stripped off all covers
And his loving words...
Stuck
Inside her head

He twirls the strings
And she moves accordingly
She dances to his tune
Sings to his melody

He bends a finger
And she sits down quietly
She stays silent
She keeps mum

He raises his hand**
And she stands at attention
She follows suit
She smiles...

Maybe they both have not realised
But he has got her
Wrapped around his fingers
For he is the puppeteer...

And her...
His willing puppet

That hug...
And that...
...kiss

The images in the head
Flashing by rapidly, repetitively
Now it's all confused

They find their way into dreamland
My most precious memories
And I felt it..

That hug...
And that...
...kiss

Visions reluctantly blur
But somehow absolutely clear
Like a dimmed light
Floating under a shining night

Many things
We tend to forget
But is it the little things that happen
That makes us remember the rest

The bell at the door went off
As she entered the cafe
The music that was playing
Was a gentle classic

She waited in line
But there seemed to be a problem at the counter
She watched
As the man scratched his head in panic and embarrassment

"Is everything okay?" she asked
So there was a language barrier
She helped in the translation between two
And he offered her a treat as gratitude

The bell at the door went off*
Countless times through the day
While they sat there in conversation
And multiple cups of coffee
Like they just have too much to say

In the depths
Under layers of a dilemma
Making a decision
Amidst questionable doubts

Holding on
With all I've got
Tugging along
With all I have

Come what may
Storms and hurricanes
Earthquakes and disasters
Even an apocalypse

Grant me that allowance
To fight
Like the warrior you know me to be
I'm ready for a war
A war unexpected

*For there is a place
I long to be...
That...


Haven


In which I have set my eyes upon...

Amidst a field of grass
There was a single rose
It was not just any rose
It was the one she love the most

-----

He pulled it out from nowhere
And presented it in front of her
A single white rose

"Why white?"
She asked

"Because a white rose symbolises us."
He said

She tilted her head in confusion
Not knowing what it meant

"We are meant for each other, my love."
He caresses her cheek gently
"That's why."

-----

From that day on
He remained her one and only
**White rose

They said*
To let nature take its course
But she
Did not want to sit still

They said
That what will be, will be
But she
Did not let it be

They said
Not to hurt yourself
But she
Love jumping into bottomless pits

They said
To let your heart decide
But she
Still kept choosing to do what's right


Even when all she wants to do
Is to be brave
And put up a rebellious fight

The wind stood still
But it was drizzling
The sun shone mercilessly
But there was light

Lost sight of everything
But I have memories
It was dead silent
But somehow I can still hear the birds sing

Caught in a storm
But I was under a shelter with you
All drenched and nowhere to go
But we are still laughing and trying to pull through

Trees were crashing in my path
But you held my hand through it all
Fingers no longer intertwined
But I know I'm still lucky



*Because the only person who really knows me
Will always be...

You

There is something about him
Yet I don't know what it is
It makes me feel fuzzy
Like butterflies in me

There is something about him
That makes me gravitate towards his presence
It makes me want to stay close
In silence or in everything

There is something about him
That calms my being
My demons quiet down
Just so that I could hear him

There is something about him
Because every time he holds my hand
I feel safe
Like I'm at home, cuddled in my warm bed

There is something about him**...
...and I still don't know what it is.

She sits there
On a maroon throne
With rubies and roses
Thorns in between gold embossments

Flaming red hair
Bright like the sun
Murderous bloodshot hues
With fiery intent and raging nerves

Burgundy lips shaped seductively
Flushed cheeks with a tint of coy
Decked in a suit
That made her look like she was ignited
Like she had been set ablaze

*And she sits there...
On her maroon throne
With her bleeding heart
On her scepter

With only blazing emotions
Running through her veins...

It would be your fingers
Gently trailing my back
That drives me crazy
With every touch

It would be your lips
Slowly travelling across my skin
That sends those breaths escaping
With every kiss

It would be your words
Breathing into my ears
That gives me satisfaction
With every whisper

It would be your love
Penetrating from your body to mine
That increases my heartbeat
With all that we have going on inside

He wrote about his life
And all that he feels
His thoughts opened into pages
Like his mind in a book

He wrote about his darkest days
And all the sadness in them
His tears dripping onto the words
Wishing for a better world

He wrote about his happier days
When things go better
His heart had time to heal
Before facing another battle

He wrote about the way he love
And all the things she made him feel
His smile appearing once more
As he told her
"It's for you."




*And she would read them over and over
For he was her favourite book

And she never really reads...

We wrote about the way we love
And the little things that happened in between
But what we have failed to realize
Is that
We were all slowly writing
Towards
**An ending

Maybe
Somehow
I'll be there
In that universe that I don't exist in
Where I would see
That you are there too

Hearts were racing and feet were running
Her trying to catch up in her white sneakers
Him holding onto her hand
With a smile when he looked back

Laughter was astounding and panting in between
Her in that little white dress, a small veil over her head
Him in that neat shirt, sleek jeans and a stunning white bow tie
"This is crazy..." they said

"Ready?"
"Not really."

Hearts were racing but feet were walking
Their hands clutched together, ever so tightly
Down the aisle they go
Towards an altar that they've failed to believe in

Laughter melted into little giggles and panting in between*
With minimal witnesses
They made silly vows
And exchanged simple rings

"I do."*

And they shared a kiss
One like no other
One that marked their ultimate bliss

"I love you." she whispered
"I know." he chuckled
And she hit him with the tiny bouquet
"Unbelievable." she scoffed in joke

"I know."
He said, gently
And he kissed her forehead
"Tell me all about it."

  

                                                           *And they laughed...
                                                         Ever so happily...