11:45
painted in the bags
under my eyes

thoughts come in waves
roaring as the ocean roars
demanding to be heard

11:54
blunt
in the silence of the night

my guts wrenches
feelings flood my head
& I begin to drown

Come my dear,
hold me tight,
in my darkest moments
in the middle of the night.

Wrap me up,
nice and warm.
I trust your love
to do me no harm.

Call me babe,
tell me you care.
And most of all
please,always be there.

I've been broken
once or twice.
Something fresh
could do me suffice.

I look to you now,
to help me through.
Mend this heart
which was made just for you.

Society's hot breath whispers its ugly secret

"You're not good enough"
It chants
Like claws to the skin
It rips up the past
Resurfaces old sin

"Forget the good, you've wasted away"
It feeds the demons
You've tried so hard to forget
But it's not that easy
You can't forget yet

"No love for the ugly, the ******, the poor"
It lies
It's way right into your soul
Digging up the dirt
That once filled the black hole

Do you know your power
Over my every thought?

You light me up on the inside
Fill my lungs,
Make me feel alive.
I breathe you in and I'm fine.
Touch my lips,
I'll be alright.
When you touch my lips,
I'll be alright.

the
brush
of
your
lips
the
spark
ignites
me
makes
its
way
to
my
hips
flash
lightning
I
just
hope
the
rain
doesn't
wash
you
out
i've
just
gotten
over
the
previous
draught

Each day, my rotten flesh
Is being picked away.

The scabs blossoming
With their rosy red smiles,
So crystalline
And bright.

And as I shed my winter coat,
The sad mass of green goo,
A figure, raw and sick,
Is left behind.

From thick
To thin.

Now ******
And bare,

Somehow this spring breeze
Is more like poisoned air.

I am
Depressed
Oppressed
and Obsessed

fixated into thinking love will heal me
of the burden I carry
and life will be merry
once again

love is not mending
the scars in my soul
or paying the toll
for infinite debt

love drives the knife deeper
I'll go insane
from the pain
of never being good enough

just sit
& let the pen bleed
the words
your tongue
lacked enough courage
to spit on the page

you may find
that the curves and lines
will melodically play
in a more natural way

as a born writer,
a born creative mind,
a born patron of all
of life's simple pleasures

even when you have
nothing
to say
you can paint
a picture
with your mind

J.
U.
N.
E.

With each letter,
It's divided into fourths.
With each syllable,
You fade away.

As the days and hours
Tick on and on,
I feel you.

Dripping
Out of my pores.
Scraping
Out my guts.
Packing
My heart,
And taking it to go.

Now I can't
Look you in the face
Can't
Find comfort in your embrace
Can't
Stand in one ******* place,
Because my paycheck
Is running out.

I knew in the beginning
That this time would come,
So I'm not saying
That this isn't fair.

But when you leave,
My love will be lost.
Maybe I should have looked first,
For how much
You cost.

Tell me baby,
Do you like how I feel?
When you looked in my eyes,
Did you see something real?
Could you fall for me,
So you pushed me away?
Or is this just the game
We'll play?

I know you love the way I speak,
My body language,
Tempting,
And making you weak.
I'm open to taking the potion
You claim is so closed up
Inside.

Let me soak you in,
You've already been within.
The walls of my humble scene,
Trust me, baby, there is no screen.

I wanna feel your love,
Be real with your love.
If you'd give me the chance
I just can't steal your love.
Send it my way.
And if later,
I have to pay,
Make it worth it.
I won't throw a fit,
But baby just know,
If you want it,
You got it.

spitting words so fast
your lips bleed
yelling hate so loud
that your lungs heave

breaking down ain't easy
crying makes it worse
what happened to the message
in the bible verse

turn away from lies
they never loved you
just because they say it
doesn't make true

find your soul
your way of living
keep your heart
not the one they're giving

After being out in the dark
And sitting out in the cold
I look up at the sky
To see the man on the moon

His face is like butter
Silky and golden
He takes away the hardships
That come in the night

The stars that surround him
cannot outshine his beauty
for he overlooks the earth
on his own

I look up tonight and I wonder
Have we ever shared a glance
Of miles away but our eyes bound
Together at the light

Do you think of me now
As I think of you
As I stare and wonder
At the man on the moon

hard pitter-patters
of drops on the window
turn into palpitations

water to my hip
soaked and cold
yet i'm smiling wide

now to my neck
paralyzed and numb
happy and relaxed
for the things that will come

no sign of surface
deep and blue
the painted colors
are pictures of you

i'm drowning now
palpitations on low
this is exactly the way
i wanted to go

dreaming and drifting through the night
I know that I am safe
no monster tries to hurt me now
alone in my dark cave

I walk through and my eyes are opened
to a completely different place
my mind has no limits to the things I can do
my thoughts float around with grace

my cave is mine to keep
no one else aloud inside
unless that is, I take you in
and let you have a ride

here I am everything I ever wished to be
maidens, heroes, shooting stars or even the trees
but now this buzzing brings me away
oh how I wish it weren't monday

If dreams came true
I'd dream of a future

If I could wish upon a star
I'd wish for bliss

If I could change one thing
I'd take a needle and string
And sow together the spaces
That seperate me and you

Gasping
Grasping
Grabbing for air
Falling entirely upward and downward
Of which I do not know
I feel alive, your hand in mine
My heart flops and I
Gasp
Grasp
Grab out for your love

Its the sweat and tears
That blend the years
And end in undying bliss

Its the love and pain
All the feelings you gain
From doing something you miss

It fuels
It drives
It keeps you alive

My love
My love
Its just

This

I'm not supposed
To want to kiss your lips
& make sure happiness
Finds it's way to your day.
Giving you romance tips
Between my acid trips
& pretending
It's all okay.
Because it's wrong.
I'm not right.
And now I'm off
On a different flight
Descending
Burning
Rotting in hell.
& I don't know
If you could tell
But I'm pushing up daisies
Maybe I'm crazy
Just because I want you
To call me your baby

If you cut my skin
There would be no blood.
Words would rush out
In a steady stream
All of the things
I've wanted to scream
In your face.

Your words have seeped
Into mine.

I've started
To believe the lies
And somehow,
I feel safe in subordination.
Safe in bottling up
Half of this oppressed nation.
Okay with the slap
Of a dominant hand
Because I am a brand
Of human
That they label
"She"

Falling asleep to the sound of my brain,
it's been sounding a lot recently like the curves of your name.
I hold you in my mouth,
and you taste so sweet.
Much like the thump
of my racing heartbeat.
My pillow still smells like your freckled skin,
my blankets still rustled from you touch.
My body aching for a squeeze
or such.
Such a night as the day we wasted away
when you still liked to look at me that way.

It was a hurricane
Like Katrina or Sandy
Come to spit me upon the shore

It was a tsunami
That shook my world
And mutated my soul

It was flooding rain
Engulfing my brain
And breaking my heart

It was the best and the worst
That I could have wished
It was the storm
That grew a rose
And drew blood
With its thorn

Have a headache?
Take a Pill.
Sore throat?
Take a pill.
If you can't heal yourself,
The pill surely will.

Feeling sad?
Take a pill.
Suicidal?
Take a pill.
He'll pull you away,
Pull you off the hill.

Can't fall asleep?
Take a pill.
Wont stay awake?
Take a pill.
He promises you help
And you believe he will.

There's nothing that a pill can't do
He'll fix you
He'll fix you
It's true.

Suddenly a ring
Appears around her feet,
And whip in her hand
Makes her lungs retreat.

Here comes the tiger.
A flood,
An ambush.
His blue eyes searching
For a place,
A blood rush.

She turns her head,
He snatches her heart.
But she's not dead,
She's just filling her part.

The tiger snarls.
A growl,
A roar.
She's falling
Again,
For one who makes her sore.

you're supposed to listen to stories
to learn from stories
and to take from each story a moral
or meaning

but what if these stories have been twisted
their own truths mixed
with society's despair
and heart ache

everything is wrong
not even the brightest of stars
knows of its tales
adventures or happiness

we cannot listen
we cannot learn
we cannot gain the knowledge we need
to grow

there is no hope for tomorrow
for you cannot fix the broken-hearted
they know of no love
the poor black souls

Put it back
Put it all away
Don't try to take it if you can't pay

Its not nice to steal
Its not nice to bite
The last thing I want to do is fight

What happened to your care
What happened to your touch
Its not fair you made me love you so much

Truth is I miss you
Truth is you're my world
Talking all night will never get old

Please stop messing around
Please stop making me feel
Tell me you love me and that love is real

Never leave me alone
Never leave me to my brain
I tend to let myself go insane

I think that you care
I think that you know
You're just too afraid to let that love show

I can't be sure
I can't know it at all
But I wish just for once that you'd let yourself fall

I love you
I love you
I guess that's all

I burn
I bake
I turn
I wake

filled with the fire
you set in my heart
I can't explain my desire
been there from the start

hot flame engulfs my brain
i couldn't douse it if i tried
you melt my pain
forgetting the times i cried

does your blaze burn too
mine keeps growing
please tell me if you do
for my seeds keep sowing

you started me like a match
faster than fast
my soul you did ******
wildfire at last