It's hard to find someone who can sweep you off your feet.
But, I did.
I found this girl who showed me what
its like to really be in love.
She's the girl you'd have your parents meet.
She's so sweet.
She was unexpected.
But she makes me feel protected.
I feel safe.
I feel like I belong.
I see her,
& I smile.
She is love.

You kissed my cheek softly,
before you left.
I always hate when you have to go.
Why can't you stay here
with me forever?
Why can't you leave her & stay with me?
You always talk about it,
but you never do.
I'm tired of being second.
Baby...
stay with me.

I wish I could go somewhere.
I want to travel & explore.
But I'm stuck here. Not much money
& I'm stuck inside a teenage body,
stuck with restrictions.

Your heart & mind battle everyday.
They battle inside you
like
World War 3.
Just like other wars in history,
someone wanted one thing,
but
others wanted it different.
Your heart wants them.
Your brain says no.
Grab your helmet.
There is going to be war
& it has just began.

This girl is in love with a girl who wants to be a guy.
She said all his features look right.
She calls him her boyfriend & doesn't think twice.
She wears his t shirts like the other girls do their boyfriends.
She says the he carries himself is tall & strong.
But something must be wrong.
Because this girl is in love with a girl who wants to be a guy.

I need a light on when I sleep.
It's because I'm surrounded by darkness & I'm scared it'll swallow me up if I step out of this light.
I feel the pain taking over my body.
I feel the pain sinking into my veins. I'm barely hanging on to the last bit of the light you once gave me.
But darling you're gone & all I feel is that darkness over my body.
You've created this darkness & now this darkness is me.
Lonely. Darkness. Covered me up like a sea washing over me.
I'm not who I was before & you're to thank for that.

You have the power to make me feel anything
just by your words that slip
through your beautiful
lips.
You can make me
feel on top of the world,
then
tear me down & make
my heart ache.
You have the power to break me,
but I gave you my heart.
Knowing you could do it,
hoping your love is strong enough
for me, that you won't.

The problem with relationship
today is that people
don't respect other
people.
Like, hello?
They're in a relationship.
Back off.
Another problem,
the cheaters.
You're suppose to commit to
one person.
Give them your all.

Its all messed up now a days.
Trust, commitment, respect & honesty.
Try it sometime.

There are some pros & cons
of spooning.

Pro #1:
Getting to hold her at night.
Con #1:
Her hair is all in your face.

Pro #2:
You're close to her all night.
Con #2:
You have no place but to lay on one arm.

There are some pros & cons of being the big spoon.
But it doesn't bother you
because you're holding the love of your life.

You see these little lines?
You stop to think what those are from.
You think you know but you're unsure.
You want to ask but you know what it's like.
We don't talk about it.
You know they aren't just scars.
You know they're the demons I fought
at 3 a.m.
You know they are my deepest insecurities & fears.
You know want to ask but you know what it's like.
We as people never wanted to feel this.
No one understands unless they know what those little lines are.
You don't have to ask because you know exactly what they are.
You are, I am, we are...
depression.

We live in a world where,
people are killing others.
Where people are stealing because
they can't afford what our government
prices so high.
Where people are homeless,
because they couldn't pay rent.
We live in a world that's not equal & not free.
We live in a world of hatred & power.
Where we can't shower because the water got shut off.
A world where war is so high
& the poor isn't cared for.
A world where the rich are greedy,
& the poor will do more
for the less fortune.
This is just some of how the world we live in

really is.

You toss & turn at night
Trying to find comfort.
You think you got it till
Your body aches.
You realize why the
Comfort isn't there.
It's because no one is
in that bed.
No ones there to comfort
Your head.
No one is there to save you from
Those bad dreams.
No ones there to steal the night.
We toss & turn & fight at night.

I never hated you.
I never wanted you to go away.
I just needed you to change.
From ever since I was little
I wanted you to be what I like to call
Better.
Different.
I wanted you to be who you're suppose to be.
There's no where to go.
I wanted to wake up
& you just be a dream.
I don't want to hide behind this frame.
I don't want to run & cover & avoid obstacles.
I never hated you.
I just wanted to be me.

The problem is,
they think they're better.
The question is,
are they really?
They're no better than the man
sleeping on the streets
& they are no better than
the girl over there who can't make ends meet.
they're not better because
they have nicer clothes
or that fancy car that
park itself.
They'd be better by not degrading others.
They'd be better by showing they care.
But people are selfish, harsh & careless.
Don't be like those people.
Help out, volunteer, show you care to
those who have it harder.
This is our only world, our only
life.

I'm up late,
thinking about you.
You run across my mind in the late
hours of the night.
I try chasing you, but
it's like you know the hiding spots inside my head.
You smile at me from behind the wise trees,
rooted on my brain.
I think I found you.
I spotted you.
You're right there. I can almost reach you, then
BOOM
I tripped on the tree roots.
Looking up, you're gone.
You're playing mind games,
in the late hours of the night.
Just like you always do.

You're here for me,
& I'm here for you.
You're what comforts me,
I'm what covers you.
We fit together,
I swear were meant to be.
We look at each other,
& get lost in each others eyes.
The deep brown of yours,
& the shallow green of mine.
Your touch sends sparks through my body,
& my touch gives you chills.
Being together is our own kind of fairy tale.
We'll have a happy forever.
We fit together.
We love each other.
That's our own feeling.
One no one can feel,
ever.
We stick together,
like each others doctor.
You heal me, &
I heal you.
Darling, I love you
& I know you do too.

You're tired.
You're lonely.
You're hurt.
You're alone.
You're broken.
You're sick.

You are depression.

I've always worn my flaws
on my sleeve.
You have always looked past them.
I get frustrated easily.
You get up & hug me.
You have always been there to make
me okay.
You're what holds me together,
when I'm about to break.

You can be happy
or you can be miserable.
You only get one life.
You decide.

I've spent hours of days of a week for months
just to get you out of my head.
I think I get closer everyday,
until I hear a certain song
or see something that reminds me
of you.
No matter how hard I try,
you're always there.
Walking around inside my head.
Stomping, causing me headaches.
I haven't talked to you in months,
but there you are on the radio
or there you are on the internet.
You're everywhere
& nowhere all at once.
Aren't you tired?
I know I am.

You're like a drug &
I'm addicted.
I can't get enough of you.
Your kisses are the most powerful.
I think I need them everyday to
survive
&
when I go a day without them,
I go a tad bit crazy.
Your touch could be a drug as well.
I yearn for it in the latest hours
of the night.
You're also my cure
from what you have me addicted to.