that night they dragged me
across the parking lot
they just couldn't see
how far i had got
i had made my world go black
yet they still yelled "liar"
they had me under attack
only my friends had screamed "why her?"

i was so close
my mind was less then static
it felt like everything froze
but to them i was still being dramatic

All this time
You were embracing a new lover
While I embraced a bottle and a light
You were filling your heart with love
While I was morning the death of yours
Why would you hurt me like that

Maybe he’s not my home
Maybe I was just a guest
But oh my god I want to stay
I’m so lost out here alone

I know it’s not healthy
The crying
The drinking
The drugs
The oversleeping
Everyday
Since he left
But I need a replacement for him
He was sun
He was my high
He was my drink
He was my love.
And now he’s gone.

I am still drowning in my feelings
I wish for the violent waves
To embrace my broken soul
Once again

Huge tears cling to my cheeks
I’m intoxicated and I miss the man I love
I’m intoxicated and I’m thinking about my end
I’m weeping for I’m terrified of going  back to the silky black
All alone

You slipped through my fingers
I feel like you’re trying to wash me off you
If you are please let me get you a napkin
And I will leave

My days became my nights
My meals have become pills
My water have become ***** mixed with tears
My sleep has become insomnia
And my dreams have become the gasping for air
But the only thing that hasn’t changed is how I love you

I’m not the strongest girl
I am weak and fragile.
You were strong and beautiful
You promised to hold me
To protect me through the storm

I did my best to calm the storm
So we could withstand it together
But with time
You slipped through my fingers

The storm is raging
And I’m not sure that I can withstand it on my own
But part of me prays
It’ll consume me

My love,
Is it cliche to say
If i were to fall asleep
Wrapped up in your arms
I'd feel safe and loved.

Is it also cliche to say
That though
I don't believe in a god
But that would be
The greatest blessing i could pray for

My love,
I know its cliche but
Though we are miles
Upon miles apart  
And you aren't within sight
Youre in my heart

Oh love,
I sound so cliche
But i long for the day
My prayers are answered
Where youre holding me
And i'm holding your heart

You say you see
a small bustling town
a great place to raise a family
somewhere to settle down
to start anew
You ask me don't I just love this place
Doesn't it ease my heart
You tell me that this place must be better from where I came
Better than a city
where mothers sell and steal anything they can
just so they can feel alive again
for maybe just one more hour
A small Sweet town like this
Must be better than a city
where fathers have no boundaries on what they take
from their children
Because In a city you get beat by the ones you love
I must love living in a safe town like this
where I'm safe from probing hands and peering eyes


But may I tell you this.
This town is no different
The children, they still find every flaw
and they will push you till you fly
It's no different! Little girls,
They still have to hide behind locked doors
So the older brother stops this beating.
In this town, Men will still be shot in the bar parking lot
The lost ones will still be weeping,
as they sink deeper into their addiction

This small busy town is no breath of air
You still get sent to a hospital when you show signs of breaking
that or one day you don't wake up.
Maybe you don't see it the way I can
But this town that adopted me,
It's no different from the city I was born.

She had red hands
And she wanted them to take her to beautiful lands
But she knows they won't
So she prepares the body
Filling it with pills and cuts
Cause shes gone nuts

She has red hands
And shes not able to do much
She just wish she could feel his touch
But she knows she won't

She has red hands
And she made a mistake
And now its her life she must take

She has red hands
And she wants you to know she still loves you
And she wants to make things better
But to be able to she knows she won't

She'll die with red hands

Love
That’s what I’m in with you
You make my grey skies shine blue
When i’m with you
How can i not smile?
Before i knew you i hadn’t smiled in a while
But oh, your smile…
It puts all the others in exile
And your eyes
They're the reason the sun has to rise
When you laugh  
I could write a more than one paragraph
On how it makes me feel at home
Your voice makes me want to roam
Till i can get to you
Love
I’m so deeply in *love with you
Thank you for being **you

I run
I run not to exercise
nor to lose weight
I don't run for fun


I like the burning in my lung
It reminds me that I'm still young

It reminds me that I'm still alive
and that i'm stronger then i think

so all i do is run

I never told you...
that during the time we met
I thought of my friends of my only family, no big threat
and in those two years we grew close
one thing i will say that no one knows
within three years
i shed so many tears

You decided you didn't want me anymore
and left me bleeding on the floor
and you took the rest of the family with you
and i never told you so you never knew...

You see you all were my family
and i loved you all
and i took a fall
but you took everyone away
and everything turned gray

you see I've had depression since i was six
and then you pulled out your bag of tricks
and you ****** me so badly
and i couldn't take it, sadly

So i went to that ocean
i had ran out of emotion
and i tried to drown
all i ever did anymore was frown

and i did love you
but not like soul mate love
family love
and i didn't want to lose my family again

and now your doing the same thing now...
and i have continued to fall down.

And he said he's scared that when i move i will find another
but i told him listen there will never be another
he said he'll miss me
but what he doesn't see
i want him to come with me
and we'll never have to be alone
because you warm me to the bone
we've both felt so much pain
sometimes i wonder how i'm still sane
and i don't want someone other then you
because your my one and only boo

you came towards me
and made me feel free
you took me into your strong embrace
and all day i could stay in that place
you looked at me with that smile
and even though it took a while
i opened myself to you
called me your boo
took the blade from my hand
and together we took a stand
so we could both be happy again
i opened myself to the possibility of being hurt again
and so have you
but together we'll be strong no matter what we go through
no more being sad, okay?
we're on top of the world might as well enjoy the view