Oh, how i think living is such a terrible tragedy Falling and faltering while you cradle me in your arms My skin burns where we touch and connect I can feel this agony I can feel myself writhe in pain when you hold me Nothing but comforting touches and platonic affection Yet i still burn with discomfort
What is this great calamity What is this god if not my captor My religion must be you they tell me But i am still falling and faltering And burning in this torment If i push you out of my mind And ignore the words of my peers Will I find peace? Or will I still live in this never ending desolation
im falling and falling and falling and yet i never land at rock bottom, somehow that worse than anything i could ever imagine.
Do I get seen by this world around me, Or am I invisible to every person. Only for boys to examine my frail body, Just like another fish within the ocean. Am I invisible to everyone around me, For every one around to flaunt. My body is invisible for all to see, And this world it will not haunt. For you will only find the reminiscences, Of my despair and destruction of my mind. Something that is unknown to science, But somewhere I hope I'm still here to find.
Sorry for another poem again... It is really my only release of emotional distress.
Hold me until i feel my pieces clicking back together I need proof that my body is not taking up space that my lips aren't pressing yours because your lonely remind me that i make sense tell me you need me i'm not the best at admitting my thoughts i'm not always thinking of things so pure i choke on my words when things get hard my sadness makes more sense than i can explain but all i know is that you make sense to me to
I sat there waiting for you to get home you came in and grabbed the beer I ran upstairs and locked my door you broke the promise "I will never drink again" I hear you drop the dumb can tears start running down my face I scrambled around my room something that could hold the door closed "a chair!That's it!" I grabbed it and say it in front of the door I looked at the window "Open up" I smashed the window opened and tried letting go I tried to take the step back but then I stepped forward I opened my eyes and there you were by my side I looked at the window still attached not broken just a dumb dream you then opened your eyes I smiled and said "hold me" I then realized you I can never let go you are my home <3
to keep me forever. squeeze me to remember how you feel in this moment-before i’m gone. squeeze me to bathe in our love-powerful like the sun. squeeze me to paint our sins in your head. squeeze me to let our love envelop our minds and bodies intertwined.
you hold me with a grasp that aches to let go that hates that I let it know that i’m leaving Your arms begin grieving Refusing to let go of this fleeting Moment The energy you surround me with so potent So intense The kind that gives one notions The kind that causes me to question every motion I make Every romantic idea I create a facade So intense With little motion And the sense Of calm You yawn I gaze at your slumber and my fawn hands caress your umber burnt skin and i begin to listen, to your heartbeat at its proper pace as my aching heart mimics it, they begin to race my eyes dance around your face As you pull me deeper into your embrace You hold me as your snores begin to scold me you unfold me i become open to you as i review ever subtle movement my body soothes when you hold me, how I refuse to hold myself. i whisper very boldly to myself, i love you but only discreetly while you’re sleeping because only while we’re dreaming does this all feel so possible does this type of love and sensuality and affection feel probable so i lay and i wait for you to awake i wait in this space for you to gently place your lips on my forehead for your warm embrace. for clothes to replace your warm embrace in its stead for our little visit to come to an end. you release me with that grasp that aches to let go that hates that, I let it know that i have to leave it Your arms begin grieving me the romanticism begins fleeting me i reach over to kiss you one more time and in turn you reply “i love you” my heart did not know what to say or what to do it could not take any less of you only anymore