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30.7k · Jul 2019
Binibini.
Hanzou Jul 2019
Binibini, isang liham ang aking isinulat para sa iyo,
Maaari mo bang ibahagi sa akin ang kislap ng iyong kagandahan?
Marami ang nakakakita ng kagandahan ngunit, naipakita mo na ba ang kailaliman?
Sa isang kupas na imaheng namumuo sa aking isipan,
Higit pa ang kalawakan at kung maikukumpara ko sa mga tala sa kalangitan,
Iisa ang isinasaad ng iyong kagandahan. Yun ay ang kalungkutan.
Isang sulyap na tila ba wala ka ng ibang nanaisin pa, o hihilingin.
Ang paghahangad ay labis subalit sasapat sa nagkukulang kong damdamin.
Binibini, bakit nga ba namumuo sa'yong mata ang labis na kalungkutan?
Bakit tila, sa aking pananaw ay nagsasabi na ika'y pagod na?
Bakit ako ang nakakakita ng iyong paghihirap?
Binibini, sa kabila ng lahat ng iyon, nagagawa mo parin na magtiis?
Hanga ako sayo binibini.
Hindi lang paghanga ang aking nadarama.
Higit pa sa matatamis na salita.
Higit pa sa pagpaparamdam ko sa'yo.
Binibini, lubos akong nagmamahal sa iyo.
Maaari ba'ng ako naman ang pakinggan mo?
Na sana ay makarating sa'yo ang lahat ng hangad ko?
Hangad ko ang iyong kaligayahan.
Ngunit hindi ko maipapangako na sa bawat sandali ay naroroon ako para sa iyo.
Hindi ko maipapangako na hindi kita sasaktan.
Hindi ko maipapangako sa iyo na ang bawat alaala sa aking piling ay magiging espesyal.
Sapagkat sa likod ng matatamis na salita ay ang pagkukubli ng masamang hangarin.
Hangarin na ika'y saktan.
Hangarin na sa bawat pangakong binitawan ay walang matupad.
Hangarin na iwanan ka'ng nag-iisa.
At hangarin na mag-iiwan sa iyo ng bakas na magdudulot ng iyong pagkahina.
Hindi ko man maipangako na hindi ka saktan,
Ang aking saloobin sa iyo ay totoo at walang bahid ng kasamaan.
Hindi ko man magawang makapunta sa iyong tabi,
Nakasisiguro ako na makararating sa'yo ang aking alab na damdamin.
24.1k · Jul 2019
Mahal. Kita.
Hanzou Jul 2019
Kahit na ano pang isipin ng lahat tungkol sa ating dalawa
Pangako ko sayo na hinding-hindi na magbabago pa
Ang natural na pag-ibig na nakatanim dito, oo dito
Pag-ibig na nagbibigay lakas sakin at sa buong pagkatao ko

Natatandaan mo ba? Lahat nang pagsuyo na aking ginawa
Lahat nang binigay sayo'y ginusto ko at ninais ng kusa
Hindi man ako tulad ng iba na may maipagmamalaki talaga
Pinilit ko pa ding maki-ayon at kayanin para makasama ka

Kung ano man ang nais na hilingin
Handa akong ito'y tanggapin
Kahit na magpakatanga sa lahat,
Ng pagkakatao'y aking gagawin

Kasi mahal kita, oo totoo na mahal kita
Totoong lahat ng ito para sayo, noon pa
Handa naman akong maghintay sa isang tabi
Hanggang sa dumating ang araw na handa kana binibini

Ikaw ang tanging lakas
Sandalang walang wagas
Para bang ako'y tinamaan ni kupido
Ang puso ko ay lagi ng ganado

Isipin man na ako ay nambobola
Isipin man lahat ng 'to sa umpisa
Isipin man na agad mabalewala
Isipin man na maloko sa salita

Hindi ko gagawin ang panloloko
Na ginawa sayo't pang-uuto
Mananatili lang akong nakagabay sayo
Handang pasanin pati lahat ng problema mo

Laging nakatitig sa maganda **** mga mata
Lahat ng pagod ay agad na nawawala
May mga bagay na madalas kuntento na
Pag nakikita ang iyong ngiti, na nakatutuwa

Patawad kung madalas ako'y madikit sayo
Patawad kung masyado akong makulit sayo
Pasensya na kung ganito ang nararamdaman ko
Masyadong halata, masyadong mainip kung magmahal ako

Salamat kahit wala kang ginagawa,
Dahil presensiya mo lang sa aki'y sapat na
Salamat sa pagtanggap at hindi pagtaboy sa akin
Salamat sa maliligayang sandali na palagi kong gugunitain

Nagdadalawang isip ka pa ba?
Seryoso ako, mahal na mahal kita
Hindi naman ako nagmamadali, alam kong nariyan ka
Mahal kita, at iyon ang isinasaad ng aking tula.
4.8k · Jul 2019
"Ganito lang ako"
Hanzou Jul 2019
Sensitibo akong tao, kaunting pangungutya, malaki na ang epekto.
Nabuhay ako sa paniniwalang lahat ng babae, tumitingin lang sa gwapo.
Kasalanan ko bang maging pangit? Siguro hindi, siguro oo.
Sabi nila walang pangit. Ugali lang ang pangit sa ibang tao.

Nakasanayan ko nalang na walang naririnig, kahit lantaran akong laitin.
Ininda lahat ng pananakit, maswerte nalang kung minsa'y daplisin.
Hindi ko kayang lumaban, patay malisya lang ang damdamin.
Ayoko ng gulo, ni isang salita wala akong binanggit kahit aking isipin.

Aking babaguhin, karamihan sa kababaihan ay tumitingin sa gwapo.
"Ano bang meron sa mga gwapo?" Pare-pareho lang naman kaming tao.
Alam kong mahalaga din ang panlabas na kaanyuan pero,
Yun ba ang minamahal? Yun nalang ba ang basehan sa mundong ito?

Lahat ng 'yan nakaraan nalang sa akin.
Magmula nung dumating ka, pinaniwala **** mali ang aking hangarin.
Hangarin na tanggapin na walang kaaya-aya sa akin.
Kahit anong pilit ko, pilit **** itinatanggi at hindi pinapansin.

Hindi ako gwapo. Pero kaya kong harapin ng may magandang kalooban ang magulang mo.
Hindi ako mayaman. Pero ipapakita ko sayo na ang kayamanan ay nasa kaya nating ibuo.
Hindi ako yung taong magara ang kasuotan kapag haharap sayo.
Aanhin ko yun? Kinabukasan natin ang aabangan ko, hindi pagiging maluho.

Hindi ako yung lalake na pagkakagastusan ka ng sobra sa tuwing may selebrasyon.
Gusto ko kase maramdaman natin. Hindi sa nakikita, kundi mismo sa pagkakataon.
Hindi ko kayang lumaban, duwag ako, at nananatiling mahinahon.
Pero hindi ko hahayaan na may umapi sayo na kahit sino, makakatikim sakin 'yon.

Hindi ako yung tipong kaya kang pakiligin sa mga salita.
Madalas kasi wala akong tiwala na kaya ko yun magawa.
Panay ang pagkumpara ng itsura ko sa iba.
Kahit ganun naman , lahat ng sinabi ko sayo, totoo at may isang salita.

Hindi ako gwapo, oo.
Hindi ako maporma, oo.
Hindi ako astig, oo.
Hindi ako yung matitipuhan agad kase, oo, ganito lang ako.
2.8k · Jul 2019
DAHILAN
Hanzou Jul 2019
tol kung ako tatanungin, pa'no masasabing eto na 'yon?
kase diba 'pag nagmamahal ka dapat nasa tamang panahon?
pa'no nga ba masasabing tama na 'yon?
mahal mo, mahal ka

tol kagaya rin noong una
pero 'di ka naiiba kase lahat ng 'yan sa umpisa talaga
pero 'pag nagtagal na tol dun na magsisimulang magbago
lahat ng kamustahan magbabago

lahat ng pag-iintindihan sa isa't-isa, maglalaho
lahat ng lambingan, o pangako, napapako
pero tol ano nga bang dahilan?
ang tanong, anong magiging dahilan?
2.5k · Nov 10
Never Enough
Hanzou Nov 10
All the things I did weren't enough
If the person I once knew
Tries to find those on others
It just means that
Even if I try to do better
If I'm not the person that is wanted
It's always never enough
1.8k · May 2018
Bakit?
Hanzou May 2018
Bakit? Bakit nga ba laging sa tula?

Bakit sa lahat ng pagkakataon, ito'y ginagawa?

Bakit emosyon at damdami'y,  dito napunta?

Bakit hindi maibigkas, at sayo'y maipakita?

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Bakit sa bawat pagsulyap, sakit ang nadarama?

Bakit sa tuwing lalapitan, pagka-ilang ay nangunguna?

Bakit 'pag nakakasama, wala manlang saya?

Bakit 'pag nakakausap, may patlang na 'di mapuna?

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Bakit ganon, hindi saya ang nadarama?

Bakit ganon, walang ngiti na maipakita?

Bakit ganon, bawat kirot lumalala?

Bakit ganon, parang wala lang talaga?

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Bakit nga ba? Bakit laging ganito?

Bakit laging may hapdi, ang nararamdaman ko?

Bakit? Ako naman ay totoo?

Kaya pala, ako nga pala ay minsan ng naloko, at nabigo.
Hanzou May 2018
Minsan naiisip ko kung bakit madalas akong nag-aalala sayo.
Madalas din kung maramdaman ko na sa bawat minsan nasasaktan ako.
Minsan wala akong maramdaman.
Madalas nagiging manhid nalang.

Minsan ginugusto ko nalang na biglang mawala.
Madalas sinasabi ng isip ko na 'wag magpapabigla.
Minsan naman nakakasanayan ko na tiisin ang pagkalungkot.
Madalas hindi ko kinakaya, mahirap, matindi, makirot.

Minsan napapatanong ako kung, "Minsan lang, pero ba't napapadalas?".
Madalas na kase akong matulala kakatingin sa larawan nating kupas.
Minsan nasasagi sa isip ko, "Kuntento ka pa ba? O sawa ka na?".
Madalas akong natatakot, nababalisa, 'di mapakali, oo, sobra na.

Minsan ko nang nagawa ang ibalewala ang iba, walang nakikita, kahit nandyan na.
Madalas ko ding sinasabi sa sarili na wala akong alam noon, kahit 'di na tama.
Minsan naisip ko na baka bumalik sa'kin, at karmahin ako.
Madalas namang kinokontra ng isip ko, ang damdamin ko.

Oo nga pala, minsan na din akong nagloko.
At ngayon nararanasan ko, ang madalas na pinaggagagawa ko.
Kahit sabihin pa na minsan lang, kahit minsan lang na nangyari.
Madalas ko ng maranasan, minsan, madalas, bumabalik sa akin ang ginawa ko dati.
1.5k · May 2018
Pag-ibig nga naman.
Hanzou May 2018
Ikaw ba ay bigo sa pagibig?

Tipong lahat ay nadaan lang sa kilig?

Kahit sinong gusto ay 'di ka hilig?

Pagkabigong sa umpisa'y nagsimula sa titig?

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'Wag kang mag-alala.

Dahil hindi ka nag-iisa.

Madami kayong nagdurusa.

Mga sawi na parehas na pinaasa.

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Kumalma ka, pag-isipang mabuti.

Sa tingin mo kaya'y bakit ka nasawi?

Maling pagkakataon, pagtugon ng madali?

Pag-abante't pag-atras, nagpaka martir sa hapdi?

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Kung ika'y bigo ay 'wag **** dibdibin.

Sa ngayon, maraming bagay ang dapat isipin.

Ang tunay na pag-ibig ay 'di madaling hanapin.

Nasa puso't kaluluwa, ang magmahal na nasa saloobin.
1.3k · Nov 28
Just This Time
Hanzou Nov 28
Please, let things be in my favor
Even for a while
Just for once in this life
Let me be free from you
I still miss you. I always think of you every single day. But I know you're happy now, I don't want to ruin that.
1.1k · Jul 2019
Pagkikita
Hanzou Jul 2019
Sa pagitan ng isang salamin kami'y unang nagkatagpo
Tila walang ibang nakikita habang tanaw siya sa malayo
Kaunting hakbang nalang ay patungo na ako
Ngunit napuno ng kaba at hiya, sapagkat unang beses ito.

Isang binibining marilag at may kaayusan
Na ang kaniyang kaanyuan ay kapita-pitagan
Malumanay niya akong tinungo at nilapitan
Na para bang kami ay mag-uusap ng masinsinan

Lumipas ang bawat sandali na kami ay magkasama
Habang dahan-dahang inilapat ang kamay sa kaniyang palad
Nilibot ang paligid, tanging siya lang ang nakikita
Mahinay ang takbo ng oras, na sa layo ng nilakbay ay parang nagpapahinga

Malapit na matapos ang panandaliang pagsasama
Habang ako'y pilit na tinalunton ang bawat hakbang niya
Dumating ang pagkakataong magpapaalam na
Lunos ang biglang nadama, sapagkat iyon ay una.

Sa larawan na aming kinuhanan nang kami ay magkasama
Ika-pitompu't anim na araw ng tatlong daan at animnapu't lima
Siya ay aking nakausap, nakasama, at nakita
Subalit hindi nasabihan ng isang mahalagang salita

Sa nag-iisang larawan na pilit kong iniingatan
Bumalik kami sa dati na sa telepono'y nag-uusap na lamang
Kung may pagkakataon ay agad siyang pupuntahan
At sa pagkakataong iyon, ay mahigpit siyang hahagkan

Sa isang imahe ng larawan na aking itinatangis
Nag-iisang larawan na lubos kong ninanais
Subalit sa kasalukuyan ako'y patuloy na nagahis
Sapagkat ang imaheng iyon ay imaheng puno ng hinagpis

Hinagpis sa una naming pagkikita
Sa matagal na paghihintay ay muli ng nagkasama
Handa akong maghintay at maglakbay ng ilang milya
Mangyari lamang ulit ang matagal ko ng adhika.
860 · Aug 2021
Untitled
Hanzou Aug 2021
I lost the motivation and energy that I once had.
Ever since that day.
Overthinking became my hobby.
Anxiety became my friend.
And my purpose, to blame myself.
727 · May 2021
Untitled
Hanzou May 2021
Here we go again.
Abnkkbsnplko
692 · Mar 2021
If
Hanzou Mar 2021
If
You only feel like it,
when you're told to.
650 · May 2018
Tag of yourself
550 · May 2018
Can you? Or will you?
Hanzou May 2018
Can you save that person?
Or will you save that person?
Can you not let them hurt again?
Or will you not let them hurt again?

Can you make that person happy, one more time?
Or will you make that person happy, like it's the last time?
Can you give that person the feeling that they've been longing for?
Or will you let that person feel that, no matter what comes?

Can you consider their worthless self?
Or will you decide to accept it?
Can you also be the person that decides?
Or will you be the person that initiates?

Making them feel and having them feel are both different
It isn't a matter of questions or actions
It's in the willingness, of the mind, of the heart
Now, can you do it? Or will you do it?
549 · Jul 2019
Sino... ako?
Hanzou Jul 2019
Hindi ko lubos malaman kung saan na nga ba ang daan tungo sa walang hanggang kasiyahan
Tila ako'y nabalot na ng walang katapusang kalungkutan
Pakisabi naman sa akin ang araw kung kailan ito mawawakasan
Patuloy na naghihinagpis
Mga mata ay laging nananangis
Kung iyong titingnan sa aking pisikal na kaanyuan malalaman mo ang pinagkaiba ng isang taong masaya at isang taong pilit nagpapakasaya.
Oo, hindi ako ang taong kilala ninyo.
Sa likod ng wangis na anyo,
Sa kabila ng 'di mawaring agam-agam,
Nananatili ang isang kabuuan ng pagkatao na kahit kailan, hindi ko ninais maramdaman.
Oo, isa akong halimuyak ng bulaklak sa inyong paningin pero,
Ni minsan hindi nagawang pitasin at nanatiling nakasulyap sa katimyasan.
Isa lamang akong atraksyon na pinipiling lapitan.
Isang anino sa pisikal na anyo.
481 · Dec 7
The Last Goodbye
Hanzou Dec 7
My pen trembles with this final verse,
A love once blessing, now a curse.
With every word, I set you free,
This is my final act—no more of me.

No more whispers of what once was,
No more tracing love’s fragile flaws.
This chapter ends, the ink runs dry,
Goodbye, my love, this is goodbye.
Goodbye, K! Until we meet again—perhaps in another lifetime.
457 · Oct 20
Beneath the Surface
Hanzou Oct 20
He gave her everything, or so it seemed,
Love poured out like rivers in the quiet stream.
But now she only recalls the storms, the rain,
As if all he ever brought was pain.

He wonders if she sees the man he became,
Or if she’s blinded by the ghosts of blame.
Mistakes, he admits, he made his share,
Yet he changed, but she acts like he’s still there.

She tells the world of her heart’s disdain,
Of memories that still cause her pain.
But what of the moments he held her close,
Of the love that endured when she needed it most?

She paints him in shades of darkness and strife,
As if he never added light to her life.
All the wrongs she remembers, clear and stark,
But what of the times he mended her heart?

He forgave the wounds she left behind,
The scars she carved, the battles unkind.
But now she turns, with anger so deep,
And casts him away, into shadows she keeps.

Perhaps it’s easier for her to forget,
The love, the kindness, the times they met.
For all that remains in her mind’s twisted maze,
Is the version of him that she couldn’t erase.
434 · Apr 2021
Untitled
Hanzou Apr 2021
I guess you're far from me now.
abnkkbsnplko
426 · Oct 2022
Hate
Hanzou Oct 2022
I hate you,
With all my life.
For the things you made me feel,
The things you made me do,
I hate you.
383 · Jul 2019
Pag-ibig
Hanzou Jul 2019
Ang pag-ibig ay 'di naisusukat ng mga letra
Kung magbabakasakali lamang na ito'y makita
Kahit na may malayo, at posibleng may magbago
Ang pagibig ay nandyan, at nananatiling buo.

Ano nga ba ang pagibig kung hindi ka totoo?
Totoo sa bawat salita, at binitawang mga pangako?
Pangako na inilahad, ngunit laging napapako
Napapakong pagmamahalan, kailanma'y 'di na lalago.

Kapag sinabi mo bang "mahal kita",
Ay talagang sigurado ka na?
Totoo ba talaga lahat, ang iyong nadarama?
Tagos sa puso, matino, at sayo'y may pagkakilala?

Kung minsan ang pagibig, ay seryosong usapin
Hindi sapat ang salita at dapat hayaan ang damdamin
Hindi lamang sa isang tao, kundi sa bawat isa sa atin
Dahil ang pagibig ay turo ng Maykapal, sa kalooban natin.
365 · Jul 2019
Hidden Meaning
Hanzou Jul 2019
It was the first time that I met her
She was shy and quiet, pure and innocent
That day was the most memorable for me
It's like we've known each other for long
Like talked to each other for so long
Laughed at each other for so many reasons
Loved each other so hard
Over and over again, it's like a cycle
Vented frustrations at each other
Even to the point that will end our time being together
Happy times have ended so fast,
Each and every moment did not last,
Right doings became wrong, without having the time to ask.
365 · May 2018
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365 · May 2021
Untitled
Hanzou May 2021
Looks like I also need to change my ways.
Abnkkbsnplko pt3
349 · Aug 2021
Untitled
Hanzou Aug 2021
Pasensya na.
342 · Jun 2021
Untitled
Hanzou Jun 2021
Push me away 'til I get tired.
Abnkkbsnplko pt.6
333 · Oct 19
Longing in Silence
Hanzou Oct 19
In the quiet hours, your laughter lingers,
Echoes of memories dance on my mind’s stage.
Each shadow whispers of love’s tender fingers,
Yet here I stand, a heart caught in a cage.

Stars above witness the nights I still yearn,
For the warmth of your gaze that once felt like home.
In dreams, I reach out, but the tides never turn,
As I wander this world, forever alone.
326 · Aug 2021
Untitled
Hanzou Aug 2021
Mahal na mahal kita palagi. Kahit na ako ay....
304 · Jun 2019
Paalam
Hanzou Jun 2019
Hindi ko maunawaan
Mga katagang napagdaanan
Na marahil totoo nga,
Walang personal na pangmatagalan.

Musika ang naagapay
Naapuhap ko kung saan nakalagay
Sa musika naging karamay
Pero sa kasalukuyan, siya ay sumakabilang-buhay.

Nawaglit man sa panahon
Pansamantala man ang pagkakataon,
Lahat mananatili sa memorya
At 'yun ang magsisilbing alaala.
299 · Jul 2021
Untitled
Hanzou Jul 2021
Ako talaga 'yun
280 · Jul 2019
Life...
Hanzou Jul 2019
Hey, you've had enough right?
So why do you continue to fight?
Why do you seem helpless, on countless nights?
Why the light you had in you all this time, has lost its bright?

It's okay, life is fair
That is, for being unfair to all
You just need to provide yourself with care,
Eventually, you will sway from all your downfalls.
274 · Jul 2021
Untitled
Hanzou Jul 2021
I'm done.
If you can't,
Then so be it.
259 · May 2018
feeling of nothingness
254 · Jul 2021
Untitled
Hanzou Jul 2021
Hindi ko na talaga maintindihan ito.
249 · Jun 2021
Untitled
Hanzou Jun 2021
Welcome back, trust issues.
238 · Mar 2021
I
Hanzou Mar 2021
I
Didn't only get jealous,
But also got the blame.
233 · May 2018
She's always..... hurting.
Hanzou May 2018
That loneliness
Inside her shallow heart
Felt like a deep one
Almost empty, but left open.

I always admired her
Looked up to her flaws
Everything about her feels nostalgic
But there's this one feeling.

Her eyes are lively enough not to notice
Her smiles are even wider than you'd feel
Her face doesn't show that gloominess
That's exactly nobody knows.

Whenever I dig deeper knowing her
Even the darkness inside her
All those imperfections
Guilt, impurity, mortification

Her eyes are so full of life
But inside, it's like an empty vessel
Her heart, is a heart that keeps on loving
But in reality, it's a heart that is always hurting.
225 · Apr 2021
Uncertain
Hanzou Apr 2021
I am afraid of little changes
Afraid that you will get addicted to it,
To the changes.
I am afraid, not on myself
But on behalf of you,
Afraid of your little changes.
That one day, you'll turn into a different person.
Can I still keep up with you and go on?
Don't lose yourself,
Don't get addicted,
I know changes can be good or bad,
But I am afraid of it for you.
You didn't ask me anything in return,
But I am afraid of you being addicted,
To that. The changes, and the reasons coming from it.
210 · Nov 13
No one to read
Hanzou Nov 13
When there are no words to capture my regrets,
My longing, my anger—all the colors of emotion,
When the day arrives that my letters fade away,
And I lose the words, the sentences, the will to create.

The girl I once poured my words out for,
who was the heart behind every line, every verse—
she isn’t mine anymore.
Now these poems fall silent, with no one left to read them.
hindi ko kayang umibig muli.
203 · Apr 2021
Untitled
Hanzou Apr 2021
First we became friends,
Now lovers.
I don't want this to end,
For us to become strangers.
abnkkbsnplko
203 · Oct 2022
Why?
Hanzou Oct 2022
I've always waited for your everything
Ever since I met you
Yet you couldn't.
Why didn't you wait for me?
Why after all these years, you chose to deny everything you've done?
Do people change the way they want to?
Or is it only an excuse when it's convenient for you?
Why couldn't you wait for me, my love?
When all my life I've dedicated waiting just for you.
Yet you couldn't.
186 · Nov 24
A Silent Cheer
Hanzou Nov 24
She’s out there, living, laughing, free,
Connecting in ways I wish I could be.
She’s found her rhythm, both online and real,
While I remain with wounds I can’t heal.

I’m glad for her, truly I am,
Even though my heart feels a little slammed.
As an introvert, I find it tough,
But her joy is a reminder that life’s still enough.
It's bittersweet, isn't it? I am happy for her, but there's also a sense of loss in seeing her thrive while I'm left to navigate things on my own. I don't have anyone to talk to, to be sociable. I can't be like her.
185 · Jun 2021
Blame me
Hanzou Jun 2021
Every single time, it is always because of me.
I am the reason why it happens.
I am the one at fault.
Felt as if guilt-tripping.
Abnkkbsnplko pt. 4
Hanzou Oct 19
We stood once, hand in hand,
against the world and its cruel demands.
We whispered vows, beneath the sky—
no storm would break us, no tear could pry.

We promised to fight, to always hold on,
yet now, it seems, that bond is gone.
You remembered the hurts, the weight of the past,
and forgiveness you spoke of was never to last.

But what of the love I gave in return?
The trust I rebuilt when it wasn’t my turn.
I held your flaws, your every mistake,
because for you, my heart would break and remake.

Do we have to say goodbye to dreams we once knew?
To a future we built, where love carried us through?
I loved you deeply, beyond every scar,
but now, you choose to drift afar.

Was it all for nothing, this love we embraced?
Do promises fade, like tears left erased?
Maybe goodbye is what you need to move on,
but a part of me wonders where we went wrong.

So, I stand here, torn and confused,
clutching a love that I never abused.
Perhaps the answer is letting you go,
but this heart—it's too slow to know.
173 · Nov 21
A Catalyst Left Behind
Hanzou Nov 21
She used me as the spark, the push to begin,
To try new things, to shed her old skin.
Yet why couldn't we rise and grow as one?
Why am I the shadow when her journey's begun?

Was I the weight that held her in place,
The tether that slowed her eager pace?
She blossomed beyond, while I stayed the same,
Left wondering if I’m the one to blame.

She never changed when we walked side by side,
But now she blooms with the world open wide.
Was I the barrier she needed to break?
A fleeting chapter, a step she’d forsake.
171 · Jun 2021
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Hanzou Jun 2021
Paano ko aayusin kung ako mismo hindi ayos?
169 · Oct 30
The Spaces Between
Hanzou Oct 30
From a distance, I watch the space between two friends grow small,
A quiet closeness forming, a step—a drift—I’ve seen it all.
Their laughter fills the hours from morning’s start to evening’s fall,
And somehow, I feel more distant now than I ever did before.

He’s just a friend, she says, with the ease of practiced lines,
But there’s a weight in his gaze, a purpose behind his time.
Perhaps it’s nothing, or maybe it's the way these things unwind,
One steady step into spaces I once thought were mine.

I asked her, lightly, to guard the borders of their ties,
A simple caution shared, a soft concern disguised.
But my words fell like whispers, dismissed into the skies,
Leaving me with an ache, unseen, unspoken, denied.

So here I am, a spectator to the subtle, shifting ways,
Caught between letting go and the memory of better days.
If this is what it means to care, in all the ways love decays,
Then I’ll stand in silence, holding the ghost of us in place.
poems from my muddled mind.
168 · Apr 2021
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Hanzou Apr 2021
It felt like driving me away once,
I understood that it had to be done.
166 · Jun 2019
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Hanzou Jun 2019
We are all just painful memories of our past
We kept on living until we can't last
All those sorrows, hardships, and miseries
Are burdened, all in our memories.
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