The future is here,
Nestled at my breast,
Untouched by anything but
Undiluted love.

The past ceases to matter
from now is all that counts.
No prejudice or grudges.
A life seen through eyes only.

The only influences that have caressed you,
determination and perseverance
You are proof of that

I've sought after you for so long
Years bled from my mind
As I drudged from wrong to wrong
Years bled out my eyes

I dreamt every night
Hoping every other one was you
I dreamt every night
Would jump off the train
Tear myself apart
Rank with a sickness
**** myself
And lie to all else -
just to meet you

And I did
Again and again
Another gun to my head
White whiskey
****** and salacious
For nothing but the hope
That I never thought would be
The hope of you

And then I stopped
Looked up, crawled out - crawled up
And ran to you
I found you sitting next to me
And for the first time you weren't a shadow of a dream of a hope that would be - that it was
You were someone I knew once from a life or two passed
And now you're here
And now you're not
And I love you as I always did before

The highest choice,
The sweetest and very best
Always and in every moment
Love.
Choose Love.

The highest and the best
But is it the easiest?

In the face of calamity,
Bitter, vicious calumny,
            How to choose love?

In the midst of trauma
heartbreak, anguish and grief
            How to bring love?

How to be a spring breeze?
When broken by disease?

How to be radiant light?
When facing darkness and fright?

Step by step,
smile by smile,
Moment by moment
breath by breath
i choose love.

With Your name as the anchor
My divine beloved savior
I choose love

Again and again
And yet again
To become
Moment by moment
breath by breath

That which thou art
Sweet love divine.

I
am
healing
but I don't want you to take off your shoes in my home yet

I
am
healing
but I'm still afraid of your touch

I
am
healing
but while I'm healing, you're burning like a broken electric wire, and while you burn you bloom

so yes, I am healing
slowly
trembling
feeling numb
but healing

Trust, always trust.

You may not see what God has in store for you yet and you may be stubborn but always remember that great things take time,
be patient and have peace in knowing that
He is always in control.

From the cranium
to the metatarsals.
I dare you to be careful.
Or drown me in ******.

He went from the femur
upwards my symphysis *****.
Looking beyond the cutis.
Or does he wish to view the pure.

Slightly touching with the phalanges
pressure building from the carpal.
Hiding the face under a parcel.
Or is the phase under changes.

Cramps in the tarsals
going up to the tibia.
For him it's a game of trivia.
Or is he fighting marshals.

He bites down into the clavicle
pain and pleasure going to the scapula.
He breaths vernacular.
He and I are flammable.

Bones to break.
What a piece of cake.

Her skin is not quite ivory but not hazelnut either. More like a dark beige.
Her freckles dance around her body. One not too far away from another.
Her hair is bipolar. Never being the same color for too long.
Her eyes aren't Dazzling Blue. More like a
Brave Brown

I kept chasing
you, as if
you were
a distant dream.
But dreams
are not always
dreams.
Sometimes, we have
nightmares too.