Sanity
fragile

My mind devours
& cowers in place
Of reason
Of forgetting

Another Bad Day
& I'm off
& gone again
& again I can't breathe
But I have someone with me
this time
To keep at bay
what monsters
have hid away

Help me apathy
Help me hero War
Help me to be
Keep away the thoughts
the suicide
the unholy matrimony

of sanity
and the reason
beyond reason

Treason of the brain
Goes like this

Slit the froat
Go like this
Shake the breeze
Go like this
Eat the ****
Go like this
Go like ******
Go like fleas
Go Away

A mocking gesture
& words like me
Freak me out

Anxiety of today
Go like this

I feel the sky
Parting in so many ways

My life hurts my
ears
Oh madness
If I could tear
you open
see what's inside of you
If I could **** myself
I could be fine

Sweet agony &
apathy

These words speak
wisdom
Steer dreams

Apathy

If you could be
If you could see

Mockery

Despite knowing
this I hold it together

I hold for years
dreaming of the
sea
Oceans dark
& antipathetic

I wish it could
rain on days
like this
But I'm afraid of
water
& it hurts my skin

Kiss
Disease
freedom

Why can't I live
another day like this
another day like this

Beauty
hurts

Wisdom

Goodnight

I feel so out of
my element
around you

& I can't understand
how a memory of a
thought
of an idea
could steer me
So wrong

Hate filled dreams
my eyes can't touch

Steer me wrong
But now the dream
Shallow & strong
comes
or close
or away
Breathe
Be gone

I hate myself

Agony

Wicked, rotten corpse
of past
Be gone

And speak wisdom
to me
God or Goddess
Speak Strong

Help me see
what angels fight
to believe

Wen you are in pain
I'll carry you out the flames
I'll carry you home

And when you are home
I'll carry you once again
Til our joy attained

I love you in pain
I love you in joy's domain
I love you always

For eternity and a day