Swirl around the memories
Dance along
A beautiful place
A beautiful song
Hope gracefully leaps through the air
Golden memories of people that actually care
A final happy poem
Maybe the last one I write
Hopefully not...
I love my life
I know I won't be saying that tomorrow...

My parents say theyre supportive
Call me he when im aroumd
But the second you think i cant hear
The second i leave the room
They say.
"SHE'S being weird today."
"I think SHE'S faking it."
"SHE isnt a boy."
"It's just a phase. SHE'LL grow out of it."
They go out of their way to call me she
Not he
Maybe
Just maybe
They might hate me

Icy stares open
Eyes that have been touched by pain
Yet freeze ones left warm~

ignore the hunger
keep the lion tame
you have joined
the hunger games

**** in your stomach
cover it up
with an oversized hoodie
this *****.

ignore the hunger
ignore the hunger
they'll start hurting you again
if you eat
if you eat
you'll go through the same pain
i want a new brain

ignore the hunger.
survive longer
lose weight
never take

welcome
to the hunger games

too tired to talk
too tired to get up
too tired to do school work
too tired to care
too tired to eat
too tired to do anything
but
s l o w l y
t y p e
t h i s
a w f u l
p o e t r y

you untie the tangle
the red string has went from loops
and twists
and bends
and now you can see it all...
i bet you regret it
because i wanted you to stop
now you know too much
and now
you'll probably leave me
just like everyone else did
i'm just too much
too much of a mess
a burden
for you to deal with
i'm sorry that what i went through
and what it left me with
hurts you
because i feel like actual worthless ****
but you treat me like a burden
so i must be wrong
because
every
single
*******
time.
i'll tell someone what i go through
and they'll say:
"it's ******* me that you go through that... i don't think we should be friends anymore.".
"friends" slowly (quickly) losing interest
i know they think i'm annoying
they don't have to pretend to like me anymore
i may be neurodivergent
but i'm not stupid

Why
How
Could
I
Ever
Think
That
I
Would
Could
Be
Free
Be
Accepted
For who I am

Morning of election results
Mourning of election results
A dream of freedom lost on the air.
A hope for a president who will actually care.

Danger is coming

it's gotten to the point
where nothing matters
the only reason I keep going
is because I know
there are barely any
but at least some
people that would care
if I just disappeared
They might be the only people that would notice...
Haha

Why do I laugh
Why do I sing
Why do I cry
Why do I even try
Whenever I have faith
It always ends up as a lie

Why do I write
Why do I draw
Why do I smile
It's almost never worth while

Make it stop
...

i want to live
not just survive

i don't hate you
i just sometimes wish
that we never met

so many times
i thought i was happy
turns out
it's just when you weren't around

you want to know what it's like inside my brain?
it's like burning in hell but with 10x the pain.
it's like swimming in a pool with nowhere to breathe
it's like all the cuts on my arm,
covered by a sleeve.
it's like being trapped in a closet
with no way out
it's like being deathly thirsty
but you're stuck in a drought.
it's like being in an escape room
with a forever stuck lock
it's like sitting in an empty room
waiting for a knock.
now you know what it's like inside my head
so now you know why i want to be dead~

when in rome
you do as the romans do.
when in school
you do as the students do.
when in hell
you do as the devils do.
you treat everyone like ****

when at home
you do as the residents do
when in life
you do as the livings do
when in heaven
you do as the angels do
you discriminate good from bad
when there really is no line

Where can I go
Anywhere but here
Anywhere but here would be safer
Anywhere but here would be better
Where will I go
Somewhere i can meet new people
Somewhere i can hide
Somewhere i can have new experiences
With you by my side
Somewhere...
Anywhere...
Would be better than here.

i'm worried
because my best friend keeps trying
trying to **** herself
and i don't know what i'll do
if one more ******* awful thing happens in my life
maybe she and i will meet each other in another life
i don't know
i was never religious
so maybe we'll just be alone
unconcious
forever
i hope she knows i'm worried about her

hard
to talk
about

yet
hard
to avoid

haha
that's me

everybody
hates him
nobody cares

everybody
wants to
shove him down the stairs

haha.
that's me.