When you only breath
To pass the time
And your whole world is burnt
Then there is no use of being phoenix

When your wings are broken
To fly above the clouds
And heavy rain is there
Then there is no use of being eagle

When you have pearl inside you
To shine in the dark abyss
And you need full moon to open shell
Then there is no use of being Oyster

Those mountains seems blue
As I watch from far...
But they are green
As I look from near
This distance between
me and them
Changes them
From green to blue...
Then why when you
Go away from me
You still look green
Who painted you
So emerald hue?

I drank your believes,
You spilt out my doubts
On those eves
You walked​ out

I trusted you with open eyes
You trusted me blind
But chain of doubts arises
In your iffy mind

May be you will never
Speak to me again
It won't be my loss ever
neither your gain

Because I don't want
Uncertainty in my life
& You surely want
Certainty in your life

So let's just end this
Uncertain relation
With smile, kiss
And Congratulation

Just his mere presence,
Beside me
Brought essence
To my existence...

Just this mere essence,
Residing in me
Is enough to lose sense
Airy still dense.....

Just this mere lost sense,
Inside of me
Crawling with suspense
Its surely his influence.....

She won't talk in a way
She will probably walk away....
She won't see you though
She has sea of emotions for you...

In the flash of flame & fame
When comes her name,
She is flushed with blush
& Hides sudden​ly in the rush...

She is shy
Don't know why
You just go
& Say "Hi"

Rage hurts me more
            Than the one
            I am raging on...

Dark rain clouds are full with agony
In the sky,
Still there is no rain blast
Don't know why...
                 My heart is boiling in the rage,
                 Still I am acting like the sage.....

Taking in oxygen,
To clear my vision,
In this blurry region...
              Lungs are breathing too fast,
              To get over the past
              I hope I will won at last...
Mind explodes worst
Than the volcano outburst
& I want to get out of this hell first....

I can't keep this load anymore
Question is what to choose?
                Floor to soar?
                       Or
               Door to roar?
                 Anyways,
Peace is hard to endeavour....

I hate it
When they just pretend
To be nice
With forced smiles
With 'Hi & Hellos',
& Stupid 'How are you's...
When they are​ wise
& They knew
Problem of mine
& I am not fine...

With double entrendes,
Pitiful praises,
Corny comments,
Snarky remarks,
They drill hole
Firing bullets of questions
To find my half missing soul...
Like healing(killing) me is there goal....

Why don't they understand
They are hurting me more
Or may be they are doing
This purposely to make me sore....

I just want to scream
on their faces one day,
I knew I would​ gather
That much courage to say....

My version of living hell
Will never match
Your version of living hell
So please don't try to make me well....

I am in huge nutshell
I am not ready to tell
So please don't dwell
Otherwise I will yell

Understanding pain is art
Not that easy problem, to sort
Your words are not from your heart
So they will never reach my heart


You won't ever feel empathy
So please don't show sympathy...

Hallucinating mirage
Ready to Cage,
Your trust,
With fake image....

Fire in the fireflies
Beaten by
the glimmering
confidence in the lies....

Before you blink
They will hoodwink
Leaving you to sink
Doing this without shrink...

Such a liar,
Conspirer & ******
Nothing else but
A Venomous Viper.....

Sitting in the moonlight
Near the edge of a pond...
Fishes are playing with might
Around my legs with a fond...

Heavy rain, starry night
Alone with umbrella & foggy sight
Eyes are spinning from left to right
From bottom to up for bright

Beaming,Blazing, dazzling stars
Worth of doing many wars
I want that cluster of stars &
Whole Stardust to wash my scars....

I just held my umbrella in a pond.....
Water of their Reflections is in my bond....
Clusters​ of stars are
Jailed in my umbrella...
Just to free another Cinderella....

Sometimes love is worst than hate...
If I have to vacate
My heart for
Love to fit in....
Then love is worst than hate......

Sometimes Cure is worst than disease...
If cure is killing me
By pain,
More than disease...
Then cure is worst than disease....

Sometimes sweet dreams are worst than nightmares......
If dreams are not holding
Anymore reality
But just unrealistic imagination....
Then sweet dreams are worst than nightmares....

Sometimes hopes are worst than despair.....
If hope brings
disappointment Everytime,
With unsatisfactory wishes...
Then hopes are worst than despair.....

Wanna stab me?
stab me either on heart or brain....
I will prefer brain over heart...
Memory loss will help me to forget you
& Certainly my heart loss....
So
Stabber will be you
But
Winner will be ME.

But you prefer heart over brain...
Because when I will lose my heart
Definitely I will forget you....
You are the one
Who resides there....
Your existence will go with my heart....
So again
Stabber will be you
But
Winner will be ME.

Wanna stab me?
Don't stab anywhere else...
Because if you'll spare my heart & brain
I promise this agony & pain,
I will repay you with equal love &
With more gratitude.......
So again
Stabber will be you
But
Winner will be ME.
  
Wanna stab me?
Stab me in both brain & heart....
I promise I will return to meet my love
By being a Phantom.....
So again
Stabber will be you
But
Winner will be ME.
What to say dear? love always wins.....

Gulping down two glass of wine
Hoping everything will be fine
Waiting for somebody, to dine
Tick tick tickling since nine
Where are you,date of mine?

I hate this lingering wait
Don't leave things on the fate
I am excited here, my mate
U won't forget I bet
Where are you, my date?

& There comes my shiny superstar
Seeing you on my radar
Feeling like I won the war
Sure this will go so far....

I want to search myself in icy steel  sapphires....
I wish I could find myself  in those deep pools.....
I wish my permanent address would be those aquamarine eyes....
I want those crystal blue mirrors,
always showing glittering glory
of your & my soul......

I want to search my lyrics in your melodies....
I wish I could decorate your​ jingles with my rhythms.....
I wish my soothing music would​ always
Find its final destination in your heart.....
I want those miraculous virtuoso hands and voice always tuning  mingling songs
of your & my soul...

I want to search my feet in somewhere between your footprints.....
I wish you would find me as your journey partner.....
I wish my sense compass would​ help us to find success path......
I want those fast leg swords to treasure them in  running chasing battle
Of your & my soul......

Monkey bone is
Crashing with
Scruples and conscience....

Good god ,evil devil are
Fighting with
Abience and Adience...

Fractured skull is
Thinking with
Brain's presence....

Taking one side is
big dilemma....
After knowing consequence....

I can be the light with dual nature....
Sometimes wave being particle......
Sometimes  particle being wave.....
Still it's a cognitive dissonance....

Oh I love crying....
For
Different calibers,
With
delicate moods.....

Oh I love crying...
Weeping for empathy,
Whimpering with ache,
Sobbing for despair,
Sniveling with pain,
Howling for anger,
Bawling with regret,
Wailing for griefs,
Whining with complaints,
Mourning for death,
Mewling with craves...

Oh I love crying.....
Wings of cry
floats me up
over the river of
sorrow & delight
Freeing me away
From
All.

Oh I love crying.....
Shoes of cry
Keeps my feet
On the earth
With freaking control
Holding me away
From
All.

Oh I love crying.....
Spiral & twisted
With shoes & wings
In middle of trauma
Swaying on swings
Away from
All.
Oh I love crying.....

This time I will make sure to look into your eyes when you are talking to me ....
But next time I will make sure to talk to you when I am looking into your eyes.....

This time I will make sure to laugh at your silly jokes....
But next time I will make sure to make silly jokes on your laughter.....

This time I will make sure to listen all your blabber...
But next time I will make sure to blabber to listen me....

This time I will make sure to agree with everyone.....
But next time I will make sure that everyone will agree with me....

This time I will make sure to be shelled by your breaks.......
But next time I will make sure to break all those shells.....

Carpet of chewing gum
Is stuck on my tongue
&
I am speaking fuzzy.
Oh it's a blur blur blur.... Everywhere...

Carpet of  black hairs
Is blocking my sunlight
&
I am thinking hazy.
Oh it's a blur blur blur.... Everywhere...

Carpet of spectacles
Is choking my vision
&
I am seeing muddy.
Oh it's a blur blur blur.... Everywhere...

Carpet of earrings
Is grabbing all attention
&
I am hearing cloudy.
Oh it's a blur blur blur.... Everywhere...

Carpet of tan
Is tarnishing my reactance
&
I am doing unclear.
Oh it's a blur blur blur.... Everywhere...

Carpet of shoes
Is separating me & Earth
&
I am walking smear.
Oh it's a blur blur blur.... Everywhere...

Or is it
Carpet of negativity on my soul
Is stopping my good heart
&
I am living a blur blur blur......everywhere?

You & me both are broken pieces of one,
Two but pristine whole tenderly done....

Yearning, longing, craving ache
Just​ for my sake......
Freezing, frigid,raw & chill
But by my will.......
Loony,silly,weird,insane
Still it's my pain......
Getting into this web,
Will go all in vain........

We all are running behind a logic.....
Just stop ,stand still,take a breath & discover this magic...Ahh not a logic....
Sometimes magic is worth to give a shot
Because there's a magic not a logic......

Little rosy bud.....
Why you don't want to grow up.....
& Turn into beautiful rose?

"Because Devils are ready to pluck me up....
They always wants to treasure & cage beautiful things.....
& I don't want to be in their golden flower ***......

Instead I will curl myself being velvet ball......"

Knock Knock......Is there someone
Knock Knock......Can you hear me
Knock Knock.....Oh no one wants to open that door.
I guess I have to break it.