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Freijah Sel Yna Sep 2018
"Always choose love over hate"

No matter how hard it is, no matter how unfair they are to you, even if it's too complicated to understand, choose love.

Do not fill your own heart with hatred just because of their unpleasant actions towards you. For not treating you fairly and being rude to you.
For being insensitive or sometimes inconsiderate with your feelings.

Always choose love no matter what, eventually at the end of the day they will learn the courage of choosing love that each hearts will be filled with peace and kindness.❤
Freijah Sel Yna Oct 2018
She's like a glass
with a broken body,
chipped heart by every events
she had gone through.
Cracked, damaged and flawed.
Got hurt trying to fix things,
and bleed trying hold
herself together.
One more gentle touch
to make sure how she was doing?
She'll be shattered
into pieces without knowing.
Freijah Sel Yna Dec 2017
Been asking a lot, why?
Why does he need to keep a good book without reading?
Why does he need to write a story without thinking about the ending?
Why does she kept on holding even if she's grieving?
And why can't she just put anyone above him?

Does he really mean that much to her?
Do you think she's such a fool to keep on going even if she knows she'll die waiting in the ending?

She knows she can't have him.
She knows he loves someone else.
And she knows how **** hard it is to be in her position.

But, why? Why does she keeps on going?
Why does she need to keep on waiting, hurting, crying.. pretending and still loving.

Maybe now I know why, maybe now I understand why she just can't let go of him and just go find someone else.

Maybe.. she's still holding to the last hope she have that someday, he will choose her. That somehow she have a place in him.

As she would be willing to die every night to let her loving sun rise. It is all simply because she loves him and willing to do the sacrifice.
Freijah Sel Yna Feb 2018
The warmth of your body
that wraps around me,
the touches of yours
gently caressing me.

The tone of your
sleepy voice,
those drowsy
eyes of yours.

As I feel your nose
lining from my neck
down to my spine,
babe it makes me weak.

then I felt your lips
pressing with mine.
Your ardent kisses
and comforting hugs.

The smells of your skin
that lingers on mine
and the sensation it gives
of longing even more for you.

You, everything about you,
every part of you,
gives me pleasure,
it makes me fall even deeper.

I hope this won't end
tho the visualization
wasn't vivid at all,
It doesn't matter.

What I only know is
you're here next to me,
with your arms around me and
hands clutched with mine.

Please let this last long forever,
let us indulge the moment
as you and I dive into this
exceptional love of ours.
A romantic dream for a long lost heart longing for her dearest love.
Freijah Sel Yna Dec 2017
"He, who doesn't trust easily,
Not even me.
He, who nags a lot and knows
his place.
He, who always wins the fight.
He, who doesn't believe easily,
unless he sees or you have proofs.
He, who won't be convinced,
unless you justify you're right."

"He, the one who loves coffee.
The guy who fall in love with the music.
The person who's a fan of a novel.
That kind of person you
don't want to argue with.
The guy who thinks practicality a lot."

"To the guy always makes me feel pretty
You who always compliment me
Every single tick of the clock.
The person who put those
butterflies in my stomach."

To you who made my heart beat faster,
each and everyday.
The guy who motivates me.
And the one who made me realize.
Freijah Sel Yna Jan 2018
I swear I tried,
For once in a lifetime
For once in my last time.

I tried to give life,
to the those who want
to took away my life.

I reach for the light,
The light which i know
tries to lead me right.

While i'm drowning,
Trying too hard
to avoid sinking.

Trying to save them,
And carry all
their burdens.

Heavier, everyday it's
Getting harder and harder
To get back to the shore.

It's getting darker
Colder, as I slowly sink
In my own deep thoughts.

Screaming and crying,
grieving without
Anyone knowing.

All I hear is silence,
So deafening.
So lonely.

'Til when will I be sinking?
How long should I be in here?

I'm tired. Tired enough to let go
Tired enough to hold my breath more

I just want to end this all,
To let it all and scream
all the pain inside.

To finally take my rest
from this lonely life

To finally reach the
Bottom of this heart.
Freijah Sel Yna Aug 2018
Life might be too ******* us, as we always think. We always complain for the things we have to face and overcome, for the dissatisfaction and the things we can't always have. But, I guess it's just trying to teach us something important. I've just realize that the easier things to achieve the complicated our life might be. You see, if we will never learn how to push ourselves, to get out of our comfort zone, to make sacrifice, to believe and have faith or to do something we thought we can't but we did, we will never learn the value of something. It might be the value of someone to us, the value of their efforts, the things they do to get wherever they are right now, the importance of time we have while we're living or simply the value of life.

We will never learn how to be stronger, to be wiser. We might never have the chance of meeting the better version of us if everything was easy. And most importantly, if everything will be easy for us to get then everything will also be easy to be taken away from us. Life wants us to grow and learn every single time it throws us challenges or opportunity rather. An opportunity to extend ourselves and learn  or think more out of the box.

Be brave, be kind and always look forward to the good things. We never lose. If you made it, it will be an achievement and if you fail, consider it as a lesson that you have learned along the process. Sometimes we just need to learn things in a hard way, we will never fully understand the ways of life. But whatever it is, it's always about the choice that we make today that will lead us to where we will be tomorrow.

The most important lesson that I have learned is "The best part of learning is not when we are being taught, instead it is when we start to discover"

And wow, just like that, look how growth finally say hi to me.
Freijah Sel Yna Mar 2018
It might be selfish at a time. But he's mine.

I don't want anyone else getting the same butterflies when he smiles or says my name. I don't want anyone else making him blush or calling him babe. I don't care if it's baby, love or dear. Whatever it is, stay away.

I might being paranoid but you'll feel the same thing after experiencing being left and not be chosen more than many times just for another girl. I don't want anyone else getting the same attention he gives to me or those sweet coated words he says just for me.

It's been few years since the last time I feel in love. Can't even remember the feeling since pain covers it all. And I met him. It wasn't easy, I can say. Not even for him. Loving a deeply broken woman. You know how hard it is. We've been through a lot of changes and everything.

You don't know all the pain, heartbreaks, jealousy and even the deepest cut you could imagine a heart can bare just to save this love. Just to win his heart and keep him.

And I worked hard, VERY HARD for whatever we have right now. Risk, sacrifices, pain, tears, sleepless night, devastation, hopeless times and still I wear a smile. And only the world can tell what's battle I've been through.

But every time he's near he brings peace, serenity, calmness, hope, love and home to my heart. He's like an silent angel who saves me and let me see things my bare eyes couldn't those times I was drown with the false thought of love. Let me fall down and grow wiser and stronger.

So to anyone who's coming to test our love. And try to take him from me. Let me tell you one thing. I already died several times just to protect this love. And I won't let ANYONE, not even you, him or her to put even the smallest scratch to this love.

Call me selfish and crazy, but he's mine. And only mine!
Freijah Sel Yna Aug 2018
In silence I found myself screaming,
hands shaking and my heart's pounding.
It is more than pain, more than emotions
that kills me inside. I knew this will happen.

After everything I've been through
I thought I already understand.
Things that I know will never happen,
thing I should have accepted years ago.

I'm in pain. So much pain that it hurts
more than words, more than tears
and more than anything my voiceless
heart could ever feel. It cuts deep.

It was me who wanted to see those,
It was me who wished for it.
But why does it feels like I poked
at my own heart. Why?

I have  watched how the sun set and
leave the day to let the moon rise at night.
The burn it leaves to its body and
letting the cold night heals them.

I've seen it so many times that
I already lost my count.
Many times and in may ways,
I know I shouldn't have done it.

I shouldn't wish for the sweet young
moon to meet the burning sun.
Where in the first place they weren't
supposed to cross their path.

I shouldn't let the moon see how
the sun's shines brightly without her.
I shouldn't make her feel she's
not needed for him to burn.

Maybe I should have accepted
how ironic the real world is.
That it makes one of them set
to let the other one rise.

How hard it is to see that it needs to
die beautifully to let the other
rise brightly. And so to the other one
for them to continue to live.

Maybe that's how playful the
universe is. That it makes them
need one another but fated to
never meet in their parallel world.

Maybe it's time to accept the fact
and end my wishful thoughts
that one day or one night, the world
will realize that they were fated together.

For it will never happen,
for it shouldn't have happened.
I should have known what they are,
should have seen what they're not.

So close and yet so far.
So close to reach their hands
but so far to embrace their arms.
Freijah Sel Yna Jun 2018
When the sun starts to rise
and my eyes began to bright.
There's always one thing I pray
for everyday of my life.
For you to be safe
and always be happy.
To always discover something new and never be blue.
Hope you find this sweet
and let it be a reminder to you.
How happy I am
knowing everyday of my life,
my love grows deeper with you. Iloveyou
Freijah Sel Yna Feb 2018
Take my hand and

take me somewhere else.

Take me anywhere 'coz

I won't care where.

What only matters to me

is I'm with you.

Knowing I might get lost,

but my hand was taken by you.
#Love #Calm #Faith #trust
Freijah Sel Yna Jan 2018
"My love look at us,
what took us apart
was the same thing
that keep us in touch."
Freijah Sel Yna Feb 2018
Too far yet too close.
I see you standing here next to me,
but my heart wasn't able to reach you.

The gap that keeps us apart,
the invisible walls in between us
Feeds the agony of longing.

But it'll never be enough
for my heart to give up,
though the pain is intolerable.

I will keep reaching,
'coz I know it is worth risking.
Than to surrender my love.

My love that gives more than enough
To survive this fate of love
Freijah Sel Yna Mar 2018
One day I woke up by the brightness of the sun on my face. I slowly opened my eyes and looked at the window.

I watched the clouds above moving peacefully with the wind gently swaying the leaves from an old tree and listened to the birds singing happily.

A soothing peace flows inside me. Slowly and gently. Then I close my eyes and took a deep breath. As I turned around and opened my eyes. The next thing I know was you.

Shines brighter than the sun. Sleeps peaceful than the clouds. Laying like an angel next to me.
Your arms around me and feeling the warmth of your body.

I feel safe. I feel loved. The tenderness and
gentleness of your love. It feels home to me.
And when I touched your face, my heart can't help it but to raise. And make a crystal clear drop of joy from my eyes with a sweet smile on my lips.

Then I realize how really blessed I am to have you in my life. You as my partner. You accepted me just the way I am. You showed me how beautiful life can be. You made me better than who I used to be. You never fail me. You effortlessly make me fall in love with you this deep. Your sweet gestures that makes me fall head over heels, over and over again. How you always compliment me and show me how much you love me. And for being a man of his words that something I really adore about you. Your deep personality that makes me want to know you even more until today.

It's wonderful how years ago, I don't even know this face and now I can't even spare a second without thinking about you my dear.

It all flashed back to me how we met, how we started as a stranger to friends and now we're here. How amazing that we got this far. It's just.. there's been a lot of things happened and the world even tried to bend us and took us apart. But we're here.. still here. Standing tall, looking forward, holding hands, keeping our faith together and never letting go.

You said we might just fell in love at the wrong time and place, but you never said that the person was wrong. So let me just wait for that right time.

To my only love, let me hold your hand and let me promise you one thing. This will be forever, sealed with a promise of a true love and a sincere heart.

You're the one I want to be with forever, the one I always want to be with whenever I think about the future. The one who I want to take care of me, the only man I want to be there to hold me and love me in good times or even in bad times. I'm always by your side my dear, I will be forever yours. No matter what, You will always be part of me. Always and forever in my heart. I love you ❤
#Love #Peace #Serenity
Freijah Sel Yna May 2018
Freedom of hearts,
magic of time.
Playing with us,
blinding with dust.
Teasing our love,
dancing with flame.
The rhythm was right,
there's no one to blame.
I'll stay with faith,
tho the world would hate.
Above in the sky,
I know my eyes won't cry.
The stars would cheer
and shines so bright.
There's no place for fear,
I know I should fight.
Reaching your hands,
hearing you laugh.
Looking to those eyes,
my heart beats fast.
Sunset at dawn, stars at day.
I'll always be here,
no matter what may.
How ironic a love could be.
In a bittersweet taste of it.
Freijah Sel Yna Jul 2018
Enough with these games,
enough with those lies.
I've done enough my whole life,
I've been patient enough to
listen with your excuses.

I can see them all, the truth,
the fact and the reality of everything
So stop those sweet excuses
and apologetic eyes you always do.

Let me do this at least now,
something you cannot do for me.
Let me save myself from this
torture that slowly killing my soul.

Let me make you feel how careless,
and how insensitive your heart is.
That you let it close while
your eyes are wide opened.

Let me make you put in this place,
where my mouth keep shutted to
protect you. For you not to get hurt
even in return it will be me who will suffer.

Feel the every inch of the pain
that flows inside my veins.
The unbearable agony of waiting
and the tears I keep forever holding.

This nightmare which I believe
a dream for a long time.
That I forgot I wasn't even sleeping
So i was dying....
#Love #Lies #Tired #Stop
Freijah Sel Yna Feb 2018
Your eyes, your nose
those pouty lips of yours.
As I run my finger to your hair,
touching your face to you chest.
Listening to the heart of yours beating.
Falling for every part of you and within.
In every single day of my life
I was still wishing and hoping.
To feel something again,
to feel something I've lost and
forgotten since then.

And now holding you closely,
giving a lot of weird feelings to me.
The eagerness to hug you when I saw you,
contradicted by the feelings
"Is this right that I am here with you?"
But my heart speaks louder than before,
So I choose to stay and hold your
hands tight like it's forever.

I don't care if I have no time,
If times ticking and I have to go now.
All I know is you are now here with me
The perfect place I always want to be.
And that special someone I'm longing to be with.
There is so much thing I want to say,
but for now let me hug you,
just give me time and  let me kiss you, softly.

Let the world stops the time for a second
while we are enjoying the sweetest
moments of ours. I don't want you to let go
or even just to see you go.
I just want you here beside me,
Coz if ever you never knew it baby..

You're the only person who always complete me. I love you, endlessly. As I promise, it will always be you and only you, who will have this heart. Who will complete this part. I Love You!
Freijah Sel Yna Oct 2018
She looks so deep,
deep as the dark blue sky full of stars,
shining in the middle of the night.

They were burning,
crystal clear like a diamond,
glimmering and trying to touch your heart.

"I felt the cold yet I feel more warm.
In the middle of the night,
I know I fell asleep in your arm."

She speaks freely, like how the universe
speaks to me. And she knows every language,
and always say them beautifully.

Oh how can you be so lucky,
free falling to a star, dust free.
Wishing to someone like a dear fairy.

I hope you see how wide her world is,
how you could lost track of time in it.
I hope you see how beautiful she is.

How she live to lighten them up
everytime the world began to darken.
And how bright her fragile heart is.

There is a whole galaxy inside her,
lots of world rotating in her
and lots of things surrounding her.

But she always love how people
get excited about the stars.
How they admire her, she felt appreciated.

Even in a million star shining above,
you can find her shining
brightest than the other.

Because of her heart is pure,
and she can loves you with a promise.
Promise of forerver love in her heart.

Know that no matter how far you are,
she will always be with you. There
Up above, shining brightly and watching you.
Freijah Sel Yna Apr 2018
"How could you possibly and honestly believe of something you know a lie the whole time?"

"It was real my dear, everything was real"

"yeah sure, except that I was the only one in your heart. The only one who touches your heart. The only one who kisses those lips and hugs you. Except the fact that you're happy not just with me but also with somebody. That I am not the only one who fell asleep into those arms. The only one you hug. That I am the only one who's beautiful in your eyes. That I am the only that you love. The one you share your happiness with and the one your having the same thought"

He was speechless.

"Yeah, I know."

"Sorry"

"Lair"
Look what you made me do.
Freijah Sel Yna Jul 2018
I've been holding back the tears
For years and trying to be strong
enough to hold this for so long.

Try to smile and understand
every situation just not to disturb
and cause any trouble to anyone.

And then that night I burst into tears
for I cannot hold it anymore,
and then he asked worriedly..

"Why are you crying?"

I keep on crying and crying,
heavily, I barely breath, then all I can say is,
"I don't know if you do understand me"

My tone sounds begging
for him to finally understand me,
the pain he unconsciously putting on me

And then he answered,

"Babe, I do understand you,
I just don't know what to do"

Now I don't know which
hurts me more,

The thought of he does not
actually understand the pain
that I am going through,

Or the fact that he knows
about it but doesn't care that much
that left him nothing to do
How much pain and hope would you sacrifice for something you love so much that you give out yourself too much?
Freijah Sel Yna May 2018
You know
how much it hurts?

It's whenever I see sweet
couples and happy
relationship,
and all I see
is you with her.

Never felt even just
for once that it
would be us.

'Coz it's simply
CANNOT. BE. US. NEVER.
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It hurts too much that it kills me everyday that it made me die slowly.

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