Dear earth when I told you I liked her more, I wasn't kidding

Dear earth, time stopped  whenever I saw her.

Dear earth, tell her if I could go back and change everything I would

Dear earth, the pain is real, the pain is so much real I can't even breathe this words out

Dear earth, your so strong and patient, I wish I could be like you

Dear earth, they say wisdom comes with age, mine came with pain

Dear earth, I would have loved to love my father

Dear earth, what happened to heaven on earth. All i see is hell on earth

Dear earth, am melting into lava

Dear earth, you've swallowed kings and the mighty, be gentle with me

Dear earth, am still holding onto this dear fragile life

Dear earth, why is this poem so empty

Dear earth,say something

Eventually the pain will go away

And you'll still have a shot at surviving

When the line between right and wrong becomes blur

When she's the reason you suffocate

When heaven is a little farther and hell a little closer

When poets stop writing and their inks clot with sorrow

When fear turns into rage

When your soul is turned into  ashes and you know your fate is certain

When silence is all that exists

When you cannot distinguish
between love and hate.

When curse taints the saints

When you can see my tears in the rain

When you realise she's not the angel you were after but the demon you've been running from

When your in the dark for so long,light feels like an illusion

When you still cling to the way things were instead of letting them be what they are

Time is life

don't waste yours

19 hours
That's how long am awake
for 19 hours I have to keep my sanity intact

Sometimes I wish i existed during Adams time
a time when you didn't have to pay for fruit
or water
or basically pay for your own existence

Life is sour nowadays
things are tougher
people grieve because they exist

have *** with everyone else cause you can't take it anymore
take a couple of pills cause your too tired to fight
look for a rope to hang yourself
or maybe just jump from a bridge

This is how we grieve
this is how we handle our problems

When am stressed beyond repair
i lie down
close my eyes
imagine am at an island
alone and free
walking naked, and I don't care about anything

*but then I open my eyes and its 19 hours all over again

There's light at the end of the tunnel
This is what you've been taught
This is what you hope for
This is your wish

Wish
Wishes don't came true
this is just a fairy tale
No huntsman to save you
Never was a Superman
No Arthur to pardon you

Your sins are your own
Your vessel to wear
your skin
they feed on you
Define you
Leach on your soul

You opened the gates of hell
now the devil is upon you
not us
Upon you

So you turn back to God with shame
but he wouldn't talk to you
you seek more
Weep more
You hope for mercy
You wish for heaven
but heaven!

Heaven is already gone

Heaven doesn't exist
Heaven didn't exist
heaven was never here
you opened the gates of hell
now you wish for heaven
but wishes!
Wishes are just fairy tales
There never here
they were never here

Silence
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beep

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Electrocardiography

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Echoes



Beeping, beep...beeeep

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Beep
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Cancer *****,I know
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what if you had a week to live

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Would you make the most of it








What would you do

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Beep



beep



Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep










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Haters! stay away


This is what I told myself
just to feel better
you know, like i matter
that's all that i ever wanted
to Matter

Being that guy
the guy who knew why x =y
better than nothing else

I just wanted you all
to know me
cause i have been holding onto heaven
but what's the use of holding onto something
you'll never have

I wish I could skip some pages of my memories
reminiscing most of unwanted thoughts
feels like all of my life
i have been waking up on the wrong side of bed

Life is full of commas,
at-least mine is.
am not complaining
i don't wanna question God
he wrote this one for me

I never told nobody
the things that go around me
i was afraid to be pushed
i was afraid to fall down

All alone with my worst fears
feeling the echoes of my thoughts
i need someone or something to hold on to
i needed to be told
everything is going to be okay

Lord make me a rainbow
ive suffered
and got myself addicted to things
the truth hurts
i have let my heart fall

My future is soo bright
but my past so ugly
i just want to correct it all
but it all still hunts me
am locked in this chambers

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*secluded in my thoughts of fears

Let me tell you something you don't know
or maybe you do

Earth  is a place of many wonders
You meet people with the worst immorals
girls lose virginity
crooks are born
gangs formed
and president's
well I don't know much about that

Now am on to something!
pay attention

Very determined to wear a 'piece' of cloth
**** doesn't begin to describe you
the world has lured you
now you  feel like immortal

Getting wasted
vomiting on the pavement
club fights
one night stands in the alley

Your father cannot begin to digest that you drink
go to a night club
or even not the child he raised to be a saint







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*The exuberance of youth leaves very little room for boredom

You chose a high life
and we paid for every dollar
it didn't matter if we crawled in the mad
your joy was our price to pay

Over the years i tried to love
or maybe just reason with you
but you were already in too deep
a life without bottle, is no life for you*









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If i could write a poem
i would
if i could express my lowest points
i would
if i could tell you how much i love life
i would
if i could tell you why death is always hanging on my shoulders
i would
if only my happiness could be better than my sadness
i would!

If i could tell you the burden of religions
i would
if i could break from the chains that suffocate me
i would
if i could rid off voices in my head
i would
if you could understand the pains of my sufferings
you would
if my words could speak for my silence
it would

I never believed in fairy tales
Maybe I should
everybody ends up happily ever after

What about now
What about, if you made me all that I was meant to be
Can we see beyond the scars
What about love
what about if it never went away

You were my favorite mistake
you might say you love me,
but you don't love me like you say
second chances,they don't ever matter,
people never change

Your tears turned into rage
us,was a beautiful struggle
sufferings,never got us through the tough
a woman once told me;
your Judas
One day, you will open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears.

It's about time i appreciate
appreciate things
things that i do have
the ones i don't,and
and the love i get

Don't touch my gold,you know I dont like it
penning about life the way i like it

I sympathize with hoes,and drug addicts
Forced by the lords to circulate it
Even though, they don't matter, they still dislike it
Victims of circumstances where's humanity
We cry blood as tears but nobody gets it

You strive for gold,but can never have it
You beg for storms with low spirits
Why cling to the unknown and be a *******
I know, it's impossible to escape sadists
I feel for you that's why I wrote this
When love was blessed and that's it

Call me a smoker
If you can read my poetry and get high on it
Call me the messenger
If you believe my poetry is talking to you
Call me a rapper
if you can create lyrics out of me
Call me a preacher
If you believe my Scriptures made you believe in God once more
Call me a taker
if you read my poetry a thousand times from different beings

Call me a pretender
If my poetry is just one of those many fictions you've read
call me a killer
if my poetry made you lose hope in love
call me a stranger
if you don't know me but we can still cling
call me a liar
if you just hate me and my poetry
call me a sister
if my poetry lived in one of your moments

Call me an executioner
if I told you that "bitter" truth you always knew but escaped
Call me a brother
if you know deep inside we are one
call me ?
If I showed you who Romeo is
Call me diary
if you read my poetry and remembered that you were here once upon a time

Call me a stalker
if my poetry is always talking about your ex
call me a friend
If my poetry told you that you love him/her very much and that's the scary part
call me a believer
if my poetry said something about judgment day
Call me a poet
if you believe am getting better at expressing myself,your world and the moment

If your reading this right now and you believe poetry is what brought us together.*call me Carter