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Amanda Kay Burke Sep 2018
Though you have me aswoon
I feel to you burdensome
Afraid that by the next full moon
A hindrance is what I will become

My hands are heavy, head is hung
Ego has severely shrunk
I know that in your eyes I appear young
That's why my confidence sunk

Compared to you I am immature
Always angry, blowing up
It is not your fault I'm insecure
So I get why you're contemplating a break-up

From now on I will get up earlier
Try to be more like you
If you promise you'll stay forever
I will do whatever you want me to
I could be anything you like
Amanda Kay Burke Sep 2018
I have thought about it for awhile
And don't care what other people say
I want to be part of yout life
This might be the only way

Don't see you as the bad guy
Not mad or angry, just hurt
Even though I know it's wrong
I think "**** he looks **** in that shirt"

Feel the electricity in the air
Can tell you feel the familiar thrill
Is the alcohol to blame?
Or do you truly love me still?

We reach at the same time to touch
Holding your hand just seems so right
I wish that I did not have to let go
Wish I could stay the rest of the night

When I have to say goodbye
It's hard to pull away and leave
I long to remain in your arms forever
It feels better than I dare to believe

Then you lean down to kiss me
It is bliss. It's too perfect to be real
I had almost forgotten how wonderful
Your lips could taste and feel

I know that you're drunk and it's late
I'm hoping that you feel the spark
And I am hoping my mouth will remind you
Of those nights we spent in the dark

Thank you for making me complete again
Giving me your love to borrow
Even if it is just for right now
I will not regret it tomorrow
Tonight I'm gonna love you like there's no tomorrow
Amanda Kay Burke Sep 2018
You are the author
To your life's story. You are
The one with the pen.
If you want your life story to be magnificent then begin by realizing you are the author, and that every day is a new page
Amanda Kay Burke Sep 2018
Words are echoing throughout my bones
A steel casing around each one
You stung me with your poison, now I can't breathe on my own
Windpipe broken, damage to lungs done.

Pain through every tissue fiber seeps
Anguish flooding narrow veins
Insults scratch so very deep
Consume thoughts within my brain.

Anger and frustration take over
Recognizing lack of determination
Hurtful attacks make me move slower
Lose any remaining motivation.

To be honest I do not care as much
Present in body, not in mind
It is truly unfair for me to tightly clutch
Fading love I'm unable to leave behind.
Why do I put us through this?
Amanda Kay Burke Sep 2018
Everyone tells me to let you go
It does no good to remain in the past
It's hard to leave behind the only thing
I believed could ever last
Don't live in the past
Amanda Kay Burke Sep 2018
Think I understand more than you give me credit for
Faces constantly changing, where is the one I adore?
Hands and heart try to hold you in the same place
Make you warm again, your fire I cannot replace
Hunger you selfishly follow around
Has you chasing heated urges, areas unfound
Hear you talk but never speak
The shivers say unspoken needs so weak
I love when you need my protection
You hate it, build a wall to guard imperfection
Abruptly attempting to cover up flaws
Our bodies fail, your effort has earned applause
It is too early to end the show you started
But beauty can be discovered in what's departed
I'd attempt one last time to say farewell if I were you
In cold weather lose words to feelings so blue
Locked in the past by mistakes you keep making
They've added up, now you're broken, aching
Time will repair, but can never rewind
Find strength to leave beloved memories behind
Your body may be a ****** battleground
Don't have to hide it when it's just me around
Wonder if you hide from my sight or your own
I dream of glimpsing the guilt and shame unknown
We both harbor a large reserve of regrets
Not totally hating eachother as good as it gets
Which one of us will come to our senses first?
I gave you my best, you treated me the worst
Like many others have done
You made me cry, used me for your fun
The thought of letting you do it again
Makes my blood cold as I write with my pen
Frozen, alone, you haven't moved, you won't try
Still in the exact spot I left you in, explain why
Leaving embarrassing defeats behind in the past
Is your only hope for a change that will last
Underneath layers of denial lurks hidden sin
Evidence laid out like a map on your skin
I offer a different path but you decline
On a bed of risky routine you'd rather recline
Perfect lips yet your words don't sound right anymore
Try to shut my ears but some itches I can't ignore
Vivid colors surrounding are not as vibrant now
My heart still hopes we'll end up together somehow
Each moment without our souls intertwined
Has been nothing but dark, your absence leaves me blind
Pain touches each and every emotion I feel
Beginning to realize some injuries don't heal
My heart cut open, love bleeding out
Want to believe, instead filled with doubt
The longer we linger, drag this on
Worse it will feel when we realize it's gone
I'm chasing laughter, stalked by fear
Running after closeness that no longer lives here
All the wrongs you hid so desperately from me
Too late to reverse and do things differently
Shut me out of your life when the only thing I ever wanted
Was to be next to you facing demons you alone confronted.
I may not be able to solve all your problems but I can promise you won't have to face them alone
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