"undoable" poems
The excerpt below is from an interview Philip Roth gave to Daniel Sandstrom, the cultural editor at Svenska Dagbladet, for publication in Swedish translation in that newspaper, and in its original English in the Book Review of the New York Times (March 1, 2014).
It was laid out in normal article (paragraph) form, but I chose to re-present here, line by line, sentence by sentence, for it struck me as I first read it, as a prose poem, and a source of inspiration for me. But then I realized, I could not improve upon his words, just risk diminishing them.
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“The struggle with writing is over” is a recent quote. Could you describe that struggle, and also, tell us something about your life now when you are not writing?
Everybody has a hard job.
All real work is hard.
My work happened also to be undoable.
Morning after morning for 50 years,
I faced the next page
defenseless and unprepared.
Writing for me was a feat of self-preservation.
If I did not do it, I would die.
So I did it.
Obstinacy, not talent, saved my life.
It was also my good luck that
happiness didn’t matter to me
and I had no compassion for myself.
Though why such a task
should have fallen to me I have no idea.
Maybe writing protected me
against even worse menace.
Now?
Now I am a bird sprung from a cage
instead of (to reverse Kafka’s famous conundrum)
a bird in search of a cage.
The horror of being caged has lost its thrill.
It is now truly a great relief,
something close to a sublime experience,
to have nothing more
to worry about than death.
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http://www.nytimes.com/2014/03/16/books/review/my-life-as-a-writer.html?_r=0
Mar 6, 2014
Mar 6, 2014 at 12:18 PM UTC
It was like a voice
It told me to wake up,
Get up and get away from the ground.
This is not the place.
This is not the way.
It told me you are not insane,
You have so much to play.
We all get discouraged from time to time
We always have people saying it can't done.
Creating interjections like impossible! and undoable!
That voice woke me up,
It shook me out and tore me down.
That voice has sung me to sleep
and has screamed at me obscenities.
But that voice and that voice alone
has made me, me.
That's why I love her.
She is my symphony, my scene, my hands,
But most of all she is my voice.
Aug 3, 2011
Aug 3, 2011 at 9:18 PM UTC
Is it indubitably unsuitable
to be suitably incommunicable
on the undeducible deduction
dubitably deduced
to be immovably unmovable
or doably undoable?
Or can a crazy conundrum communicate
the incommunicable indubitabilty
of the undeducibly suitable deduction?
Simply said,
such is doably suitable,
or indubitably deducible
if the doably communicable deduction
deduces down
to the suitably suitable,
Movably reducible reduction
that's indubitably doable.
Nov 30, 2015
Nov 30, 2015 at 8:29 AM UTC
Seeking the unseekable,
Falling up,
Melting into solid,
Cloning the uncloneable,
Finding the unfindable,
Doing the undoable,
Living while dead,
I have been impossible.
Sep 9, 2015
Sep 9, 2015 at 7:54 PM UTC
Even the pipilikas maybe
kept an ear to the ground
and heard the men on earth’s
news of the year: it works!
Pfizer-BioNTech jab is out.
Finally the Covid-19
vaccine is on our hand
life hopefully will soon be normal!
Along with everyone else me too
is absolutely over the moon
yet something I can’t forget.
Like how that came months ago
on 27 Ramadan 2020 in London.
I was still in sleep in the morning
in a dream but turned out to be real
indeed touched by lovely safest hands
promptly vaccinated me there and then.
Know not how that could key out
off the safe the trillion dollar vaccine at first!
All I know when that hands of love tie a knot
it becomes the undoable perfect circle.
Nov 19, 2020
Nov 19, 2020 at 4:13 PM UTC
God I love you
your truth and lies
I wish I could **** you
looking in your inky I's
Yet alas, it's undoable
But I'll touch you
manipulate you
bite you
and even though you can be
cruel, you are my tool.
Please never ever ever
ever ever
leave me
Nov 13, 2012
Nov 13, 2012 at 3:42 AM UTC
They're not undoable
but they are reversible
if you stop and realize
that braille on your skin
meant for the blind
cannot be read
by those who cannot feel
shouting at deaf ears
will only rob you
of your voice
and drown out anyone
who cares
There is no way
to take away
inflicted pain with more
Mar 1, 2014
Mar 1, 2014 at 8:12 AM UTC
second chances
third chances
fourth chances
renewed trusts
replenished damaged belief
pride and prejudice
hurt and sadness
fifth chances...
making up
making out
waking up half ashamed
walking out half naked
walking off the emptiest night of your lives
forcing a smile
pretending to be fine
pretending to be fine
pretending to be fine
pretending to be fine
lying
knuckling under
lying
falling behind
pretending to believe each other
trustfalls
with
a
harness
trust
falling
apart
trust broken forever.
sixth chances...
tears-----
weeping-----
sobbing-----
gnashing of teeth-----
staring into the mirror blankly at 3am
crying yourself up until 9
glass shard pressed smoothly
against your wrist
total darkness...
undoable sadness...
uncurable brokenness...
unsatiable...
irrevocable...
irreversible...
-------seventh chances
pain.
------eighth chances
cries.
------ninth chances
lies.
-------tenth chances
more 'last' goodbyes.
et cetera
Jun 7, 2018
Jun 7, 2018 at 6:31 PM UTC
the girl who stood tall had flowers in her hair
she was made of glass
like pure water that refracted iridescent rays
an arch where butterflies danced around
green-eyed creatures clawed
at her precious skin
she was different you see
and it seemed a sin to be
noticeable were
thin lines formed on her torso
and rays now warped and dull
a broken bridge where butterflies danced no more
people paid no heed because she still was whole
relentless rain fell on her fragile skin
as her erratic heart pumped
alongside scattered pitter-patters
that matched the static in her mind
as night left and day arrived
the sun seemed to scorch her frozen form
but the fire was futile in sculpting her
into the crystal-clear glass she used to be
glass beads fell from her lifeless eyes
dissipating as they hit concrete
like the rain drops she'd struggled to save
and her sockets seemed hollowed
she was akin to a worn-out chapel window
that heard selfish prayers echoing within
frosted face, hands chipped in the corners and a weak heart
cracks that could be mistaken as arteries branched throughout her body
it was no surprise when she crumbled from their touch
into jagged forms sharper than broken porcelain vases
the pieces that bounced off the floors played poignant melodies
her screams were finally heard
it was too late when the pieces no longer fit
as bright lights devoured her
within the irretrievable mess were crimson rays
and reflections broken and shaggard
she dug deeper into their skin as they tried to fix her
deeper into their veins and scraping their vessels from within
with the realisation of deeds undoable
they shall beg for their hearts to stop
for the girl made of glass now lay with flowers in her hair
and butterflies dancing over her
but she no longer stands tall.
Nov 27, 2013
Nov 27, 2013 at 10:40 AM UTC
Sometimes is easy to guess about others feelings,
But at same point,
It's become undoable'
To know exactly'
What you are feeling!
By: Nida Mahmoed.
Jun 22, 2016
Jun 22, 2016 at 3:41 PM UTC
So often he attempts
to change words
he has said.
Words that he says later
do not mean
what they convey
There will never be
enough blotters, or erasers
or black markers to cover all
that he would amend
or alter if possible
A secret disclosed
once redacted
becomes evidence
that he desires his words
to remain unconfirmed
A secret is a secret
only if concealed,
totally hidden
and never unearthed
Redaction is an action
to revoke or nullify
words and actions that
may or may not be undoable
Jul 23, 2019
Jul 23, 2019 at 5:23 PM UTC
Deep deep down there, in between the desire
and the urge to become the heir,
is a state of trepidation
as what is at stake is your reputation.
Where feeling is of a very diminutive form
And to ye affluence is the first most prior.
Ultimately you shall undergo penitence.
The sorrow , the misery for which you are responsible.
Your heart was, for instance,
Allowed to misuse your soul which wasn't advisable.
Alas, leave it there itself, for
it is undoable and irrevocable.
Jul 8, 2015
Jul 8, 2015 at 8:36 AM UTC
One drink wakes it in me –
the reckless storm that ignites in my belly
and spread to my head,
my chest.
Run.
I issue an evacuation order for myself –
a hurricane of stillness gathers on the horizon,
pack a bag and go.
Leave everything you don’t need behind.
Your job –
you’ve always gotten another.
Your home –
you’ve always gotten another.
Your love –
you know you love another.
Everything is undoable,
transit is safety, movement is comfort
stasis is death.
Plastic bags dragged into your throat.
***** water rising in the basement.
Go.
Before you’re too old,
before the cement dries,
wipe it off.
Two drinks crumble it in me –
the recklessness becomes hopelessness.
I’m so tired.
I am sandbags;
heavy, full, put up to weather the storm.
I couldn’t go if I tried.
Heaped on a beach and the water is rising.
Sep 2, 2018
Sep 2, 2018 at 1:21 PM UTC
Lets get over the stupid **** about God and the Devil
Satan is the serpent power
originating at the base of the spine, this is primal power corresponding to the id
With out Satan you would be dead
This power regulates primal autonomic excretory and ****** functions, ie. survival and supports the higher activities of the body mind and soul
corresponding to the ego and super ego, your God
The ego is and integrative mechanism that stands between Id and the super ego ie Devil or Id and God or the super ego
The id is the original primal survival mechanism and true will not to be ignored or denied
The light is born of the darkness and is born-less
The darkness is eternal and the light is everywhere within her
The super ego is discernment ...principal ....reason...ethics and ideation's of mythic heroes , not to be ignored or denied
In religion aspects of the higher self are personified as a Christ, Buddha, Krishna etc when God takes human form
and the Devil is personified as Satan, Asuras Beelzebub Demons or various miscreants in human form
If Christians adhered strictly to total purity they would have to insist on castrations and analectomies to purge their so called evil elements and die because surviving with out the lower is undoable
conversely the Satanists would require lobotomies or being guillotined because living without essential principals is indoable
God and the Devil are not mutually exclusive except when they're viewed through the maw of religion...God and the Devil are different sides of the very same coin
In the royal yoga of the the east when the serpent power ascends up the spinal column the id, ego and super ego are instantaneously integrated and transcended into an all together different order and the fractured nature of self is over come by unity
This unity transcends all myth and concepts of god ie. religion ethics morality
It is a totally transcendent order..
In western terms as a human you stand between the the higher and the lower
Spiritual evolution is not about taking sides its about the integration towards a whole self
You are potentially the magician who mobilizes the lower to serve the higher
This may be an over simplification but
you use your demons to create a base ...they are work slaves to get money so you can go to your temple, your home...the higher self in effect and reflect on the beauty of life
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CAN WE **** NOW :)
Sep 26, 2017
Sep 26, 2017 at 3:08 PM UTC
Childish dreams with skid marks behind them displaying the halt that almost caused a crash
Lucid beliefs with undoable task
**** that reflection reminding us were growing old
More sticks on the fire to warm a heart that's growing cold
A soul in a body, a body holding a mind
A removal of love, desperately seeking rewind
Displayed as a crime, I shattered the glass
All heroes fall then turn to ash
Aug 30, 2015
Aug 30, 2015 at 2:07 AM UTC
Oh wishing well, they say you can give anything
So, I beg of you once again, give me someone to give this diamond ring
Someone to light up my day
Someone who makes me laugh at everything they say
Oh wishing well, this is our third year together, and my prayers remain unanswered
All this time, in serious conversation without banter.
This man is soon to go insane,
For the lack of love is his life's bane
Oh wishing well, your bright waters begin to darken
When we first met, you were so bright I was so certain
That you could help me find "the one"
And yet, after all this time, we have found none
Oh wishing well, your waters are no longer the reflection
Of a boy who hoped of a soon fulfilled need
Now you show me a man consumed by depression
Neck tied to a rope, performing the undoable deed
Jul 12, 2016
Jul 12, 2016 at 10:48 AM UTC
unboard the windows
there is an expensive moment to come
when you finally figure out
the undoable has been done
never fleeting, never free
pay and pay but never repay
hope he was more than your hedberg ******
leading you on to childless and spinster
going going gone
all along you got it so wrong
dystopia ringing your doorbell daily
another package from amazon
****** censorship for all
aren't we all our own black swan
May 10, 2020
May 10, 2020 at 9:26 AM UTC
Deat Lord,
I know we say too much of the little some people are trying to do when we should be trying to do so much about the little we have done...help us!
Dear Lord
Though I too haven't done much about the some of the little things
I have to do, I know if I put in some work and go according to your
plan and your will, I too will begin to do little instead of talking much...help me!
May the intangibles becomes tangibles and may success become my new address accordingly. May manna pour down upon me and everyone else in times of little and may it pour exceedingly...help us!
Dear Lord
May my vile utterances to not have devasting consequences.
May my misguided friends and relatives become people of purpose and direction.May my entourages be well-meaning people...
help me!
Dear Lord
Help me to give those in need.Help me to forgive those who betrayed in my hustle and put my bread on their personal tables instead of mines.Help those who believe others to stop doing that right now...help us!
Dear Lord
My kids I present to you to be in thy care.May Ivan jr not only drive a new van but bless him abundantly that he'll be able to buy anything in this world.Bless Peter to be more like Ivan and bless Sarah too to be more like both of them.Help her dear Lord to be that lawyer she wishes to become..protect and bless them always and forever...help me!
Dear Lord,
As I lay my head to sleep, may the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in thy sight... moreover, may I set foot on the right path and continue until I find gold before I become too old...help me!
Dear Lord
As I wake up from my bed tomorrow, may the challenges of tomorrow that lay ahead become my testimony for your glorification.May the impossible become possible and may whatsoever man deem undoable become doable...help me!
©️IB-Poetry
2/27/2018
Feb 26, 2018
Feb 26, 2018 at 11:05 PM UTC
pain is a permanent marker
unremovable like coffee stains on carpet
undoable like stomach knots
unalterable like bad surgery
unwanted tattoos tell the truth
reminder of pain imprints in flesh
indelible ink writing on private parts
ingrained in memory like ***** rings around a tub
surgery scars reveal new skin
entrenched in the brain
pushed to the back of the mind
pain recorded, hidden, collated, undeleted
recycled every 14 days
triggered by foul smell, bad tastes and bitter tea
badly drawn with a pen
pain is a permanent marker
forever and binding
Jun 7, 2020
Jun 7, 2020 at 11:59 AM UTC