"odera" poems
Twists and turns
Life shifts and stuns
Memories we once created
We evade and shun
Heart breaks
Headaches
Bae I'm sorry we reached this side
If only there was an anti clockwise turn
I'll ease your pain
Give you happiness in return
I'm sorry your feelings i hurt
Gave you a reason for you to despise
All the lies
For a while
Felt like by you i was doing right
The tears in your eyes
The anger in your replies
How could i not see how deep you were deprived
I'm sorry that i wasn't enough
All i need is another chance
To prove to you
That I'm the suitable guy
To call your better half
I'll promise to do you right
And with you we'll make solid plans
And fascinating memories
That would surely last
For a life time to come
I'm truly sorry baby girl
Akwana Wa Odera
@the_real_akwana
© 2019
Jan 10, 2019
Jan 10, 2019 at 2:19 AM UTC
I can't run away
My fears just got to where i stay
I've always pictured my safe haven
A simple place where my head could lay
Only to realize it was nothing close to heaven
This place i craved
Found out it wasn't safe no more
As my fears lay await
Pretty little fears
Waiting to scare my self
Someone once said
Earth without art is just eh!
Reason i picture beauty in pain
My fears
As harsh as they may be
They are still pretty to me
For the real struggle is within
Tarnishing them would just expose
An uglier struggling side of me
One i would never want the world to see
So every time I'm scared
And fail to conquer my fears
I join them in tears
My pretty little fears
Akwana Wa Odera
@the_real_akwana
© 2019
Jan 9, 2019
Jan 9, 2019 at 5:11 AM UTC
'Lady's first'
My favorite catch phrase
Every time we walking together
And want to see her *** move all together
A beauty in bold letters
Still contemplating on which font's better.
With comparisons to none
She's always left me in awe
Just how...,
How could she have existed
This carefully drawn
And beautifully presented piece of art,
To which I've withdrawn
My resistance
And let her capture my heart.
'This my destination'
She says with hesitation
'My hug...?'
She turns
And smiles
I can never deny
She gets me hypnotized
As I disappear in her eyes
It's like they sparkle
Releasing a thousand fragments
Of light
Confusing me on which
Is the most bright
This new high
She takes me
Beyond normal level heights
With which i get deep within
My new favorite drug
My dopamine.
'Hun?'
She brings me back
And hug her tight
Whispering in her ear
'I love you back'
Akwana Wa Odera
@the_real_akwana
© 2019
Mar 26, 2019
Mar 26, 2019 at 2:45 PM UTC
Hold my hand right
The sentiments I've felt
Could easily flip a moving ship
To subside
The many decisions i was meant to decide
So many fallouts that resulted from incites
To be in light
I was referred to the word
A sheet full of write
And verses to recite
But with each complete chapter
I didn't get my longing desires
So if roses are red
Does that mean those
With the pigment red
Are the better species?
For violets it's true
Reason i scold the clouds
Just to witness the sky
Lining in blue
Lilies are white
Never heard them spread that word
But still daisies are my favorite
With characters of simplicity
With elegance
A perfect representation of me
Akwana Wa Odera
@the_real_akwana
© 2019
Mar 22, 2019
Mar 22, 2019 at 4:17 AM UTC
I think Kenyan politics like love is blind
And we are just visually impaired beggars
Waiting to be given crumbs and the leftovers
As the true 'nation owners'
Share the bigger pie, with greed and 'honor'
I get sick every time i get to watch this sequel
With too much unending repetition
Impersonation
Individualization
With despots ruling the nation.
We've totally failed as a people
Always ready to criticize
But never determined to see through
Always ready to fight
When it's us with huge dues
Protecting our own
When it's them that get huge!
Someone told me to vote to eradicate
The rot
That through my vote
Maybe there will be change in the lot
And the true will get afloat
But I'll have to disappoint,
In a system this rogue
To vote i will not!
No need to confront
Let me express the systems faults.
Politicians fighting for supremacy
The bigwigs protecting there lame legacy
Whilst people in the north are hunger stricken
And the system blames the weather for its wickedness
Corruption levels are beyond explanations
With money for development disappearing in the boardrooms
Leaving unemployed Youths struggling to bet on their livelihoods
In a system this rogue
To vote i will note
When the main agenda in Kenyan shows
Is politics
And who will get to be the kingpin of all
When the Chinese are taking over our plots
Leaving Kenyans at their mercies with no hope
When it's huge loans that are borrowed
But no track record or development to show
And that's just a piece
Of the iceberg that we've crushed in
Breaking the system to bits
The system is sick
But again we are blind
And not even struggling to see
I wonder what miracles we'll need
Just to put the system to speed
But still
In a system so rogue
To vote i will not!
Akwana Wa Odera
@the_real_akwana
© 2019
Apr 3, 2019
Apr 3, 2019 at 3:08 AM UTC
I met a cousins i hadn't met in years
Changed over time,
I couldn't recognize his clanly features
With a 'hi', long time no see' intro
I played along just to get to know him more
Apparently we hadn't met for nearly
Ten years or so
No wonder i couldn't recognize him
When he called
I think he realized i had no clue
On what conversation we were on
But it wasn't my fault though
Or is it...?
He rarely travels home
Times have really passed
I envy those of us who came first
Taking a trip down memory lane
I miss when i was a kid
Back when i knew all my cousins by name
It's a shame
Right now if asked
I would only manage to name but a handful of them
Then give a bunch of excuses so lame
Of how i have no idea of where some even stay
Times have really changed
I looked around and all i see
Are cut tree stems
I contemplate if it's because
I'm now grown up
Or it's us not playing our card right
If i were to put tabs in how many times
We met chat and laughed
I'll be drunk by now
If my bet went for functions and funerals
Funny how we pretend to care
When we are never even there
I'm told we need a cause to share
We've all gone the wrong way i swear!
Akwana Wa Odera
@the_real_akwana
© 2018
Jan 7, 2019
Jan 7, 2019 at 1:50 PM UTC
She came home
Still in her school outfits
She hugged me tight
With tears rolling down her eyes
She was filled with fright
'it happened so fast,
' This is all i have'
She mumbled as she cried
Apparently there had been a strike
Students burnt down the dormitories
And refused to attend class
The teachers to afraid
Were out of sight
The police had to intervene
Causing a clash
With rubber bullets, mallets
And tear gas
The police squashed and beat
The students hard
With stones, sticks and any tangible object that could be held
The students retaliated
Just to **** off the armed blue men
Thumping of boots
Shouting and screams
Bullets fling
There was circus in school
The students were sent home
Suppressed without giving
Them a chance to talk
A conflict resolved
With no interest in the
Root cause
Two nights are long
Another school catches
Fire
The dormitories are down
Then you'll here them ask
Where have we gone wrong?
Akwana Wa Odera
@the_real_akwana
© 2018
Jan 8, 2019
Jan 8, 2019 at 8:41 AM UTC
I'm i a poet
I ask myself
Or i just write
To express something
I've felt?
We so many of late
Poets i ment
Many I've met
Some their pieces
I've read
Some are lost
Others left
But within this space
I fail to categorize
My place.
I'm i a poet
I ask myself
Of late my pieces
Have been of feelings
And fate
But isn't that what poets
Do when writing their specs?
Expressing their desires
And the mixed emotions
They have felt
Maybe a cry for help
Or a struggle to defeat
They intend...
But still in this space
I fail to categorize
My place.
I'm i a poet
I ask myself
I heard poets use
Metaphors and
Similes just
To hide their say
Or rhetoric questions
Leaving their readers
Mouth agape
With thoughts at standstill
Wondering what they ment
But still in this space
I fail to categorize
My place.
Maybe I'm a poet
But I'm done asking
Myself
I know i write my thoughts
And my says
My feelings too
Tho at times
I put them at bay
The happenings of yesterday
And what the world
Has shown me today,
So maybe I'm a poet
Or an invention
I've created for myself
Reason in this space
I won't categorize
My place.
Akwana Wa Odera
@the_real_akwana
© 2019
Feb 23, 2019
Feb 23, 2019 at 2:45 AM UTC
Kick start I push myself to start Blink twice Draw the curtains aside Like golden spears Penetrating my windows I let the sunlight Hit my eyes Just to acknowledge the fact That it's already dawn I need to wake up And feel the earth Just to appreciate That I'm feeling alive. The chirping of the birds A natural melody That never get hyped The smell of fresh dung The dew on the grass Shining, in sparkling light As the sun rays hit the ground The morning cold Making me shiver a bit As i try to see through The fading fog The the white rising smoke Of burning firewood From neighbour's kitchens The laughing and energetic Sounds of little children As mothers prepare Some something to feed them The sizzling sounds Of steaming kettles The scrubbing and rubbing Of yesterday's utensils The smell of cooking breakfast The day has started The whole village's a woken I yawn and smile Its just another day In my village town. Akwana Wa Odera @the_real_akwana © 2019
Apr 2, 2019
Apr 2, 2019 at 4:54 AM UTC
I start sweating
My breath mild and heavy
My hands shaking, My palms sweaty
I'm not steady, Feeling dizzy
I'm getting uneasy, I'm going crazy
I get a panic attack for having a panic attack
At controlling myself i ****
Whatever I'm holding i tightly clutch
It's going to be a bumpy ride
My whole body starts trembling like a raging tide
I stealthily try controlling myself as i check my side
I panic again fearing them seeing me trying to hide
I'm all wet soaked in sweat and frightened like a child
I'm losing my breath my temperature is rising up
I loosen my cloths and between my friends i try to widen the gap
I try convincing myself to stand up
I cant look up
I try to loosen up
I feel a tear in my eye
I'm hurting but i have to lie
I force myself to calm down
Gulp air and breath in out a few times
Quickly wipe of the tear
Smile and pretend to be in cheers
When deep inside I'm filled with tears
A grown up full of fears
Fears if the demons within me
Fear of the me inside me
Tears from the pain i can't explain
What i face everyday they can never withstand
What i go through they will never understand
I have Anxiety! A disorder you've never had(heard)
Akwana Wa Odera
@the_real_akwana
© 2018
Jan 7, 2019
Jan 7, 2019 at 1:46 PM UTC
As happy as a king
They say...
In my own rights
It can be a thing too
You know,
Me being a king
On my own seat
With raised feet
A king in my own sense
With no pleasure to rule
The world
A king of my own place
I do and please my wants
A king not for fame
But just me being the same
A king with taste
I mean music art and chess
One with a humble face
A racing heart and
A curious reasoning mind
A king of my own kind
A king with a sound mind
A king of me
The king is me
Akwana Wa Odera
@the_real_akwana
© 2018
Jan 8, 2019
Jan 8, 2019 at 8:44 AM UTC
You are lucky
To have what
You don't deserve
Too slow to act
In a flick of time
You lose what you had
It's sad
But it's life
We judge with no facts
Agreeing with unsigned
Packs
I wonder what in this
Society we lack
Living in a dilemma
Life never fails to criticize
We are brought up on lies
Sometimes i wonder why
They lecture us when
We eat fries
You don't have to light the
Whole room to be bright
The firefly has it's own light
But has never lit up
The darkest night
Out of sight
Out of mind
When i get lost in my head
I close my eyes
I'm told all my wrongs
Are documented in a file
I've been lowkey for a while
Will i ever put on a suit and a tie
Send me a confidant
I need to express my pain
And the number of times i cry
I never tire looking up
In the sky
Just mesmerized by how birds
Spread their wings and glide
With a tap on the ground
It's lifted ready to fly
Breath and stay calm
It will all be alright...
I tell myself just to relax
In attempts to make my stand
On this world.
Akwana Wa Odera
@the_real_akwana
© 2018
Jan 7, 2019
Jan 7, 2019 at 1:46 PM UTC
Get her by the waist
And hit it from the back
Real quick
She blows me up
Sit her down
Feel her ****
She pants and cries
Pushing her pants
To the side
I slide in my ****
And **** her hard.
She moans, she screams
My back she scratches
I pin her to the ground
With more intense
I swing and pound
With slapping sounds
Like my ***** might crack
She calls out my name
Begging for me to stop
And not stop.
I can feel the pleasure
But it's not time yet
I pull out from her center
And eat her as she folds my face
She then goes on top
And i swear i can't remember
The rest...!
Akwana Wa Odera
@the_real_akwana
© 2018
Feb 18, 2019
Feb 18, 2019 at 12:51 PM UTC
Sometimes i just want to be alone
Not because i despise you
But because i get so low
And wouldn't want to affect you
The other day you said i love you less
That I'm getting bored like a slow game of chess
If only you knew you are the reason i resonate
Refuse to waste
Away as my thoughts distain
It's you that rekindles my flame
On those days that I'm so cold and pale
You Crack me out of my shell
And love me until all my pain
Dissolves and fade away
How can i ever love you less
When it's only you in this world
I try my very best just to impress?
Akwana Wa Odera
@the_real_akwana
© 2019
Apr 2, 2019
Apr 2, 2019 at 1:23 AM UTC
In this life you either
The hunter or the hunted
There's no in between
You either survive
Or fade away
Curious how he managed
To be perfect in his creation
One gets to camouflage and
Get a way
My grand ma always said
This world is never safe
The food chain is always set
You are either at the top
Or at the bottom with your
Already sealed fate
Life is just but a game of cards
Play them right
Maybe you'll live to see
Another day's light
Adjusting like a bandwidth
maneuver through the night
Hidden in plain sight
Only seen when it's right
One wrong move
You'll regret for the rest of your life
Play your cards wrong
And you cease to be known
Everybody fighting for titles
Armed to the teeth
This fight is fatal
To make them listen
You can never use gentle
I wonder what will be left
When the dust settles
I fail to differentiate between
Whispers and the whistling of
Steaming kettles
Stop anticipating for a third world war
We are already fighting with questions
This world was never my haven
Being safe is not an option
Akwana Wa Odera
@the_real_akwana
© 2018
Jan 9, 2019
Jan 9, 2019 at 6:20 AM UTC
Felt like dying today
I've just been surviving these days
But still anxious to see what
Tomorrow holds
As the day unfolds
I fail to understand my course
How i wish i was a rose
Just to know how it feels
To be adored sand loved
Even if it's just for a while
Even though the rose often wilts
It once felt wanted at least
I envy the molds and yeast
Always ****** and despised
But had a fair share
On crumbs of wheat
Sometimes i just sit
Painfully staring at my wrist
I want to, but fear
To let them bleed out
I am a misfit
The piece of ****
My life is a cliffs
How do i shift
When I'm always blocked by reefs
I'm holding on to a small leaf
My position is at a balance
I fear i might fall deep
Never to see the surface again
Akwana Wa Odera
@the_real_akwana
© 2018
Jan 8, 2019
Jan 8, 2019 at 10:22 AM UTC
All my life,
I've been one who listens
Listening to their tales
Of achievements and heartfelts
Their laughter and cries
Of life and it's heartbreaks
Of the weather changes
From clouds to scorching sun rays.
So i think,
To me too they should listen
Of the over flowing thoughts
And these compilated images.
As they speak, i listen
When i write
Will they read them?
These stories in my head
Made of characters
I tend to invent.
Short stories with intent
Long stories of how i pretend
****
Maybe i should not
They'll never relate
Our life's experiences
Maybe will never be the same
So i hold in my breath
As my shaky hands reflect
Of my torments intense
And my heartbeats quick race
Mmmh,
You don't want me telling
About my face
It's already covered in sweat
The expressions it portrays
I'm already betrayed.
How do i even try to
Explain my self
When I'm already panicking
With unrest
With my mouth agape
Fumbling with words to say
I'm choking, my throat is tight
With words stuck in my chest
I look to the right
Then steal glances to my left
Hoping they never get to notice
How I'm struggling
To cover my mess
All i wanted was them to listen
To the many tales in my head
But how do i start
When there's nothing to say!
Akwana Wa Odera
@the_real_akwana
© 2019
Mar 6, 2019
Mar 6, 2019 at 4:32 AM UTC
All my life
My urges have been controlled by lust
You could say i was a player if you must
But it's my private affairs,
No need to put it out
But then i met this girl
Talking of love at first sight
Shining so bright
In my heart she was the light
Some say they had their hearts captured
In a box and threw away the key,
Mine was a different thing
She brought her own lock
And i swear i never saw the key!
I was hypnotized
I'm told love is blind
For real i couldn't see
It's like a dream dreamt with no sleep
She was the anchor to my ship
Docked far away at sea
All i saw or heard was she
I was blown away
Like pollen grains,
During pollination,
I glided through the air
With no intentions of touching down
Her voice... **** that sound
Charming sweet
Ravishing through my ears
Like that pleasant soft jazz music
Every time she speaks
Or calls out my name
With her I'm insane
But its ok
Because she's a type of perfect
I'd rather go crazy for
Her body features
Always up to date
No need for updates or body fixtures
A beauty only seen in pictures
Petite tall with hips curved
How could she not be loved?
This girl i met
Sad it was all in my head!
Akwana Wa Odera
@the_real_akwana
© 2018
Jan 9, 2019
Jan 9, 2019 at 6:21 AM UTC