you see there are problems in the world, but having patrick dunbar and greame thornes
previous life pattern, in my buddha cycle, like having thoughts of going out feeling like kids were playing games
with you, first of all, they will plant all these rats and feral cats and angry dogs, attempting to attack you
at every turn, and also back then when my place was messy, there were rats and dogs just walking in my
parents laundry, and it made me have problems cleaning my house, and i wondered why we saw rats and feral cats
and my cat muscles was also turning feral and i wanted to calm him down, and i started having my hooligans visions
coming when i went out, when i saw kids laughing or screaming in a drain in wanniassa, and this made me feel bad
i told the messiah about it, and he hated it as well, thinking, someone put the kids down there, and then i heard my
mate patrick, say, i am not mucking with the crazy person, because i was getting his clean mind giving me all sorts of delusions
making me feel, he was poisoning my mind with all these delusions like, muscles is the dingo that killed azaria, you see
i was battling my delusions, ya know, having a hard time, with a mate who hated what rupert murdoch was doing to this world
and i was wanting foxtel, but i seriously couldn’t afford, because rupert murdoch had the prices go too high, and when i had
foxtel, i remember i was in dilusion land, ya know, thinking i was getting a private jet to fly to the USA, to volunteer at a major league baseball match
and another thing too, i felt i was given USA TV, because, my delusions were putting the AFL, on the sunday night, and there was
a USAFL match, on there as well, and, i was having a great time doing volunteer work on the street, at the footy, i loved that, and i did
volunteer work at vinnies, i liked that, and i liked playing santa claus too, but i don’t do that now, i picked up all this ******* outside kingsley’s
and i got honoured for that, and i helped cook the meals at the rainbow, i loved that, but nowadays they turned it into a course, and i liked the
idea of giving the mentally ill people a good meal, and i worked at the softball field, in the 2003 masters games, and i cleared tables as well
as other jobs to do around there, i also worked at the kanga cup soccer, but i hated the last day, when they made us do crowd control, not my forte
and because my house was messy, my parents just went mmmm mmmmmm mmmmm, and this drove me crazy, i don’t want to miss out on opportunities
just because my house is untidy, i tried and cleaned my house, the best as i could, but i was hearing voices, you must help here, you must help there
you must help everywhere, the men will talk to me, if i helped people, and i loved when a man said to to me, your doing a good job, mate, and i liked
when men said, keeping busy, mate, and when i said yes, they said good, good, and when i said hello to dad, dad just did a sigh old hi, saying, i was only
like him if i cleaned my house, and yes, i know it’s important to clean my house, so i have a cleaner come Monday mornings, but, i wish there were opportunities
out there, where i can show off my novels to important people, i don’t want any cats anymore, one reason, i can’t look after a cat very well, and i could see lots of
rats and mice in my flat, and i am scared of rats and mice, because of the disease factor, and animals to me, i find, could send me to the psych ward
i know cleaning my house is important, and getting rid of rodents, is a way to clean, you see, lately i say, i got to help the poor, every time i see a poor man
give him money, cause i am not a rich *****, and i am not, and i spend money to try and give me things, i like computers, i was using the computer as a place
to display all my previous life and current life anger, but dad looked at my stories, as not very nice, but i was expressing where my anger is coming from
i want to have novels written and ideas pushed over to television, now i don’t want a cat anymore, or a dog or a mouse or a rat, i prefer to keep myself from
buying any sort of animal, because every time i am asked to do something,like take care of a cat, i go crazy, and i get cranky, cause i haven’t got a perfect life
because my parents have twisted m thoughts around in my head, if i had someone to live with, or moved to another city, with the same services, i will feel good
about myself, because i would still get the cleaning done as well have carers and i need a job, i need a job, i want to show people how to write their problems out of them
i hate being treated like a girl from bay watch, getting kidnapped by old good mates because they fucken agree with parents ruling over their kids and i don’t
because i am going to get what i want and i am not aiming too high,my stories are good enough and even this story, please leave me alone, i want the perfect life
i crave the perfect life, and as long as i don’t buy a cat, i am fine
