"fundraisers" poems
People are janitors.
We try to keep our lives clean,
but it always goes back to ruins.
We try to clean up the lives of others,
Only to find that we can't do anything.
And that we probably hurt them.
And that we probably messed their lives and ours.
We try to clean our hearts.
It's broken. It's shattered.
It's muddy after a day outside, playing in a storm of tears.
Yet, we always fail, don't we?
Thinking that maybe tomorrow is the day it washes itself.
We try to clean the world.
This organization promises cleanliness in Africa.
That organization promises cleanliness in Asia.
But is any cleaning really done?
For every ten fundraisers started, I hear one semi-succeed in its job.
Yet, we believe that we can clean the world.
It's true, we could.
But we're too busy cleaning our own hearts, aren't we?
Mar 25, 2014
Mar 25, 2014 at 12:50 AM UTC
Red faced and wasted
I saw you naked
And fell in love
With your ancient body
Gone is the impulse to run
And all i can do now
Is to write simply
Lies and truth
Mixed together
Like oil and vinegar
We are fumigating
Our own bodies
Remove these carbon copies
And quietly daydream
About the faces of lost
Summer lovers
Fundraisers say goodbye
To yesterday's vacations
Just as we long to cry
We catch ourselves
Smiling for a moment
What do the turtles wish to communicate
Are we awake in our shells
Or have we fallen into the spell of limitation
Consternation and ************
Facts and figures receive their adulation
While we attract only tender triangulations
Please finish up your investigation
I blame you for instigating this comedy
A catalyst of abomination and dichotomy
Which followed me into retirement
Let's give banquets back to the government
And return to ancient lands
Devoted to camels and drunken apologies
It's apocryphal
Pornographic phantasmagoria
Fantastic fan-fictions
Describing sacredly sadistic rituals
Glorious duality
Radically alters our expectations
Yet manages to satisfy your frustrations
In dissimilar situations
We liberate our agitation and consternation
Over magazines and barnacles
We are more conspicuous
Than an empty gap in the sky
Made by two constellations
Taking a long vacation
Intrepid sailors raise their sails
And navigate by stars and compasses
Renaissance dancers are porous instigators
They initiate our imitations
We dream of political sovereignty
To remediate these tragedies
I breathe warfare and cleanse the air
Of apathetic non-negotiaters
Harboring criminals like butterflies
Sometimes the means do justify your eyes
Targets never argue
And bullets never lie
Finances and fiancées
Certainly have some value
Yet we underrate our skies
Miles of lost continents
Drift out from your skin
We begin an embargo
Hoping in the future we will win
Metaphysical furniture
Effects the state of mind you're in
The record players turned down
But you heat me up to begin
May 24, 2019
May 24, 2019 at 4:05 PM UTC
A year has passed.
I couldn't feel it though, because all that time was spent with you.
A year full of
long drives for short vacations
intimate hugs full of sweet sensation
wind blowing our hair on snowy mountaintops
chilling in minimarts, enjoying some lollipops
staring into each others eyes, and feeling serene
joining fundraisers and runs to keep the earth clean
We sailed through troubles
Chased after our dreams
Drove ourselves further
And flew to the skies, touching the clouds and riding the jetstreams.
Before I met you, I did all these things many, many times.
But with you, we did these things together.
And they felt different. Every step, every move, every breath.
I felt electricity in my veins, a new light to see in, and freshness in my life.
And that was the difference that kept our unity.
I love you.
Happy anniversary.
Jun 16, 2014
Jun 16, 2014 at 2:16 AM UTC
We are hands,
and eyes,
and feet, and ears,
lumps of skin,
and bone.
We are puddles of blood
filling the cracks
on the side of the road.
We are mush,
and porcelain teeth
knocked out and embedded
where the steering wheel used to be.
We are hearts, and veins,
arteries clogged up
with a midnight treat.
We are alcohol in the blood stream.
We are 60 miles per hour,
on a residential street.
We are a corpse,
Limbs thrown out like a compass,
Guts spilled out like a teenage poet.
But what we are not,
Is a soul.
We are objects,
We are play things.
For higher species,
Godly beings.
To smile like kids crashing toy cars.
We are empty,
We are just vessels in a blood stream,
Giving life .
We are white noise, screaming for our mothers.
We are a name in a notepad.
A statistic in a book,
Passed out at clever Christian fundraisers,
For old ladies who like sugar cookies.
We are a pop punk song
With memorable lyrics
And a catchy hook .
-Kevin T. 6/16/10
Apr 5, 2011
Apr 5, 2011 at 5:01 PM UTC
My textbooks, propped between our knees,
I study how this became
our hot dates and the way I get to lean
on your chest makes me tingly,
shallow-breathed,
but I shift around
so you don’t feel my heart bumping in
between the stillness
of our bodies.
—stillness—
We lay in the same bed and actually sleep;
no squeezing fingers and searching
mouths, but at least our clothes stay on
and I don’t have to search for my nightgown
shoved under wrinkled
sheets, or worry
about ****** wrappers
stuck to my skin.
Finished with our club meetings
and fundraisers, we act like weekend
warriors, clinking bottles in half-lit
rooms, sliding around, laughing
in each other’s faces
and once we’ve smoked our stress
away, I place your hand
under the ruffles of my skirt and kiss
your neck, whispering
I want you
Please touch me
I need you
but you put your lips
to my forehead, mumbling
that you’re tired and won’t keep it up
because you’re strung out
on Red Bull and Adderall, promising
we will tomorrow night.
Mar 10, 2015
Mar 10, 2015 at 4:46 PM UTC
Colorful glowing rainbows,
Sparkling gleaming rivers that flow.
A powerful mighty god that knows.
Miles of green grass that grows.
Front & back yards to mow.
Fierce strong hurricanes that blow.
Pure white cold falling snow.
A set of ten fingers & toes.
Birthday gifts wrapped with bows.
A Bright yellow sun that glows.
I drove to a hidden cove.
Off a cliff a seagull dove.
A pelican layed down on green cloves.
Loud noise I truly loath.
At the beach I am fully clothed.
My mind in a daze because of your confusing ways, a temporary phase.
Your intentions a haze.
I follow you through this maze.
Long hot nights & summer days.
Crowds of people in a craze.
Money is what fundraisers try to raise.
Jan 11, 2015
Jan 11, 2015 at 12:28 AM UTC
In lieu of abortion,
why don't women sell
the babies to the
church to auction off
at fundraisers..?
Feb 19, 2019
Feb 19, 2019 at 8:53 AM UTC
468 days till I'm out of this place
468 days till I graduate
468 days till I'm out of this space
468 days till I escape
This place that brought me rules to follow
This place that brought me expectations to exceed
This place that brought me wishes to fulfill
This place that brought me dreams to give up
This place that consistently tells me that I must act prim and proper
This place that consistently tells me that I must have perfect grades
This place that consistently tells me that I must be involved in activities
This place that consistently tells me that I must stand out
Stand out
Stand out but not in bad way
Let your voice be heard, but don’t speak too loud
Show your curves, but not too much because that degrades you
Be smart, but don’t be nerdy, dorky or quirky
This place that brought me tests every other week
This place that brought me heartaches and headaches
This place that brought me back stabs and betrayal
This place that brought me all nighters to makeup for my lazy group mates
This place that consistently tells me that I must not ***** up
This place that consistently tells me that I must not waste my time
This place that consistently tells me that I must not have too much fun
This place that consistently tells me that I must not have infatuations
Infatuation
Infatuation is just an observation with a cost
Love your friends but don’t get too close
Have hobbies but don’t waste too much time doing them instead of studying
Befriend everyone but not with any guys
This place that brought me tears
This place that brought me fears
This place that brought me cries
This place that brought me lies
But i might miss this
468 days till im going to miss this place
468 days till i graduate
468 days till i miss this space
468 days till i miss this place i underrate
This place that brought me inside jokes and goofy smiles
This place that brought me song lyrics and theater performances
This place that brought me fundraisers and field trips
This place that brought me late night conversations on calls
This place that constantly reassures me that I am not useless
This place that constantly reassures me that I am not what others define me as
This place that constantly reassures me that I am not unworthy of what i tried so hard to achieve
This place that constantly reassures me that I am doing well for someone who’s only seventeen
Seventeen
Seventeen might be too young
Too young but i know what i feel is real
All the nights talking about everything about nothing
The birthday gifts we shower each other with
This place that brought me happiness
This place that brought me those brown eyes and freckles on his smile
This place that brought me boys now we call ex
This place that brought me valuable lessons
This place that constantly reassures me that I don’t need man to be happy
This place that constantly reassures me that I am beautiful no matter what others think
This place that constantly reassures me that I will be alright
This place that constantly reassures me that I will be ready for when I leave
Leave
All we ever talk about is leaving
Run away, as far away from home
Can’t wait to get out, but soon I would look for every excuse to return
Just wanna run away but keep coming back to this place
This place
This place that brought me memories
This place that brought me laughter and joy
This place that brought me friends and love
No other place like this
Mar 19, 2020
Mar 19, 2020 at 11:49 AM UTC
The moment i realize you're gone, is the moment I die.
More correctly, the person I was dies.
Because who I was with you, was something entirely different than I ever was.
When you left, she was put at a stand still.
Waiting.
But as soon as she knows we're through?
She'll be gone.
Sure, I could meet someone else but they will never be the same as her.
She was something I can't describe.
She was a best friend.
She and I got very close but now,
I can't do anything to save her.
I'm watching her die in front of me,
Very painfully.
Very Slowly.
All she says is,
"Be strong. Be strong.
You can do this.
Smile through it.
I love you..
I always did..
He always did."
And I just have to look down and
Be strong.
And
Smile.
And say I love you too.
And say,
But I don't believe you.
That person will die..
And I will have to bury her.
Then I will grieve.
Then I will move on.
And when I think about her, the person I was with you,
When I think about you.
I'll be a little sad.
But then,
There will be a new me.
A me with no one.
Because this time I'll make me,
And I won't let anyone get close.
I'll travel,
I'll see the stars but from different countries.
I'll look at the horizon from the top of a mountain.
One I climbed,
By myself.
On journeys I took,
By myself.
Because I loved the person I had become.
But losing another person like her will hurt.
Very much.
Plus,
The person you are?
Is the only person,
My person wants.
I may disagree with you sometimes but,
I'd still rather have that,
Than anybody in the world.
Because right now?
It's you,
Or nothing.
I don't want,
Anyone else.
I want you.
So I'll wait.
Waiting with a girl I love,
Me,
As she slowly dies.
No amount of fundraisers
Or spread of awareness can help her.
She and I are waiting,
And waiting...
Waiting to see,
If you will bring her
The medication to save her.
The one drug she needs to save her is something,
Only you can provide.
Yourself.
Nov 9, 2015
Nov 9, 2015 at 7:03 PM UTC
at the border and in cages
it’s the worst
in clouds of smog
it’s the worst
in prisons
it’s the worst
in foster care homes
it’s the worst
at the mall
at factories
at fundraisers for the poor
it’s the worst
at parties
at family gatherings
it’s the worst
at city hall meetings
at schools
at movie theaters
it’s the worst
in the morning
in the afternoon
in the evening
it’s he worst
going to bed
yellow balloons
that’s the best
looking at the starts
smelling food
watching the cow escape the slaughter
that’s the best
sparkling water
a bee pollinating a flower
that’s the best
swatting flies
fresh bed sheets
overcoming suffering
that’s the best
apposing the rich
unpopular opinions
fighting for minorities
that’s the best
vintage finds
forgotten promised
happy thoughts
that’s the best
answers
a still mind
understanding
hatred extinguished
that’s the best
for me.
Jun 20, 2019
Jun 20, 2019 at 11:48 AM UTC
There's a stench in the air
that you can't stop smelling.
We live in squalor with rats
for pets and corpses swelling.
Social workers come round
to count living and dead
and promise more help but
just give us maggot bread.
The swells attend fundraisers
in latest styles dressed to ****
feast on caviar and champagne
while my dying child goes still.
Jul 19, 2023
Jul 19, 2023 at 8:31 PM UTC
There's a stench in the air
that you can't stop smelling.
We live in squalor with rats
for pets and corpses bloated.
Social workers come round
to count living and dead
and promise more help but
just give us maggot bread.
The swells attend fundraisers
in latest styles dressed to ****
feast on caviar and champagne
while my dying child goes stiff.
Jul 3, 2021
Jul 3, 2021 at 9:41 PM UTC
i used to hate myself
but i realized how selfish that was
i know what it feels like to have nothing
but have everything
everything but electricity
so my family doesn't have lights
but we keep the 40 or so inch t.v
i go to church
and feel unworthy
i don't know why people like me
i just realized
i beg for attention
even now
talking about me
it's getting kind of tiring
i want to make a difference
but the one thing that stops me
the fact that everybody seems to watch me
the spotlight seems to make me a living target
even my friend started to make fun of me
because of the solos people give me
and it's not my fault
if i could choose
i would only sing at fundraisers
so i'm not getting credit
but i'm not gonna feel bad for my responsibility
so get over it
people expect less of me then i can give
or more than i can offer
so maybe there's a balance
yes i hate the spotlight
no nobody knows
not even my friends or family
know how hi my vocal range goes
because thats not the point
and i know only like 10 people will see this
but i don't wanna seem like this is for the saying
"God bless"
Aug 20, 2014
Aug 20, 2014 at 3:05 PM UTC