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V liv Nov 2018

H-2

Love
Unrequited
Unilateral
One-sided as it breaks me
Leaves you indifferent
Nothing but a nominal fling
Nothing but a means to an end
A backup
A rebound
For you:
Friend turned
Less than
For me:
Friend turned
Everything.
Ironic

#love #end #broken #fling #friends #onesided #unrequited #rebound #hurt

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H- 1

Where did I go wrong
Where did you go wrong
What did we do wrong
Holding onto the idea
We could be fine
We could fix this
Naive
That word was the beginning to the end
Hope
That was the falsity I never wanted

#love #manipulation #broken #relationship #end #fix #naive #false #hope #mend

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H- A Reflection

Waste of time, tears, and companionship
Creator of my joy
Destroyer of the same
Everything isn't enough
Nothing ever is
Speak of others
Using me to their advantage.
You became worse than them.
Speak of others
Being distant.
You became further than them

No more speak of others
It was you
Your intention
A plan of your own invention
To manipulate
To play
To leave

#alone #young #love #abandoned #fooled #heart #tricks #sad #advantage #manipulation

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H. A table of contents

I love you                                                                                        I hate you
I miss you                                                                                       Stay away
I need you                                                                                        I'm okay
I crave you                                                                               I am fulfilled
Your smile                                                                               Manipulation
Your laugh                                                                                    Your lies
That voice                                                                                       That yell
Those eyes                                                                              That grimace
Come back                                                                                   Goodbye
Unbreakable                                                                               Inevitable

Just the beginning. I'll never get over it unless I write it all down so here it comes.

#love #broken #left #abandoned #young #stupid #life #bestfriend #lover #manipulation

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How I Feel

Find an outlet
Release your soul

#emotions #outlet #release #soul #letgo #cry #love #smile #sing

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Yearn

Yearning
to be something i'm not
to be someone i'm not
Artistic
what does that mean
does it mean I can articulate my feelings
beautifully
does it mean I can sing
or dance
or rhyme
or cry
or read
or breathe
or love
beautifully?
I don't think I can
how sad
that i'm not artistic
how sad

#artistic #sad #mediocre #trying #notgoodenough #articulate #dance #cry #read #love

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You can bring your friends

What friends?
All I have is myself.
Or a broken shell of her.

#alone #isolation #broken #notthesame #friends #relocation #shell #introvert #extrovert