the metro is a dream machine,
lights pulse through dark windows;
colours stretch, tangle,
till they break, phase, fade out.
those high pitched squeals,
squeaks of wheels, wind tunnel
rush and hum of pushing against time.
gliding underground, electric eel,
growls like a metal dragon,
tail bending around corners,
weaving the bends,
hisses like a snake.
jumping out in the half second
before it exhales to a stop.
Written June 2018
listening out for the catch, through the ordered lines
then running into familiar counter-melodies
that hit the gut like surprise meetings with old friends
pushing against the current
you write the soul’s ebb and flow of discovering
break and breakaway, meet again
figuring it out along the way, slipping back,
humble, soft vulnerability of emitting,
rolling out in music and codes interior landscapes
A poem about how it can feel to listen to Elliott Smith's music and lyrics
An emergency macaroon
on a boulevard, in March,
Because my sugar levels dropping,
mind foggy, dopamine high crashing;
because legs aching; I can’t unknot
the multi-coloured tangles this evening;
because yesterday; because I said yes; because.
Because you never said in so many words.
You say there is cloud cover
with chance of rain, but you know there
will be rain because you have a headache.
You can tell but you can’t say.
Submission for the theme 'distance' for The Menteur Anthology
We drove past it every Thursday;
blank, bleach white walls.
Clean, block rectangular.
There was a garage
and sometimes a black car
in the driveway.
It stood out crowded by cluttered
town houses smothered in ivy,
with long grass, red brick or pebble-dashed.
Glass on the street and supermarket
bags on the path, traffic,
conventionality, routine, and teletext.
But his house stood out.
The closest vision of showbiz style
I could see with all I knew being
he grew up near here,
like me, and that must be it,
the very house where
he would live if still in this city.
Creating a myth to myself
that he was allusive but he was inside.
I’d wind down the car window
listening out for the sound of
his songs in the air,
or watch to see if anybody
opened the door, lights of cameras
in the seconds we pass the junction.
Of course, never saw him
on the Thursdays our car passed by
but knew he was very busy.
Here by the Beat Hotel near
the St Michel in a cafe with wine
I feel the hum turn to sizzle and
sparkle and overfill into my eyes
too much till they are brimming with
hope that could spill onto the table
and my heart is swelling with a
optimism and I feel it spilling
over I worry I will laugh crazy
for no reason but to release
all the glowing light inside which
is feeling far too obvious for everyone
they will think I am drunk but I have only had a sip but this
conversation is several glasses of something of energy of
fermented anger and worries
and anxieties about the world
turned into wine and we
sip the sentences we sip the
sentences and eyes clink glances
in holistic belief and hope it
is so much but you
say we are free we
are freer than this ramekin
which once held peanuts which
we nibbled between drink
and thought and you say you
can’t believe you are talking of
Sartre here and it is cliché
but the words
ripple like a song we know we
forget but when it plays
we forget we forgot and always
know we need to hear it again
we wish we could record the
feeling the sights the words the
way you say the words so
that we are filled with childlike
possibility when life weighs us
to stare at our feet.
Stream of consciousness poem. Written ad hoc/spontaneously after returning back from a bar after having some brilliant conversations with friends and a university tutor about creativity, philosophers and writers. Felt a magical and inspirational moment that I had to record down the exact feelings and thoughts that ran through my head or felt at the moment. These thoughts overlap other thoughts and tried to leave no emotion spared. well I actually didn't think too much about the words when I wrote, just let the words tumble out and forced no punctuation to help that happen. Probably most honest poem I've shown.
(Written 17th March 2017)
I feel hope I am trying to let
my heart sizzle without the
heat getting too high and eyes steam
up like windows condensation I
am not crying I am just happy and
hopeful and everything is beautiful but
if it sizzles too much my body
shakes fidgets I am not crazy I
just love this universe I am
also scared of it all if I sizzle too
much my heart I will my heart
will I will burn out but if I drop
from this high I feel cold and stone
dead numbness which also scares
me when it makes me careless and
not look attentively when crossing the
roads or feel my body hum in a
muted tone hum like a grey
vibration inside barely moving
Written in stream of conscious style. Edited a couple of aspects to poem but other than that it's all pretty much intact as it rolled off my mind from I don't know where on the day. (more info on part I)
(Written 17th March 2017)
symbol of contemporary life
instructions on the side.
simplicity of modern day,
pop stamped symmetrical;
collect them into rows
italian chopped tomatoes
best before date, barcode.
tin can still bites,
like bramble thorns,
to repel against harvest.
boxed up comfortable living
adding edge to expectancy
April 2018 (draft scribbles in 2015)