Close your eyes
feel my skin
your breath on my neck
a third eye kiss

Your fingers
... linger
silky smooth
goosebumps...

Kisses trailing my
twin pleasure
peaked
sensations rising

Your beautiful voice
I close my eyes and hear you say
"baby, hold me"
"don't let me miss your arms"

Your smile
it use to light up
my darkest day
I could only... smile right back

Your love
you're gone
but I remember your love
it will last for all eternity

In the morning light

Happy birds sing their duets

The owl sleeps and dream



A willow tree weeps for rain

The thirsty brown leaves frowning



A thunderous storm

Soaking up the desert sand

Frogs leaping in ponds

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Our the wordless goodbye's
Misery of your silence
My mind screaming loud

lazy day, ponder
memories of you linger
memories fading...

I hear your voice,

Calling my name

I swear, even

During a thunderous storm


I feel your arms

Around me

Keeping me safe

From any harm


I see your face

Only in my dreams

But I swear I know

Your beautiful eyes


Perhaps, the wind itself

Knows how I yearn

For your arms to hold me

And to hear you whisper my name

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There is a darkness
I have known
For longer than
I should have endured

I have not shed too many tears
Today…
Last night,
I cried myself to sleep

I dreamed of your touch,
But in my dream
You faded…
In a clouded dust storm

Forced… to turn away from you…
What – the - hell was I thinking?
I - can - not turn – away
Not – from – you, I cannot bear it

But I did… I finally did
I woke up, I step closer to
The window,
Glorious raindrops falling

My tears dancing
On my cheeks
While I smiled and said,
Goodbye, my love

I carried you
for 9 months
In the safe confines
of my body

I sang to you
I played the classics for you
I read poetry
It was utter excitement

The waiting was torturous
could not wait to see
Your precious face
and touch your little toes

The day, finally arrived
pain, indescribable
Joyous tears
I was to be a new mommy

But here I sit today
remembering...
you didn't cry
But died

I held your lifeless body
my hands shaking
my heart shattered
you were gone

All these years later
On this day
I still remember
Your birthday

I celebrate your soul
for I know
God had better plans
The answers I may never know...

All I know
On this day, 22years later
I still remember how
Time stopped... briefly

R.I.P my little boy, always in my heart.

Your beautiful brown eyes
A window to your soul
I can tell you everything
My mommy, my friend

I know you love me, unconditionally
It is the one certainty
I have always known
Your love for me never questioned

Mommy, you are my anchor
In my happy days
And my darkest days
My mommy, I love you unconditionally

My heart

frozen in snow

the chill of winter

will remain on these lonely days


I remember

our first kiss

your lips

was made for mine


We use to lay

entwined for hours

forgetting that our hearts

was ever broken


Everyone tells me

to let you go

finally, be free

of missing your touch


But they don't know

how I miss you

how much I need you

even though I know, I should not


We have tried

so many times

perhaps,

we didn't give it our all

I have to forget
I have to let go
but your touch
lingers...into the night

My 3am thoughts
In your arms
Your hands searching
Caressing my body

I have to forget
I have to let go
But your touch
...I miss

Desperate kisses
Demanding all of me
I have to let go
but I miss... your touch

I listened to
your tender, loving words
I have observed
your actions... closely

My once happy heart
has turned to stone
In my solitude
My soul accepts all my tears

With my head
in the palm of my aging hands
I live with memories
I will fail to bury

I do not cry
my heartache
bleeds onto pages
I share my words with beautiful souls

I write to feel
I write to bleed
I write to remember
and often to forget

I read your poetry
to feel with you
to reflect with you
and offer my poetic embrace

I think of you
My heart racing
your desperate touch and
passionate kisses

Demanding my touch,
I willingly give to you,
You own my heart
in your arms, I belong

Connected vibes
our souls dancing
our hearts paused
our lips locked

Forever is what we
dream about
Forever
oh, forever... my love

Spinning out of control
all day, baby
from dusk to
a beautiful sunset... my love

I believed you
held on to every word
I will not make the
same mistake again

I cannot live
without you
I cannot crave
without you

Your touch
I will remember
Your tender kisses
I will miss, in my lonely hour

Your eyes
I see your trust
broken and shattered
I know you are hurting

Sad sad eyes
I cry with you
under the moonlight
the brightest stars

Your troubled tears
let me wipe them
A third eye kiss
passion on your dry lips

Rain pouring
no colorful rainbows
baby, let me
hold you through this hurt

Give me your
hand...
running into
the night... passionately

The stars fading now
The moon a dull light
The breeze, icy cold
Time frozen on this darkest night

I smile at the faded
once colorful polaroid
while my tears
splash on my cheeks

Your arms holding me,
The memory keeps
me safe,
for tonight

Midnight laughter
turned to tears
into my pillow
a lonely body, once held

My soul weeps
begging to rest
while my aching heart
confesses to the Gods,

In my slumber...
running in the morning sun,
beautiful butterflies
dancing on petals yellow and pink

A light drizzle
a symphony,
designed for lovers
embracing into a dance

Birds chirping their morning greetings
I wake to a new, bright sunny day
and smile at the beauty around me
turning the pages of a forgotten, dark night...

Picking up the pieces

of the rubble of our love

scattered, rotten

memories of a long time ago


You have broken me

my heart a mozaic

of shiny, broken memories

between the debris


My soul rises

to greet the gaze

of a man that

keeps me safe


I am not afraid to

love with all my heart

my soul searching his,

under a moonlit sky

If this love is a fire

I will burn

I will walk

I will dance this fire dance



Eyes gazing

holding a

a river of emotions

we have been denied for an eternity



The blood burning in my veins

My emerald view, glowing

You look at me, and I know

I will risk my heart, once more

My heart aching

my mind racing

I know you need me

you can't see me


I am here

every step of the way

you are not alone

I hold your hand


you will never walk alone

I don't care how

but you will know

you will feel me...

...right here

I awake in the early hours

birds singing

enjoying their feast

my hands exploring your body


Naked flesh on my fingertips

perfectly dreaming

about your touch

ever abandoned


Sleepy slumber dreaming of you

in loving embrace

interrupted dreams

with morning brew


These are the moments

I look forward to

Until the day you search for

my naked body on your fingertips

Floating on the wind of change
traveling through
all the seasons of the world,
it brings me back to you

A darkness I have known for so long
I sit here and know
that I will never feel again
never love again

I feel everything
I feel nothing
without you
... I am numb

Do you want the sensual,

the confident and the *** appeal?

A woman who knows exactly

what kind of reaction she will illicit?

A woman who knows

her body,

her strengths

and her weaknesses

Who knows her body is aging

every single moment lost

Who knows that without a doubt

she has to up her game.

Days are busy

and all we really want to do

is be comfortable and relax

in oversized T's and no restraint of a bra.

An evening reading and sipping on wine or, an evening

in a glitzy restaurant with crisp white linen,

flutes of champagne

and fine dining.

Some would simply opt

for the cosy

fireplace evenings,

I certainly do!

In a world where time is money,

we often think that

without money spent,

we cannot enjoy an evening.

But it is in my moments of solace

that I reflect and know without a doubt

the cozy evenings are where real emotion

and memories are treasured.

We use to dance

To the rain

The sun

The moon

The stars brightened our dark sky

Shiny whispers of forever

Dawn waves a new day

Reminding me

You will remain

A distant memory

Clouded skies

No colorful rainbows

You are always here
keeping me warm through the night
while I pray for morn'

I sit here and think without a blink

you fill my memories old

my stale tears, stained to grey

the once beautiful now in decay


Our garden in ruins

our bright red roses

petals dry

f

a

l

l

e

n


We have stopped the rain

my emerald green weep

another day

a darker shade of grey

Layers of me, all

around your body

our legs entwined

my breath in your neck


Stroke through me hair

Pull me closer,


Butterfly kisses

Strawberry whispers

and bourbon promises

all through the night


Morning coffee

wearing only your T-shirt

and freshly

squeezed juice

These are the moments I treasure,

whether you remember them

or not


These are my precious moments

When you loved me

before the complications of the day

took over what our hearts

and souls needed

I woke up this morning

with the sun in my view

birds singing a happy greeting

flowers smiling as I tickle their petals with drizzly drops


But my heart is heavy

my tears are flowing

another day

colorful accessories covering my grey memories of you


Driving, as I do every morning

coffee at the office and the usual

small talk

back in my space, alone behind a closed door to the world outside,


allowing my emotions to flow

onto this page

it is the only way

I would cope through this day, my tears frozen, for now

Your stone-cold heart

does not match mine

not like it used to

we are worlds apart now


I made you smile

I made you dance

I made you look forward to the rain

Oh, how we soaked in love


After all, that's said and done

and then some

an emptiness many can see in me

but never really feel

It's been a long time

since we connected

beautiful words, shared

you are my friend



You don't utter unkind

you push me

to a better version of me

your respect for me, I treasure



A man, not mine

but you are in my heart

my soul searched

and found you, my Yusuf, my friend.

I see you through
a reflection I only wish
you could enjoy, raw and beautiful
but this is my view, for now

At first glance, I dare not ask to dance!
Intimidating...
Breaking down your high walls
has been a task, a frustrating challenge

You speak few words,
your time
I have to demand
but demand,  I will

For the man I see, the gentleman in you,
is worth my effort
surely one day, for you to demand
... more time with me

Your gaze will not penetrate
my steel frame, easily
my rusted heart
and olden thoughts
only know cold frozen emotion

My nights are spent with
memories, barely remembered
snippets of forgotten love
and betrayal  

My soul remains a muted
flickering light
of a little hope
and perhaps, love

I still hope
that one day,
love will unlatch
my rusted heart

As the night darkens
lonely heart weeps at stars
the sun smiled brightly

The beats of my heart... still
lovingly embracing
the night sky
ember ebbs to forever


I witness the stars
as they greet
where souls meet
under a galaxy of


loving dreams
of forever

Your acceptance of the inner
most fragile souls
you hardly notice
how you are adored

You have taught me tolerance
to guard my words
you hardly notice
the impact you had in my life

I admire your integrity
and zero tolerance for
disrespect in any form
we connected and remain in our truth

Yes, you are a queen
My brown skin queen, my friend
You hardly notice
the impact you had in my life

My Angela
My beautiful friend
My brown skin queen,
my friend... forever

Wretched memories dance
Afraid to commit my heart
Dreamlessly dazzling

I always have time
to offer a kind word
share some news
sincere advice

It annoys me when I
invest my precious time
and it's not valued
It is the greatest disrespect to me

Do not give me your sugar-coated
words of entertainment
it really does not impress me
be real honey, that is awe-inspiring

You think I care
I do, more than I should - actually
I am independent and strong
I do not need to be your side distraction, honey.

Fading memories

my soul concealing

hurt from my

aching heart



I am soaring

with majestic

angels on a bright red

persian dream



In a dream

where you never leave

In a dream

where you are still holding me



Tranquil sounds...

with every key

it moves me

further away from you



Paralyzed with fear

of forgetting your beautiful face

I know I will always

feel your love

Your mischievous gaze
your dark brown eyes, not as shiny as they should be
tell a very sad tale
straight from your heart

I offered you an
Olive branch...

Being with your broken
soul, whilst trying
to repair my own
was just hurting us more

I see beauty everywhere
a peach blossom
a lonely coffee in
a pretty cafe

The laughter
of a child
a smile
from a beautiful stranger

Lonely nights
the beauty in needing
your smile
just one more time...

Nights
oh, lonely nights
liquid comfort
the classics a backdrop of a scene

Memories of love
memories of you
I do not hide my pain
I feel it

My pain demands that,
I feel
I remember
I cry

The morning sun
a new day
and more memories
of an ancient love

Your hugs
comforts my sadness
You know my pain
my pillar of strength

With you I am safe
no hurt will penetrate my soul
We share so much
the good and bad

You gather my silent tears
and water our pretty garden
We are best friends
we need each other

This is no coincidence
our souls searched
and found the most
precious friendship

You are
a good man
I am
truly blessed to have you in my life

I met a stranger today
whilst picking up a quick lunch
helped me carried my parcels
what a nice gesture, I thought

Reluctantly gave him my number
he nervously asked, "When can I see you again?"
left me speechless, really
he must be at least ten years younger

As the day went on
a few calls
a few texts
and boom

He thinks I am lovely
and loved my pretty blue nails
All I can do is hope
tomorrow, he makes me smile again

I rise to greet the dawn

distracting my heart

I take a sip of dark roast

and exhale

today I will

just breathe

I smile
I laugh often
slowly letting go of the hurt
and pain
you have caused
I have forgiven you
but my poetry...  still
needs me to hurt

just a little longer

This fearless soul, shine
vivid memories of you
detached furious heart