Living through
The darkness
The grief
The loss

It's a way
Of dealing
With all that's
Lost forever

Even though the
Memories won't fade
It's a beautiful thing
To see a rainbow

All the colours
             Smiles
Tender words
             A comforting hug

For the lonely
For the sad
A smile is almost
As beautiful as a rainbow

The morning rainfall

drizzled petals pink and white

the chill in the breeze

morning coffee, woken soul

tiny birds sing a new morn'

I do not cry
my heartache
bleeds onto pages
I share my words with beautiful souls

I write to feel
I write to bleed
I write to remember
and often to forget

I read your poetry
to feel with you
to reflect with you
and offer my poetic embrace

I sit here and think without a blink

you fill my memories old

my stale tears, stained to grey

the once beautiful now in decay


Our garden in ruins

our bright red roses

petals dry

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We have stopped the rain

my emerald green weep

another day

a darker shade of grey

I'm stuck in a
Daydream
Where love does
Exist
Where kindness is
Felt

I'm stuck in a
Daydream
Running on the beach
Into your arms
Watching the amber sunset
Feeling your heartbeat

I'm stuck in a
Daydream
Where your kisses
Are still warm

I'm stuck in a
Daydream
Until the memory, of us
...fades away

We use to dance

To the rain

The sun

The moon

The stars brightened our dark sky

Shiny whispers of forever

Dawn waves a new day

Reminding me

You will remain

A distant memory

Clouded skies

No colorful rainbows

The stars fading now
The moon a dull light
The breeze, icy cold
Time frozen on this darkest night

I smile at the faded
once colorful polaroid
while my tears
splash on my cheeks

Your arms holding me,
The memory keeps
me safe,
for tonight

Midnight laughter
turned to tears
into my pillow
a lonely body, once held

My soul weeps
begging to rest
while my aching heart
confesses to the Gods,

In my slumber...
running in the morning sun,
beautiful butterflies
dancing on petals yellow and pink

A light drizzle
a symphony,
designed for lovers
embracing into a dance

Birds chirping their morning greetings
I wake to a new, bright sunny day
and smile at the beauty around me
turning the pages of a forgotten, dark night...

For a decade or so
I believed that love
wasn't meant for me,
My heart denied any love

I stopped looking
The crushing breathless
scattered emotions
suffocated my will

Determined, I lived
in absolute solace
dreaded the dawn
longing for the moon

Fate, oh FATE

A rollercoaster ride
emotions drowning
My soul
My heart

Fate, oh FATE

On a day when love
and disbelief carried my
fragile heart
I looked into your eyes

An extraordinary moment
Our hearts felt every heartbeat
in our chests
and my soul danced

        ...to a glorious twist of fate

I get a little troubled… often
so close to giving up
tears that
won't turn to happy ones

I know I have
to pick up the
shattered mirror
and keep moving

Being broken isn't graceful
it's a journey
to restore my soul
... from the inside

I smile
I laugh often
slowly letting go of the hurt
and pain
you have caused
I have forgiven you
but my poetry...  still
needs me to hurt

just a little longer

I love you.
With all of me, inside and out
In out, in out.
Deep, shallow-
deep, deeper, buried
in your heart
subsumed in you
by you, for you,
with you.
I love you.

You are my dusk till dawn
to you I am drawn
Your voice plays like an orchestra
I dance to the tone
Of never being alone

You say I love you baby
oh, but I love you too

This is our love
This is ours to keep....

It's been a long time

since we connected

beautiful words, shared

you are my friend



You don't utter unkind

you push me

to a better version of me

your respect for me, I treasure



A man, not mine

but you are in my heart

my soul searched

and found you, my Yusuf, my friend.

Breathing on your skin
your body my canvas
with every brush of
my rosy lips,
the sound of
my voice,
a melody of my
... love
a never ending
... passion
for you ...

It's been years
we hardly talk
it's easier that way
but we remember, every second of the day

Incredible pain
Constant misery
loneliness
our hearts breaking

a million shattered pieces
that could never
be glued back together
we were just not meant to be

In our hearts
we kiss
we touch
we love, till forever

Memories of a

long time ago ... fading slowly

I say goodbye to the sunset

while love

adores me

with a loving morning kiss

Nights
oh, lonely nights
liquid comfort
the classics a backdrop of a scene

Memories of love
memories of you
I do not hide my pain
I feel it

My pain demands that,
I feel
I remember
I cry

The morning sun
a new day
and more memories
of an ancient love

My lips sealed
Crying into my pillow
Eyes wide open
Into the silence of the night
An echo in the distance, faintly heard

I remain...still
My heart shattered
Aching heart
Bruises that won't heal
Finality...Finally

I feel your pain
I cry with you
Just a little
While watching the sunset

Ember ebbs
Into the night
Where hearts are broken
And lovers cry

A new dawn
We renew our souls
To love...
... again, once more

In my lonely hour,
my heart aches for
your touch
your soft whispers

My soul
consoling my broken heart
with memories of
your butterfly kisses

when morning comes
I am lovingly reminded
there is beauty and comfort
in a new day

Your mischievous gaze
your dark brown eyes, not as shiny as they should be
tell a very sad tale
straight from your heart

I offered you an
Olive branch...

Being with your broken
soul, whilst trying
to repair my own
was just hurting us more

I will not love you
I will not give a ****
I will not miss you
but, all I do is think of you

In the midnight hour
I search my heart
Three hours later
... you’re still on my mind

I pray for silence.
While I crave your touch
Your smile
Your voice

I will not love you
I will not give a ****
I will not miss you
but all I do is think of you

Johann Sebastian Bach,
the sounds that clear my mind
a river of memories
... flowing

With every
breath,
filling "Air"
into my soul

The memory of
Your love
Protects me from
More heartache

The memory of
Your hugs
Shields me from
The bitter cold

The memory of
Your smile
Strengthens me for
Another day, without you

A feeling
A spark
A fire
Blazing in the dark

Screaming your name
In the lonely midnight hour
Nothing will ever be the same
Our souls searching in vain

As the day bleeds
Into night
I lose sight
Of all my needs

Heart piercing violin
dull sounds of a piano
vibrating your voice
through my soul
an impulse not
mistaken to be
the drums of my heart
... running

Connected vibes
our souls dancing
our hearts paused
our lips locked

Forever is what we
dream about
Forever
oh, forever... my love

Spinning out of control
all day, baby
from dusk to
a beautiful sunset... my love

Afternoon naps
Blossoms in Spring
Cuddles on the couch
Drives into the countryside (I’ll navigate)
Exploring your body
Forgiving you for being silly
Giving you a love note
Having you by my side
Impressing you with my salsa dance (yeah)
Just holding you
Kissing in the rain (let’s get wet)
Loving you
Morning kisses
Needing more kisses
Oh, you are amazing, AF
Picnics in the park
Q & A’s
Reading poetry together
Sushi platter for two
Tickling your feet
Unlimited conversations with you
Van Gogh paintings
Walking hand in hand
****** midnights with you
Yes, kiss me
Zzzzzzzz’s… sweet dreams my love

I have loved you for years
but our love has been a rollercoaster ride
a battlefield of our souls fighting
our hearts breaking over and over

We both prefer our solace
it hurts less
than for us to be together and
fighting over a love that will remain
                                                              ... a battlefield

Memories of your kiss
Your tender touch
Your intoxicating laughter
The way you say my name

Your high walls
Your solace
Your fears
Your beautifully thin disguise

I am fine
I am ok
...today
I say, as a tear rolls down my delicate skin

Embrace each moment
with tender thoughts and your soul
bleeding heart on page

My emotions

rippling through

scattered memories

liquid pleasures, my comfort


All the questions

that desperately need answers

my pen bleed

for you, tonight

Small steps
Towards what
I needed
To hear

Leaps towards
What I
Wanted to
Feel again

But it
Was the
One step
Backwards, quickly

That saved
Me from
Being hurt
Once again

You ***** your
negative,
disgusting,
... words
oh, the deafening
sound of
absolute bliss

Breaking into a pause mid-breath
your words cut into my memories
before dancing with the rain
across the path in a mirror reflection

Tears cascading down my face
crashing into my heart
my dreams are bound
by only a memory of your touch

I rise to greet the dawn

distracting my heart

I take a sip of dark roast

and exhale

today I will

just breathe

You find a way to
sneak in briefly, tenderly
again, fading slow

I picked up your
Broken pieces
Shattered, one by one

It was incredibly hard
To see you so helpless
Broken promises
Of the past

You didn't believe in love anymore
You didn't care about it at all
But you wanted to, for me that
Was half the battle won

Frustration
Anger
Hurt
Misery

You felt them all deeply!

All you felt, all you became
I embraced completely
With every beat of my heart
Every bit of my soul

I loved your beautiful
Broken pieces
Nurtured them
Still love them, as you silently dream

And watch my broken pieces
From up above
You are with me
As my night turns to day

I listened to
your tender, loving words
I have observed
your actions... closely

My once happy heart
has turned to stone
In my solitude
My soul accepts all my tears

With my head
in the palm of my aging hands
I live with memories
I will fail to bury

Full moon between clouds
The darkness all around me
Awaiting the sun

I woke up this morning

with the sun in my view

birds singing a happy greeting

flowers smiling as I tickle their petals with drizzly drops


But my heart is heavy

my tears are flowing

another day

colorful accessories covering my grey memories of you


Driving, as I do every morning

coffee at the office and the usual

small talk

back in my space, alone behind a closed door to the world outside,


allowing my emotions to flow

onto this page

it is the only way

I would cope through this day, my tears frozen, for now

The beats of my heart... still
lovingly embracing
the night sky
ember ebbs to forever


I witness the stars
as they greet
where souls meet
under a galaxy of


loving dreams
of forever

Dance, dance, dance,
like everyone's watching...

Dance with me

your hands in places

I crave you

kiss my neck



Dance with me

till the sun greets

whisper what you need

all your desires



Dance with me

the stars our only light

our bodies

the only warmth

Wretched memories dance
Afraid to commit my heart
Dreamlessly dazzling